Donny

Kanina ko pa napapansin na matamlay si Gab. Hindi ko siya matanong kung anong problema niya, kung bakit di niya ko pinapansin. May nagawa ba ko sa kanya? Oo, nasaktan ko siya. Pero parang yun lang eh. Ang big deal naman sa kanya.

Sinundan ko siya sa kusina. Huminga ako ng malalim at tinanong siya. "Gab, bakit di mo ko pinapansin? May problema ba?" Humarap siya sakin. "Ha? Problema? Haha! Wala 'no." Yung boses niya nanginginig. Nagulat ako at biglang tumulo yung luha niya. "Oh, bakit ka umiiyak? May nasabi ba kong masama?" Ngumiti siya sakin. "Eto para sayo. Basahin mo yan para malaman mo yung problema ko. Wag mo na kong kakausapin kapag nabasa mo yan." What?! Bakit?!

Pumunta ko sa kwarto ko at binuksan yung letter na bigay ni Gab sakin.

"To the guy I'm letting go,

Hey there, Dodong! Thank you for making me happy. You're my childhood best friend. The feels with those beautiful butterflies in my tummy. The promises. The future we planned together. Those were the things I will treasure forever.

Sorry if I failed being the one. Sorry if my love for you wasn't enough. Sorry for being a failure. Sorry if I can't fulfill my promises anymore. You were the one who turned your back first. I can't stay knowing that you're slowly leaving me. I can't fight anymore. I've already fought hard enough for you to stay. I was busy saving you not knowing that I'm losing myself in the process. Enough is enough. I need to save myself. I realized I can't continue fighting for a person who doesn't want to be fought for. Maybe it's time to let you go. Maybe it's time for me to find my happiness too. Maybe it's time for me to accept the fact that I can't be the one for you. Don't worry about me. You see, letting you go is no joke. Yes it's going to be hard. It will surely break my heart even more. And will probably require enough time to put back all the pieces, to be okay, to move on forward and to be in love again. Maybe not today. Maybe not tomorrow. But rest assured, I will.

By the way, I'm going to Australia. Be happy. Okay? I want you to be happy. I will be okay, I promise."

Biglang tumulo yung luha ko. Hindi ko nakita na may Gab na nagmamahal sakin, may Gab na laging nandyan para sakin, may Gab na handang damayaman ako sa lahat ng oras. Bakit hindi ko nakita yung halaga niya? Bakit kung kailan iiwan na niya ko tsaka ko na realized lahat? Ang tanga mo Donny. Isa kang malaking tanga. Hindi mo alam na may nasasaktan ka na.

Lumabas ako at hinanap si Gab. Gusto kong magsorry sa kanya. Gusto kong sabihin sa kanya na mahal ko siya. "Nasan si Gab?!" Lahat sila napatingin sakin, "Umalis na. Mauuna na daw siya." Tumakbo agad ako sa labas para habulin siya pero wala na. Tinatawagan ko siya pero hindi niya sinasagot. Ano ng gagawin ko?!