17th March 2021

"It's really weird, we are dating since september and this six months, you didn't write a song about me. Also my birthday is coming, 12nd April, I think this could be a good gift for me." said Bryce while we were sitting near the pool. All the boys were around us so I couldn't say what I want to say.

  "Yeah it would be good but I'm inspireless, I didn't even write a single song." I said.

  "Guys, can I invite a friend to dinner?" asked Kio. "I think you'll love her."

  "Her?" I asked. "Who is she?"

  "It's a suprise." said Kio. "You might don't love her but I'm sure the others will."

  Bryce wrapped his arm around my waist. "You're obsessed just let him go." he whispered to my ear.

  "It's not obsession, it's love and I can't be with him just because your obsession. Shut up Bryce or I'm gonna drown you in the pool." I said. I started to looking at my phone. Then I received an email from a clothing brand, they wanted to make a advertisement project with me and Bryce.

  "There is a clothing brand, they wants us to make a project with them." I said. "Hottest couple of Tiktok, what?"

  He smiled. "Yeah, hottest girl on Tiktok and hottest boy on Tiktok make the Hottest Couple, why are you suprised?"

  I rolled my eyes. "We need to go to a dinner at Nobu and talk with them tomorrow.They invited us."

"Okay." he said. "When we should meet with them?"

  "Erm... At seven pm." I said. Then Jaden yelled at me and called me into pool. I laughed and jumped in the pool.

   "What happened?" he asked. "You seemed uncomfortable, I thought it'd be better if I call you."

I smiled and wrapped my arms around his neck. "Thank you." I kissed his cheek. "You are my hero."

  "What you were talking, you were seeming uncomfortable? Or that was just because Kio has a new girlfriend?" he asked.

  "Both." I said. "Bryce asked me to write a song for him but the truth is, I lost all my inspiration. I cannot even write a hate song for him. Also Kio thing... It sucks that he ignores me. I know that's all my fault but... I don't know, I can't believe he stops loving me. I left him for Ryland and that was the shittest thing I've ever did. Ryland fucked me up both physically and mentally. When I finally realized that Kio was the best for me, it was too late."

  "Don't cry, Josh and Griffin are coming here." said Jaden. I wiped my tears also I don't think they can understand that I cried cause we are in pool.

  "What is up kids?" asked Josh wrapping his arms around my neck.

  "Not much, what about you?" I asked.

  "Actually we thought we could invite our girlfriends to dinner, I mean, Jaden why don't you invite Mads?" asked Griffin.

   "We are not dating yet." said Jaden. "But I can invite if it's not a problem for you." asked to me.

  "No, you can invite." I said. "She is not my enemy."

  "Umm, can I invite Avani?" asked Anthony.

  "Well, she is my enemy." I said. "Anthony, she cheated on you, she had sex with lil dicky, pardon, hoodie and she asked Jaden for have sex. You cannot trust her."

  "It's ironic that you're saying this." said Anthony. "I don't trust her but love her. You can under the way I feel."
 
  He is right. I know this stupid feeling. "Okay." I said. "But I cannot guarantee that I won't kill her."

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   "Why are you so nervous?" asked Bryce holding my hand. "Don't worry, Kio's new girl can't be more beautiful than you."

   "I don't care about how beautiful she is. All I care about is if Kio loves her or not." I said.

  "Aww, that's so sweet, true love." said Bryce. "Oh, wait, it doesn't work like this, there should be love on two side. But he doesn't love you. Well, at least you can understand me now, Lana."

  "How can you say my love for Kio is the same with your obsession to Addison." I said.

"For you, not Addison. It's love not obsession. Lana, why can't you understand?" he came closer and knelt to the ground. I was sitting in from of my makeup table. "What I feel for you it's real. I'm serious, my feelings are real. Why it's that fucking hard to give me a chance."

  "Fuck off." I get up from chair and went to my jewelry box, I was looking for a good earring. I chose two but couldn't decide.

  "Pearl one." said Bryce.

   I started to looking around pretending I'm trying to find something.

  "What? What are you trying to find?" asked Bryce.

"Where did I ask for your opinion?" I said. He rolled his eyes.

  I picked the gold earrings and posted a photo.

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   We were sitting on the table and waiting for Kio to bring his girlfriend.

  "Why are you look so nervous hunny?" asked Avani. "Who is making you uncomfortable?"

  "You, slut." I said. "Can you just shut the fuck up?"

  "She is still too aggressive." said Mads to Jaden. "I wonder how you can be bestfriends with her?"

  "You were her bestfriend too." said Jaden. "I'm sorry Mads but I won't let you to mess with my bestie."

  I smiled bitchy to Mads. Then we heard Kio's cars sound. Bryce wrapped his arm around my waist and pulled me closer, pecked my lips.

  Then Kio came with Riley Hubatka. What? Really?

  They sat on table. I started to examine her face. She is extremely beautiful, God, how can I compete with her?

   We started to eating, Riley was talking with everyone, she is definitely my type of girl, actually I think we would have been good friends.

  "Hey Lana, can we talk?" asked Dixie. "In private, please?"

  "Sure." I said and we went somewhere far away from table.

  "Look, I will cut a long story short, Addison is not into Ryland, she is dating with him just to make you jealous." she said.

  "Why?" I asked.

"Cause she is still in love with Bryce." she said.

"Are you serious?" I asked. "Okay I'll talk with her but I want you to know I don't love Ryland anymore. All I care and love about is Kio."

"Oh, I thought you were in love with Bryce?" she surprised.

  "Oh, yes. I meant Bryce. I'm so stupid, Bryce, all I care about is Bryce." I said and we went back to table. Then boys started to do beer contest, Riley and I joined too.

  "I like you a lot." said Riley. "I think we should see each other more."
 
  "Yeah, totally." I said. "I guess you don't care about being besties with your boyfriends ex. We can meet and talk about him."

"Yeah, definitely." she said. I fake smiled then went serious. "Screw it." I showed her my middle finger and went into house, I took some drugs with me and took a hoodie, then left the house.

  No one realized that I'm leaving, not even Bryce.
Thank God, finally I can be alone. I didn't take my phone with me, jumped into my car and started to drive. I opened all the windows, felt the wind on my skin, looked at the stars and endless road.
I drove without knowing where I'm going.Then I stopped at somewhere gives me forest vibes.

  I took pills, smoked and started to thinking about all the things happening in my life.

I lost my sister.

She is alive but we are dead to each other.

That's one of worst feelings ever.

Why I always lost the people I love?

I lost Kio just for saving Addison.

I lost Addison just for saving Addison.

I lost Mads just for saving Addison.

I lost myself just for saving Addison.

Then why I keep saving her? What if Bryce posts her nudes? We will break up and I will be free.

Would Addison forgive me? Would Kio forgive me, leave Riley and turn back to me?

Is he really in love with Riley? Her eyes are amazing, a calming tone of green like emeralds, just like Kio's. She laughs like God, her skin is soft like snow, like cotton, like silk. Her lips are so soft, so kissable and her perfume is fresh like daisies. She is perfect.

Then I realized I've been here for too long, also I parked my car on the road and I get so far away, I couldn't even see straight, dark Sprite on my hand, I saw a car light, coming to me.

  I realized that's Kio's car, I couldn't be more happy. Then I saw Riley is there too.

  Kio jumped out of car and came near me. "Oh, God, Lana why did you just leave like this?"

  I didn't answer, just sipped my Sprite lightly.

"Are you okay?" he asked.

"I've had better days." I said sitting on the ground, propping my back to a tree. "It's a cold night, huh? Or am I the only one feels this way?"

"Are you drunk, or high?" said Kio.

"No mister officer, I only drank Sprite, do you wanna take a sip?" I handed the bottle to him.

"Stop talking shit." he said. "What are you looking for at 2 am in the forest?"

"I'm looking for honesty." I said. "Is she your girlfriend?"

"Yes, we are dating." he said. I never knew people can use a sentence as a knife to shred a heart.

  I laughed and went closer to him, I put my hands to his chest. "No you're not in love with her."

  "I am, Lana. What did you expected? Did you expect me to wait for you to come till the forever? Just for get a quick fuck?" He asked.

  Tears went down from my eyes, ruining my makeup. "I don't even wanna fuck, I just like you."

  "Yeah and in the morning you were liking Bryce. Remember your caption?" he asked.

  "It was for you. Kio, you are the one that I like, you are the one that I want to be in my life. Look, there is something I can't explain to you..." he interrupted me.

  "Riley is the one for me, Lana. It's not that fucking hard to get it. She is the main girl of my story." he yelled at me.

  I looked at the car, Riley was looking at us. I laughed.

  "Oh God, think she is onto me. If she got a problem then tell that lil bitch to come over and talk to me." I said.

  "Don't call her bitch when you're the biggest bitch I've ever met. I wish I never told you that you're hot, I wish I never respond all these texts. Thank you for fucking my life just to get a fuck from Ryland and Bryce." he yelled.

  "Kio you're too angry, you are not good. Take a dip from candy." I said handed one of my ecstasy pills to him.

   "Stop it. You're in love with Bryce and if you're looking for a fuck buddy I won't be him. Ask Blake, maybe he wants." he said and headed to car.
"By the way your boyfriend is worried about you, you'd better turn back to home."

  He left. He is gone.

  I ran to my car, jumped in started to drive to home. I was too angry to Kio, to Riley and myself. When I arrived to home Bryce was waiting for me.

  "God, Lana where were you?" he asked.

  I kissed his lips with a great passion. For the first time, I'm the one who kiss first. He puts his hands around my waist and kissed me back but then he stopped. All the boys were looking at us.

  "What happened? Where were you, why did you left, why is your makeup ran down?" they asked.

  "Nothing serious, just another seizure." I lied. "I had to left the home but I turned back." I wrapped my arms around Bryce's neck. "Can we go to our room? I'm too tired."

  "Okay." he said hugging me. We headed to room, I  removed my makeup off, took a shower, wore my lingerie pajamas and turned back to room.

   Bryce was laying on the bed, looking at his phone. I sat on his lap and started to kissing him.
He kissed me back, he put one hand on my leg and one to my cheek. I wrapped my one arm around his neck and the other was on the bed.

  "Well I don't know what happened but I like the new Lana better." he said.

  I smirked. Kio left me, he is gonna be spending his  day with Riley, that's a quite good reason, Bryce.
"I guess I just missed you, daddy." I whispered to his ear, he flipped me over and went top.

"God, you're the hottest thing I've ever seen." he started to sucking my neck...