•Fixation•

A strong interest or a concentration on one idea or thing; almost like an obsession

•Ashton•

Entry 2, 22nd of November 10:37am

....Dear journal or whatever the hell you are I don't even know why I'm writing in here....

It's probably because I have no one anymore and now I have a fixation on a book...

"I have a fixation on you Kat" I thought to myself.... arghh

I continue reading...

Have you ever heard the saying 'you don't know what you've got until it's gone' yeah? It's real as hell

There's this permanent feeling right in my chest

A squeezing sensation... It's like my heart reminding me of the bad things I done and punishing me for it

I should have been nicer to them.... No matter how they treated me...

I should of told them I cared as much as I did... Now their dead and I have to live the rest of my life alone and miserable because of my stupid mistakes

Heartless... They called me...

Right

Now I know I have a heart because it's breaking....

They've put me in my own room which I guess is okay...

Or maybe it's just because of the nightmares that come along with that package that is me...

I don't know if they regret "adopting" me or what ever but they give me pity and I don't want that shit

It's been what a week or what ever? I don't know but I'm sitting in this fancy as house with this pity full family and just wishing I died too...

Kat x

I need to call her holy fuck I got to.. If This mysterious girl whom I'm suddenly fixated on is like this in writing imagine in reality! I feel the need to know this girl so I'm going to stop being a pussy and call her

I pick up my phone and dial the number that's on the cover...

Here goes nothing....

BAM! There's another chapter! Your welcome.

I hope it was okay and I hope you don't hate me too much for that little cliffhanger!

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Kaydi lee❤️ xx

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