Freen was taken aback by the sudden demand. It was her wished to live in one roof with her woman and their child, yet there was an invisible tension hanging in between the walls they both built. She wanted to build a family, with the woman obviously. She wanted to foster a family that's tied with love and serenity, not with mere obligation. She don't wanna provide an obligatory stand for Becca for the sake of their child. She don't wanna live in the same household as Becca for the pursuit of another reason. Not for an obligation but because of the whispers of their hearts.

Becky waited for a response. Her eyes loomed hope and optimism as she waited for Freen to speak.

"I can't Rebecca. " She started. " I wanted anew with you, I wanted to build a family with you and our daughter but I know you want nothing of those that I wanted. I know you are thinking you have to do this decision for Fin but don't you think the more you let her be the reason of your decisions make her feel a little less? She will think we will live together for the name of love. She will expect more from us Becky. "

Freen paused. " I wanted to start a new life with you. I wanted to be better and make it right this time. And me moving in with you in this very vast moment make it more toxic for the both of us. We don't know what lies ahead of us, we don't know what's coming for tomorrow or the next day. I don't wanna hurt you, that's the last thing I wanted to do and I know you want the same. And if you would give me a chance, give it to me fairly. Let me work for it, don't decide when your head is over the idea of obligations. "

Becky nodded. She retreated, head hung low as the fidget with her fingers. " Trust me Becky, I wanted to be with you so badly. But let's not invade the reality and intensity of our decisions. This is not all just about the two of us now, we have a new life in between us and we have to reconsider it. We have to be cautious with our decisions."

"I know, I understand." Becky replied before beaming a soft smile. " You can go now Freen." She exclaimed. Freen nodded in response flashing a soft smile on her lips, once her figure disappear into thin air. Becky sighed before walking back towards the house.

The house is still empty, Charlotte must be still in the law firm. Refreshing her mind from the events that happened, Becky engaged into a refreshing bath seeking solace in the warmth of the water.  Once  she finished, she took an oversized hoodies paired with shorts underneath it before walking towards Fin's room.

Slowly, she pushed the door open. The little one was curled into a ball in the warmth of her bed, her hair invading her face as she sleep so soundly. She must be tired. When Becky sat beside her daughter, the bed dip with her weight, and Fin stirred on her sleep feeling the presence beside her.

"Baby." Becky whispered. " Mommy is sorry. " Becky was rubbing Fin's head softly, and somehow the little figure find solace in her touch. " Mommy is so sorry na. I didn't mean to hurt momma, I didn't mean to blow like that. I was just afraid, i'm afraid that someone took you away. I'm afraid that my little sunshine will be taken away from me. " Becky's tears slowly trickled down her cheeks down to her chin and slowly falling in Fin's blanket. " Mommy is scared that you would be taken away from me. You are my only hope baby, my only source of energy. And I don't know what to do if I lose you too."

Becky continue rubbing Fin's hear, whispering her fair share of fears as if her daughter will understand. " I know you badly wanna live with your momma, but i'm sorry baby. Mommy has to be selfish. I need to protect my heart, I need to protect you too from the hopes of it all. I need to protect the walls that I built baby. Momma shattered me, I loved her deeply baby. I loved her but I can't let her in." Just when Becky planted a soft kiss on Fin's forehead. The little one stirred and cupped her mother's cheek wiping the tears that had fallen into her.

"It's okay mommy. Don't cry." She exclaimed kissing each tears that coated her mother's cheek. " I forgive you. I'm sorry mommy."

Becky was on cloud nine as she wrapped her daughter in her arms. She was so happy that her daughter finally give in after days of ignoring her.

"Are you saying the truth? Are you really forgiving me?" She asked. The little one nodded.

"Yes mommy. I missed you so much." Fin hug her mom, it looks like Fin is the one cradling her mom due to their position but they couldn't care less.

"I love you." Becky whispered kissing the tip of her daughter's nose.

"I love you too mommy." Fin replied. "And I love momma too." She exclaimed before the drowsiness take over her again.

Becky watched her daughter sleep, how her figure resembles the other woman. How even her sleeping face screams Freen's resemblance and it irks Becky how she carried Fin for nine months to not even look a single way like her.

With one final glance, Becky left the room turning the lamp off and exit. She was checking the time to wait for Charlotte when the woman sent her a text.

Atty. Lottie
I won't be home for tonight babe, Ms. Taran held a party and I am invited. Close all the doors okay?  Be safe.

Becky sighed. " She better not get home drunk or i'm gonna freaking kick her ass." She muttered.  She was on the way of locking all the doors when she accidentally saw a car park outside their house.

It was Freen's.

Becky who was confused opened her door and unlock the gate as she approached the car. The car was tinted so she don't know what Freen is doing inside.

She knocked. And only the Freen opened the window. " Freen?"

"I—uh..." Freen stuttered unable to form words.

"What are you doing here?"  Becky asked.

"I don't know too." She replied.

"Perhaps you change your mind?" Becky  asked with a slight grin.

Freen shook her head. " Of course not. I just came here to inhale air. And I want to just watch over you."

"That's creepy you know." Becky replied. " Uh... Come inside." She offered. Freen nodded in anticipation as Becky lead her inside. There was a heavy silence hanging in the air, none of them talk and the only thing that can be heard in the room is their breathing. " Do you want anything to drink?" Becky asked.

"Nothing in particular. I'll have whatever you have in there."

Becky nodded and excuse herself to get something to drink. When she came back, she has green tea in her hands and her favorite milk tea. Just the same thing. Freen thought. "Here." She gaved Freen the tea and started sipping on her own. " We can go towards the balcony. We can look at the view of the entire city."  Without further interjections, Freen nodded her head and followed Becky.

When they reached there, she was amaze by the beauty of England. It was so gorgeous. She was stunned by how beautiful this country is.

Again, there was a heavy silence wrapping them as they sipped on each other's drinks. Freen remain a safe distance between them, and so does Becky.

"How's mom and dad?" Becky asked breaking the silence that grown between them.

"They are fine. They were actually going to Canada next month for another business meeting." Freen replied. "Mom also uh—keep asking about you."

"Really?"

"Yeah, and I still haven't told her about Fin."

"I guess we don't have to rush that." Becky replied.

"How's life in England?" She asked.

"It's nice. It gaved me a sense of peace when I moved back here four years ago. This place is like my solitude after everything that has happened. It keep my head sane aside from Fin. And somehow this city help me build a lot of memories, new ones, happy ones, and help me burry those that gaved me pain. " Freen gulped. She know what Becky is pertaining to. She can't blame her for burying all of those things and see won't force her to dig it back again. She can't ask her to dig the pain she already forgotten.

"I'm sorry." She whispered making Becky look at her. " I've said it a lot of times but i'm gonna say it again Becky. I'm sorry,  i'm sorry for all of the things that i've did. I'm sorry for all the chaos that I created in your heart, I never meant for things to spiral so out of control. I have made the biggest mistake of my life by hurting you. Every time I remember that I hurt you, I feel guilt hanging all over me. I am now a captive of my deeds, and you have the keys to my prison door.  After all the harm i've caused, i'm here to tell you I regret and i'm genuinely sorry. " Freen exclaimed and Becky's eyes showered tears.

She have heard her apologies a million time but everytime it dig up the pain she felt. She can't stop it. She can't stop hurting. Everytime she hear Freen say sorry only resurface the hauntings of her past. "I've got a lot of questions Freen. Millions of them everytime. I keep asking why did you hurt me? Why did you let me bleed like this? Why did you ever let my heart shatter this much? You claimed to love me yet I didn't felt that Freen. I didn't feel love in your actions." Becky replied. " Why did you hurt me? Why did you ruin me Freen? Why does it still hurts after all this time?" She asked softly. This time no anger included, just two adults talking about the life they once shared.

"I'm sorry Becky, I never meant for it to be like this. But at that moment when I met you the first time, I don't know why I told myself I would make you my wife, but I am a jerk. I always retreat when I have the chance to tell you I liked you. I liked you even before you know me so when you asked me for help I grabbed the chance. I grasp the only hope left in me to have you. I love you more than you know Becca, yet the fear I felt over rule the love that I have. I was scared, I was scared on how hard I am falling for you yet you don't feel the same. You haven't given me signs, nor clues that you felt the same way and I got scared. I got scared that I will be hurt by the love I have."

"You were scared that your love would hurt you so you hurt me instead." Becky replied. " Didn't you know your love burned me alive? Didn't you know I was so close on giving in yet I can't because I was thinking you dislike me. You made me felt the opposite of love Freen!"

"I know Becky! I know and that alone is unacceptable. But here I am Becky, I wanted to make it right. I wanted to try again with you. I know saying sorry won’t reverse time. But I am really sorry, and I will do anything to ensure that if you ever cry again, it’s only happy tears. It is impossible to change the past nor redo it, but you have my promise to make it up to you in the future. I am truly sorry. I'm so sorry for not living up to the vows I gaved you in our wedding day." Freen held Becky's hand. Her fingers were freezing from the negative temperature in the balcony but Freen's hand give her warmth.

Freen kissed her knuckles softly as Becky shred another wave of tears.

"I want to love you.  I want to love you with no hints of the past that have coated pain in my heart. I wanted to love you safe and raw, without no feelings repressed and force just to accommodate your love, I wanted to love you in every way possible and all of me but I can't. I can't do it because everytime I am haunted with all those things. I am haunted by the memories of the past.  I want to fall into your embrace, fall into you, fall into your love every single day. But I can’t trust you. And trust is everything. "

Freen nodded. Her heart ache at these very moment.

"There was a moment when I wished everything was perfect. When we didn’t have to think. When we laughed at the same stupid jokes and could almost tell what the other was thinking without trying. When I closed my eyes and dreamt of you. When your arms fit perfectly around my shoulders pulling me to you, and I felt safe. And now I feel lost. That’s how fragile trust is. One minute you know a person, and the next minute they transform before your eyes, becoming someone foreign and strange and terrifying. An invisible line has been broken, a barrier has been put up. It’s like you can almost hear the foundation cracking under your feet. And there are no words that can put two hearts back together. All my doors has been closed."

Becky met Freen's gaze. The brow orbs that hypnotize her started getting teary. Started to water as the tears fall off from her eyes.

"I want to love you, but I can’t trust you..." She started. " I want to love you, but maybe love isn’t enough."