*pretends that it's wednesday*
chap's extra long :'')

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"Do you fucking know what you've caused?"

Jeongguk was on the edge of losing his temper, his one hand tightly gripping the shirt of the man in front of him.

"I'll end you, do you hear me?"

The angry idol again slammed the intimated male against the wall, his burning glare boring through the other.

"Jeongguk, he leaked information, he didn't kill anyone."

Namjoon along with the rest of his friends and managers, were in the managers' office where currently a worker was pressed against the wall.

"He killed my friendship with Yun, this fucking-"

"I'm sorry! Really!"

The worker tried to apologize as he sensed that Jeongguk was about to slam him again into the wall.

"I just really needed the money. My girlfriend plans such an expensive wedding, I just-"

"Well, guess what? She'll leave the second she knows that I'm gonna sue you so that you will have to work every single day of your pathetic life in order to pay-"

Before Jeongguk could finish, his managers stopped him before things escalated even more than they already had.

"That's enough, Jeongguk. You had your fun. As for you Mr. Lee: it is a shame that such a good assistant as you betrays our trust like this. You are fired and will have to face the legal consequences of your actions."

"Please don't sue me, I will-"

With that, the former top assistant of Jeongguk's manager was dragged outside by the security.

"We owe you an apology, Jeongguk. We didn't think that the proximity of our assistants would lead to such a mess. It was our mistake to discuss such secret information like your pause in such a careless way. We apologize for that."

There it was. It's wasn't Jeongguk's fault. He should be relieved. But the idol didn't even listen to a single word his manager said.

His thoughts were completely swirling around one question.

How the fuck do I make this right?

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It took Taehyung a while. After the question of who leaked the information was cleared, Jeongguk fled the scene without a word. His friends divided themselves into groups in order to check his apartment, studio and the dance practice room.

Only Taehyung, after a while, had the idea to check the company's roof.

And when he arrived at the very top of Bighit Entertainment, he was lucky.

But Jeongguk wasn't. There, facing the fascinating skyline of Seoul, was sitting a frustrated boy. Just like his soft locks, he seemed to be gone in the air.

"Gotcha."

Taehyung carefully mumbled as he approached his best friend. However, the other didn't seem to react to his presence.

"That was one of a plot twist, huh?"

The older tried to lighten the mood but Jeongguk seemed so far away from him right now.

"I am a horrible person."

"No, you are not."

Taehyung strongly disagreed, brows furrowed as he faced the dull expression of his friend.

"I didn't believe her."

"Jeongguk, nobody saw that coming. Assuming that she was the source was the most logical explanation. It's not your fault."

But it was like Taehyung's words just bounced off the younger.

"She hates me."

"She doesn't hate you, Jeongguk. Just explain everything to her and it will be fine."

Taehyung's voice became softer as he took in the fragile state his friend was in. It seemed as if there was an internal war going on inside of Jeongguk, a war against himself.

"I said so many horrible things to her. There's no explanation for that."

The older's heart ached at the sight of his hopeless friend. But this was not the Jeon Jeongguk he knew.

"Fine, if you don't want to apologize then don't."

The brunette turned to face the scenery, casually picking on his nails as he leaned against the handrail of the roof.

"It's not like I don't want to apologize. It just won't work."

Jeongguk objected in a clearly irked tone.

"Whatever floats your boat. All I know is that the Jeongguk I know would be already on his way to get what he wants. But don't mind me."

The younger scoffed at this as he fully averted his attention to his friend, crawling out of his depressing mind state.

"It's not that easy, okay."

"What? Sitting here and drowning in self-pity? Yeah, that must be hard."

Jeongguk boxed his friend. Taehyung let out an exaggerated yelp and rubbed his harmed arm.

"Thank you."

With these words, the younger was on his way downstairs.

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This was a bad idea. A bad bad idea. But it was better than sitting around and pouting. Jeongguk hesitantly knocked at the Do's door.

It was a remedy that a smiling  Mrs. Do opened the door.

"Hello, Mrs. Do. Nice to see you again. Can I come in?"

The woman gladly stepped back to let the young male in.

"Jeongguk, it's been a-a time?"

Jeongguk entered the small apartment but there was no sign of the girl he was dying to see.

"Yes, it's been a while, Mrs. Do. I do not want to be rude but could I talk to Yun please?"

The woman seemed surprised by the formal request but approved anyway. However, when her daughter didn't come out when she called she turned skeptical. 

"Do Yun. Come out this instant. You have a visitor and I hope for you you're not planning to be rude."

Hearing this, Jeongguk panicked. He wanted to talk to Yun. Not cause further family drama. Just when he was about to assure Mrs. Do that he was fine, Mr. Do appeared in the living room.

"Oh, Zhang, hello. I was just-"

"It is Mr. Do for you."

Jeongguk was taken aback by this.

"And my daughter clearly doesn't want to see you, so leave my apartment."

Jeongguk and Mrs. Do were about to argue when Mr. Do repeated his command in a more intimidating tone.

"Leave. Now."

Not wanting to cause a fight, Jeongguk decided to leave. It was clear that Yun didn't want to see him anyway. Who could have thought?

While his chauffeur was driving him home he tried to spam the girl with apologies.

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bunnyluver

jjeonggukk

I know these words won't make it up
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But I am sorry
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I'm so so sorry
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I would have told you that in person but you didn't want to see me
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What I can understand fully
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But oh my god please you have to forgive me
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I feel like the biggest idiot on earth and I probably am but I'm so fucking sorry for not trusting you
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I said so many horrible things I didn't mean
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I was just so angry, shocked and didn't know what to do
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But I know that's no excuse
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No don't block me
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Don't do this to me please
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Please
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I can't reach you otherwise!
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Yun...
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Gosh I fucked up so bad
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jjeonggukk

diminie

Jimin

Jimin

You gotta help me

I know now that Yun wasn't the source

Please I need to talk to her but she blocked me

Jeongguk I love you you're one of my dearest friends

But you fucked up big time and I don't want to be on anyone's side with this

Jimin please you have to understand that I can't contact her any other way Jimin please

Sorry Jeongguk you have to fix this on your own

Jimin I'm begging you...

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It's alright, Jeongguk can live with that. It's been three days and Jeongguk has accepted that there was nothing left he could do. He couldn't text Yun because she blocked him. He couldn't talk to her since her parents don't let him in.

He can't even catch her at the local market or other public places since he's famous. Jimin made his point clear that he didn't intend on intervening.

So yeah, Jeongguk tried everything he could to make it right. He was fine with it. At least that's what he told his hyungs every time they visited him to check if he was still alive. Their youngest hadn't left his apartment for three days in a row and when you enter his home you might wonder if someone died in there judging by the horrible smell.

Seokjin and Taehyung felt like they had to fight through a jungle as they made their way through Jeongguk's living room to his bedroom. All curtains were closed, not letting any ray of light enter the hell hole of apartment. 

They came with hope but weren't too surprised when they saw Jeongguk lying upside down on his bed, his hair greasy and crisp crumbles around his mouth. They walked in and greeted their friend, trying not to seem disturbed by the younger's state.

"Hello, Kookie. How are you?"

Taehyung already knew the answer but he was curious whether Jeongguk would admit his horrible condition today.

"For the thousandth time, hyungs. I am doing great. I'm just taking a few days off and after that I'll get right back to work."

Jeongguk beamed but there was no light in his gaze. The heavy bags under his eyes didn't help his credibility either.

"Kookie, if you are sad we can understand that and-"

"Sad? Me? Why would I be? Because I fucked up the only true relationship I ever had? Come on guys, there are plenty other people out there to talk to."

Taehyung and Seokjin exchanged worried glances.

"Jeongguk, it's normal to feel this way. You're feeling guilty and-"

"I'm not feeling guilty. Not at all. I mean yes, I accused her without any proof and said horrible stuff to her but life goes on. What do I have to do for you to believe me that I'm doing just perfect?"

The youngest jumped to his feet and rushed out of the room.

"Are you guys hungry? I could cook us some food. You know I'm g-good at cooking."

The other two males hurried to catch up with Jeongguk who was already in the kitchen. Their eyes widened as they saw him working with a burned pan.

"I burned my favorite pan yesterday but that's no problem. I'll think of something. Call the others as well. And tell them to brink drinks, like beer. Yeah, beer is good, or wine or even better-"

"Jeongguk."

Seokjin slowly approached the exhausted male to take the burned pan out of his hands.

"I'm fine, hyung."

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teathetae

diminie

Chim

Yeah

You have to help Jeongguk

Not this again

Which part of "I don't want to intervene" did you not understand

Jimin this isn't only about you

It's about Jeongguk

He's doing bad

Oh right it's all about Jeongguk forget about Yun's feelings

You know I didn't mean it like that

Taehyung I get it, we are Jeongguk's friends but what he did...he really has to make this on his own

I'm Yun's friend as well and I don't want to push her to anything

You are his friend Jimin you are supposed to help him

Jeongguk needs to learn that he has to fix his problems on his own

Especially those he's responsible for

I agree with you on that Chim but our maknae can't deal with anything on his own. No one can. Especially not him and you know that. 

You know he's been an idol since he was little. He is not used to this whole being normal stuff. And you know exactly that his status restricts him. He can't bang against her door or catch her in front of her apartment building, he is famous. The second he steps foot into public he risks not only his but Yun's privacy by trying to reach her

I know what Jeongguk did was wrong and I do not want to play it down

But we all do mistakes..we, as his hyungs, didn't think any better of the situation

We didn't really believe Yun either...we just made it worse

Okay I get all that but I don't want to get torn between the two, you know? I want to stay neutral in this whole fight because both of them are important to me and I don't want to hurt neither of them

Jimin Jeongguk is already hurting. He hasn't left his apartment for days. You'll think something rots in his bedroom. I'm afraid he'll set himself on fire during the attempt to cook somthing

He keeps saying that he is fine and over it but you can see that broken spark in his eyes and I'm afraid he'll eventually become crazy

JImin please he needs you

.. I won't help him

But I'll give him a chance

What do you mean??

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jjeonggukk

diminie

Hi Kookie

Oh hi hyung :)

How are you?

I'm doing fine, super duper fine

Really? Because the others told me otherwise

I knowww they're way too worried about me

But I promise you I'm 100% fine

I mean it's sad what happened between Yun and me but there's nothing I can do so

Well if you say so I suppose you don't need my help to make things right again

Since you're over it

Nah it's fine, really

Good

Okay I lied

Everything I said was a lie

I'm doing so miserably

I regret what I did everyday and I could cry myself to sleep by only the thought that I destroyed such an important relationship with my own fucking stupidity

That's more what I wanted to hear

Please Jimin I know you don't want to be involved in this and I can understand that, really

But I think I forgot how to use a shower

Alright

I won't help you

But I'll give you a chance

A chance?

6

6 what?

6pm

What about it?

That's the time Yun comes over to my house today

She wanted to get distracted from you because she hasn't left her room either since days

I told her I'd cheer her up

Come and say what you've got to say to her

Park Jimin I love you

Maybe say something different than that

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