Notice: ___ is where you insert your name

He's not being truthful. Or maybe he is.

He's not telling me his feelings. Or maybe he is.

What am I to you? Please tell me, Hanbin.

YG: How are you nowadays?

You: I'm doing well. The members always self reflect so I didn't really have to do much.

YG: You've done a really good job. But it seems like you still have college?

You: Ugh yes. Not until summer ends.

YG: That's a shame. Yunhyuk will be back soon but have you thought about auditioning?

You: W-what?! Auditioning?

YG: Yes, if you're ever interested, since you're so close to all of our staff members and myself included.

You: But.. I can't sing nor dance.

YG: That's what Yunhyeong thought too. But now he's one of the vocalist of iKON.

You:..Thank you for asking.

YG: Well think about it and give it a try if you want.

I bowed to YG and leave his office.

What the hell. Audition? For what? Singing? Dancing? Rapping? Modeling? Acting? I can't do any of those. Is YG trying to mock me?!

I could just audition right in front of him, seriously. What the hell is YG thinking?

The members came back from their Japan Concert. It has been a tough week for them. I couldn't make it to the concert because I was busy taking care of YG's business. Aish seriously YG has been bossing me around lately. I'm not even his manager! He has his own manager what is he doing!

You: Must be tiring?

Hanbin nodded.

Hanbin kept on looking to his right. I look toward the direction he was looking and apparently he was staring at a movie scene they're filming. He's like a little kid who just saw something new, how cute. Wait I've never seen a movie filming live before.. I guess I'm not as excited as this guy.

Yunhyeong: I gave a candy to this little girl earlier~

You: Yes!! I saw! That was really cute!

Junhoe: You might poison her

Yunhyeong: Hey! I made sure that it was edible..

Junhoe: But candies are edible.

Yunhyeong: Then why are you complaining?

Chanwoo: You guys are so..

Junhoe: Shut up Yunhyeong.

Chanwoo: I'm Chanwoo!!

Junhoe: Wow can't tell the difference.

You: *laugh*

I turned to Hanbin and noticed him glancing at me but turned away when I saw. He seems down. What's wrong with him?

Oh yea should I tell the members about what YG told me?

Maybe I shouldn't. It'll be super awkward. Plus I'm considered old to be a trainee. I mean, I got no talent. If I did have talent then I won't mind auditioning.

Jinhwan's phone suddenly starts playing "Rhymth Ta".

Jinhwan looked at his phone and then got up and went somewhere else.

I wonder who called him? Seems secretive.

I look at Hanbin and he's still looking at the movie filming. Cute.

You: Hanbin you must be tired, I'll help you with the luggage?

Hanbin: Nah it's ok.

Ok.... rude.

You: Ughh okay.. Bobby I'll help you out?

Hanbin: Stop being annoying you don't have to do anything just sit there.

I'll just stay quiet. I'm tired of his moodiness.

Bobby: Hanbin don't be mean to her.

Hanbin: Tsk.

Is he back to his old self? Are we back to square one? This feeling.. it's like the first time we met.

You: No it's my fault. I shouldn't have ask useless things when you guys just got back and worn out!

I forced my smile and forcefully took some small essential stuff the members have and put it on the bus. At least I can do this.

I did told myself that I should have a break with Hanbin. Maybe I should just stay a fan after all. Maybe he's too good for me. No.. He is too good for me. I'm a manager. I should just stay in my own lane and protect iKON. I don't want to hurt Hanbin.

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Later that night...

You: I'm going to the convenience store~

The members asked me to go buy snack after I asked if they wanted anything. They seriously need to gain some weight therefore I didn't really mind buying them snacks.

It was pretty dark outside but I'm pretty sure nothing bad will happen. BUT if someone attack me, I got my pepper spray with me. My friend sent me this from the state. Thanks (__your friend's name__).

You: Ahh damn it, no more strawberry milk.

N/A: You want these?

Same location. Same feelings. Same words.

Is it you?

I turned around.

It was someone else.

N/A: My name is Henry, nice to meet you.

Woah he's American! His hair is blonde, his eyes are blue. He's super tall too. Probably 6'0 feet? His Korean is really good too!

You: Ehh thank you.. I don't need it though you can have it.

Henry: I saw you from a far and I thought you were cute. You can have it.

He forcefully gave the strawberry milk to me.

Reminds me of the first meeting between me and Hanbin.

You: Well thank you!

I walked away from him and suddenly he took my arm.

Gosh why the hell does everything this Henry or henwhat guy does reminds me of Hanbin. Is he the American version but taller??

You:..Do you need anything?

Henry: No, can I have your number?

Ok this guy is creeping the hell out of me now. Hanbin would never do this. Maybe I should just give him a fake number.

You: Alright. My number is xxx-xxx-xxxx.

Henry: Got it. Thanks. My number is-

You: Oh no no you don't need to tell me your number, just give me a call. Ok bye!

Please please get away already.

I paid for the strawberry milk and I could feel that guy staring me down as I walked out of the store.

Wait, why should I leave the store?

I can't be this dumb.

He might chase me down.

No one will help me then.

I walked back into the convenience store and pulled out my phone.

"Hello?"

You: Bobby!!! Please come pick me up.

Bobby: What's wrong?

You: There's a suspicious guy near me right now. Do you think you can pick me up?

Bobby: Sure but why didn't you ask Hanbin?

You:...Hanbin seems mad at me today.

Bobby: *laugh* He was just having a rough day. But I'm sure he won't like to see you get hurt.

You: Yea whatever. You thought wrong.

Henry: Eh, lady?

You: Bobby please come I beg-

Henry took the phone away from me.

You: Excuse me why did you took my phone away?!

Henry: I tried calling your number but it didn't go through. You gave me the wrong number.

Bobby: Hello? hello? ___ are you oka-

Henry hanged up the call.

His eyes are red and mad and it sends chill straight down my spine. That was the moment I realized, this guy is insane.

Ok let's stay calm ___...You've been through so much BS this should be normal. I hope... Bobby oppa please come!

You: Maybe I gave you a wrong number by accident..

Henry: I'll just put my number in your phone and call it

HE IS INSANE.

You: Please give it back.

He didn't say anything and puts his phone number in.

I pulled out my pepper spray.

I sprayed his ass.

Henry: What the fu* (in English)

You: That's right you piece of crap, give me back my phone you psycho (in English)

I mock him and before I made a ran for it. I pushed him a bit and then with all my strength, I ran straight out.

When I ran out of the convenience store I bumped into Hanbin.

You: Hanbin?!

Hanbin: What happen? Bobby told me you're in trouble.

You: I thought Bobby was coming.

Hanbin: Why didn't you call me instead of Bobby?

You: I don't know you seem mad and tired so I didn't wanna bother.

Hanbin: You know how much you worry m-

Henry: You damn b*.

He opened the door and found me and Hanbin outside.

You: Sh*.

Hanbin: Is this the creepy guy?!

You: Where's Bobby!!

Hanbin: Why are you asking for him in this urgent situation!!

You: *whisper* He's too tall for you..

Hanbin: *whisper* But Bobby is almost my height.

Henry: What the hell are you guys whispering about?!?!

You: Listen, if you don't stop bothering me. I will call the police and yes there is a police station near here. I pepper sprayed you because you were harassing me ok?! It's self defense!!

Damn my English was good. Hanbin did you heard that.

Hanbin: Yea get lost.

Ok how the hell did his short English sounded cooler than mine?!

That Henry dude suddenly got all red and left.

What the heck.

Well I guess being big doesn't really mean anything.

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Hanbin and me walk on our road back to the dorm.

Hanbin: I didn't know you're that good at English *smile*.

You: Oh, haha *blush a little*.

This moment reminds me of that night where we were both so awkward.

You: I have-
Hanbin: I have-

We both spoke at the same time.

Hanbin: You go first.

You: No you go first!

Hanbin: I have a feeling you've been acting differently around me.

You: What?! No you've been the one who's been avoiding me!

Hanbin: I wasn't..

You: Yea you were!

Hanbin: I don't understand us sometime.

My heart aches a little.

You: Neither do I. I feel like there's nothing between us. And yes, even if we did kissed.

Hanbin: Empty?

You: Yes empty. I guess it wasn't me who feel empty. Our relationship, whatever it is, that is.

Hanbin: You've been upset over that?

You: Yea Hanbin, I'm so upset I don't even know what kind of relationship I suppose to have with myself

Hanbin: Then, what do you want us to be?

You:..Well.. I want us to be..

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