★★The only way out of the labyrinth of suffering is to forgive.★★
                   _____John Green

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Zeeniya's POV.
Next morning, I got up and went to washroom to do wudu. I came out of the washroom and covered my head with dupatta to offer my Salah .I checked time it was 15 to 6. I saw Jahan who was still sleeping. I didn't call him but how to wake him for Fajar Salah .I thought for a second and a smile touched my lips.

Ready to wake up Jahan !

I set an alarm and put it near his ear. I looked at his sleepy face and smile. I placed my prayer mat and start offering my Salah .

I was performing my Salah  when I heard the alarm ringing. I completed my Salah  and turned to the bed to see if Jahan was there or not.

He was not on bed that means he was awake. I made dua and got up. I turned to go when I  saw Jahan standing behind me. He took prayer mat from my hand and placed it on floor.

He started his Salah and  I went to bed. I sat there and start reciting Quran pak. I recited Quran pak for 15 minutes. When I completed my verses, I saw Jahan sitting besides me on bed. I slowly got up and placed Quran pak on its place.

I looked at bed where Jahan was now laying. I came out of the room. I covered myself with shawl. It was the beginning of the winter and mornings were quite cold. I  noticed that in Karachi the weather was not so cold as it was usually in Islamabad. I walked slowly on stairs. I opened the door of hall and went out. I went directly to the lawn. I started walking in lawn. The cold air was touching my skin. It was giving me pleasure,happiness. I went near the flowers hanging on the branches.

I smell the flowers. White and red roses were dancing in the air. I went near the white roses and touched them.

While playing with roses, I felt someone watching me and I turned to see and looked up at the window of my room. I saw no one there but the window was opened. I didn't open it then how?.

My heart beat increased and I thought for a second maybe Jahan was watching me.

But wait why will he look at me? He didn't looked at me when I stand in front of him. When I called him. when we eat together, he never bother to look at me and when I am walking down here,he suddenly start looking at me. Stop you idiot...stop hoping things that can never be happen.

I scolded myself and start walking in lawn. After walking for a while, I went inside and directly went to kitchen. I start  preparing the breakfast for Jahan. It was 8 o'clock, when I done with breakfast. I went toward room to see if Jahan was ready or not and what I saw?

What!he's still sleeping.

Jahan was on bed,lying completely in his deep slumber. I opened the wardrobe and took his cloths out. I placed his clothes on the edge of bed and shoes near the table. His files and laptop were placed on table already.

Now how to awake him? I was surely not calling him or shaking him. Then how?

I start roaming in the room thinking how to awake him. Again I saw alarm clock which can help me to wake him up. I set the alarm and placed it in his hand which was lying on bed.

5  minutes and he'll get up..!

I smiled. I knew one day Jahan will break all the alarm clocks.

I went out of the room and close the door of the room. I stood beside the room door. After few minutes, the alarm start ringing. Few seconds later, I  heard the washroom door opened and then the sound of closing door. I went to kitchen and start waiting for Jahan. After 20 minutes, I saw Jahan coming. I start placing breakfast on table. Jahan looked at me. He walked toward me while I kept myself busy in keeping things on table.

"Um..I.." He tried to speak and I felt my eyes going wet

I tried to control my tears and tried to push them back. In order to control over my tears,I coughed a little to prevent my tears. I composed myself.

"Breakfast." I said and turned to go to kitchen.

I came back with juice in my hand. I saw Jahan still standing there. I didn't look at him again and silently placed the juice on table. He was still standing there. I turned when I heard him again.

"I'm sorry." He said and I was like really..I heard him right or it was just in my thoughts.

I turned in shock,looked at him.

"I'm..I'm s...sorry." He said and looked down.

My heart felt all the pain again which his words gave me. My eyes welled up and I again tried to push my tears back and in result, I start coughing.

"Are you alright.?" Jahan came forward and asked worriedly.

I coughed to clear my throat. I looked at him.

"Are you alright?" He again asked and I nodded.

"Breakfast." I pointed toward the breakfast.

Jahan looked at me and sat on the chair. I served him breakfast. He looked at me for once and then start eating. I sat next to him and start drinking juice. I didn't look at him for once. He finished his breakfast and stand up. He looked at me but I avoided him. I start picking the utensils and went to kitchen. when I reached in kitchen, I saw him still standing near the table. He was looking tensed.

Good! Now you have to know how it feels when you avoid someone. How it feels when someone don't listen to you. Feel it Jahan. This is the reaction of your action.

I waited for a little. I saw him going upstairs. After 5 minutes, I also went to my room. I saw him checking his file. He looked up to see me. I just take a look of him and then averted my eyes from him.

I went directly to my wardrobe. I just start cleaning my wardrobe only to show Jahan that I'm busy. I didn't turn to look at him but I was feeling his eyes on me.

"Listen." He called but I didn't turn.

"Umm..I'm..I'm sorry." He said and I turned to him.

"Are you talking to me?" I asked in amazed tone.

"Yes,actually.." He was saying but was interrupted by his phone.

He looked at me and then took his call.

"Yes,yes I know I'll be there on time." He said.

After completing his talk,he put his cell in his pocket and looked at me.

"Actually I..." He tried to say something but I raised my hand to stop him.

"I think you should go." I said in annoyance.

"No..I..you know.." He again started and I again stopped him.

"I know you have an very important meeting. Don't be late. Go,go Na." I said angrily.

He again tried to say something but before he could say anything,I said.

"Go na else you'll be late." I said and walked out of the room.

I went to kitchen to hide myself from him. My tears were rolling down on my cheeks.

You don't have time to say sorry.Huh what a life! A life in which Jahan you don't have time for me and now you don't have time for apology. Huh! silly me, expecting him to give me time and expecting from him for apology.

I saw him going out of the hall. I slowly walked toward the hall door. I slightly came forward to see him. He was seated in his car. I hide myself with the help of door.

He started his car and I start reciting all the surah's .As he start driving,I blew them over him. He drove off the car and the watchman closed the main door. I closed the hall door and went to my room. After cleaned my room, I took my diary to write something.

I was expecting him to say sorry. Sorry from heart which i could feel but no he just want to use the words. I don't need his "sorry" but his presence in my life in my every moment. if he's sorry then he should  talked to me. Make it clear to me about his behaviour. But no he has his own limits which he doesn't want to cross. He just made a boundary around him which he never crossed nor anyone else can. But no I will not leave you like this. I won't be disheart. you have to come out of your shell. I will cross your boundary and will reach in your heart. You just wait and watch Mr .Jahan Ahmad. I'm coming in your heart to live forever. Keep it ready.

I smiled while writing my diary. I read what I wrote and closed it.

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Night....

Finally it was night. I spent my whole day in sleeping and roaming in all house. In evening, I took a shower and dressed myself with white frock which had red embroidery on it.I combed my hair and tied them in a pony tail. I wore my bangles and earnings.I applied kajal in my eyes.

I was waiting for Jahan. Of course I was angry with him but it didn't mean that I couldn't get ready for him.I made myself beautiful only him and now I was waiting for him. At 8 pm, I heard the horn of his car.The watchman opened the door and he drove in.

Few seconds later, I went to open the door. I opened it and saw Jahan standing there hand on bell. I opened the door before he could ring the bell. Our eyes met for a second and I immediately lowered my gaze. I got aside to give him way to come in.

"Assalam-o-Alikum." I slowly said.

"Wasalaam." He said and we walked together toward our room.

At stairs, I stopped and Jahan who was going in his thoughts noticed that I was not with him also stopped and turned to see me. I just looked into his eyes for a second and then again looked down.

"I'm going to make tea for you." I said looking down.

"Hmmm." He said and start walking.

I went to kitchen and prepared tea for Jahan. After putting tea in cup, I went to my room. I saw Jahan seated on bed,lost in thoughts. I placed the cup on side table and turned to go.

I closed the window of the room. The weather was cloudy. The cool air was blooming. I shut the door of balcony. I was about to go out of the room when Jahan called me.

"Sunno(Listen)." He said and I stopped.

I turned to face him but my eyes were still looking at the carpet of the floor. He came near to me and cleared his throat.

"I tried to say it in morning but.." He started and I was listening him.

"Look i'm...i'm very sorry." He said.

I waited for him to say something else but he didn't utter a word. I looked at him in annoyance.

Sorry..that's it

"Really? Sorry? For what?" I asked looking into his eyes.

"For you know!." All he said.

"No I don't know. Please tell me the reason." I said confidently.

Before he could say anything else,the light turned off. The light was gone. Our room filled with darkness. I could not see him. The weather was also not good. There was all dark everywhere. I heard thunder which scared me more.

"Jahan." I called him.

He didn't answer me. I was so scared. I didn't know where to go. I was standing in the middle of my room,trying to find Jahan.

"Jahan." I called him again.

"Where are you Jahan?" I almost yelled.

Suddenly I saw a light,it was a little flame of candle. Jahan was standing near the door, candle in his hand.He came near to me.

"Are you okay?" He asked.

"Where did you go?" I asked looking at his face,cleared to my eyes in the candle light.

"I didn't find my cell so, I went to kitchen to get candle." He said and placed the candle on the table.

"You went to kitchen in darkness?" I asked shocked.

"I know my home. I can walk here even in dark." He replied and I just stuck on the word "my home."

He searched his mobile and turn on its light. He again went out of the room. After few minutes, I saw him coming, holding candles in his hands .He start placing the candles on table,side table of bed and on dressing table. He also lighten the candles placed on candle stand which made room lighted.

Now there was no darkness in room. The light of candles was making the room shine. I smiled looking at the little flames of candles. I looked at him who came closer to me.

"I was saying.." He again started,arranging words.

"You were saying?" I asked

"Sorry." He said and I looked at him. He was  not looking at me but was looking down.

"My question is still the same. Sorry for what?" I asked looking at his face.

"For yesterday's behaviour. I..I didn't want to shout and didnt want to say those words but...." He was saying but I interrupted him.

"But you shouted. You scared me yesterday. You also showed me my limits yesterday. You told me that what you think about me." I said looking in his eyes.

"Listen I.I...didn't.." He tried to speak but I again interrupted him.

"You showed me my limits Mr.Jahan Ahmad. You hurt me badly. And now you are sorry and only for the yesterday's behavior. What about the last whole month. Since the day,I came with you here;how you treated me. We are living in a same house but like strangers." I was saying and my cheeks were getting wet of tears. I didn't push them back. I stopped for a while and looked at him who was looking at me with shock.

"We are living like strangers. I never asked you to love me. I never asked for anything but I expect it from you that at least you can give me respect. I know you are not happy with this marriage and you think that I was with mom to force you for this marriage but its not true. I didn't want to force you. I never wanted to enter in someone forcefully but I did. I know I'm a burden on you but now if fate has made us companions,we should walk together. I'm not a thing that you just brought and placed in your house. I'm a human,your wife who have feelings and emotions." I cried while saying all this.

I was crying with hiccups. Tears were now out of control. Crying,I sat down on ground. He sat in front of me and looked at me. I looked up in his eyes.

"Anything else?" He said and I nodded,still sobbing.

"I know this is your home. Then where is my home?" I asked looking at him and he looked down for a second and then looked up into my eyes.

"This is our home and you are not a burden for me." He said and for the first time, I saw his eyes shining.

I lowered my eyes and my tears again roll down on my cheeks.

"Sunno..sorry..really sorry." He said and I looked at him.

I lowered my head because my tears were not stopping. I just couldn't stop my tears,brimming in my eyes again and again.

"Hey.." He called me and I looked up and I was shocked.

He was seated in front of me and was holding his ears. Looking at me,he was waiting for my words.

"Now My sorry is accepted?" He said looking into my eyes.

He was looking so innocent and cute,holding his ears that I could not controlled my smile. I smiled looking at him. I removed his hands from his ears.

"You are forgiven." I said and a tear escaped my eye.

His hand reached to my cheeks and he wiped my tears.

"Very sorry for everything." He said in sad tone.

My tears were rolling down and today I thought, I lost control on them. I wiped my tears but still feeling my eyes getting wet. I tried to push them back,stop my tears from coming out and in doing so, I coughed a little.

"Don't do it." He said and I looked at him questioningly.

"What?" I asked.

"Don't push your tears back." He said and I was shocked.

how does he know that I was  pushing my tears back. Stopping myself from crying.

"How do you know?"  I asked.

"When you do so, you coughed." He said while wiping my tears which were streaming down on my cheeks.

I was like really! He knows. I coughed because of my tears.

"You coughed when you tries to control your tears." He said looking into my eyes while his thumb on my cheek caressed it.

I this time didn't control my tears and let them come out.

"Now stop crying." He said wiping again my tears and I smiled while nodding.

I looked at him who was seated in front of me. I noticed that we were very