Called a cab and was on my way to the airport wishing everything would just end.

I took my hand and started hitting my head remembering that the tour would start tomorrow. I wouldn't miss it, not over some guy either. The cab guy turned around and drove me to the hotel, by the time I was back it was morning and I went in to eat breakfast.

Seeing the other dragqueens just made me so bloody happy. I took some breakfast and went to sit down next to them. We were chitchatting about our expectations for this tour. They all had this lit ass dreams they wanted to achieve. While listening to them I kept dreaming away, about how this maybe could be the turning point in my life.

When we were done, we grabbed our things and went out where the tour bus's stood. Michelle was there and told everyone where they should go. Katya, Trixie and Alaska would go to tour bus two, Roxxxy and Detox to bus number four. When it was my turn she pointed her hand to the third bus and I walked in. I couldn't believe what I saw, Roy and Shane in the same tour bus.

"Hey", I said just waiting for someone to make a move or at least say something.

"Hello", they both said in a choir.

I was looking around and saw that they both already had chosen a bed, which included me sharing a room with someone. I walked past, them as they stood around the table, in to the room and put my bag on the bed. It was a bunker, which means either Roy or Shane will sleep under me. I looked at the bag;

"Fuck", I said to myself looking as it seems to have been Roy I have to share a room with. I turned around and just looked at them, with no idea what to say.

"I lost rock, paper and scissor", Roy looked straight at me and said.

"Great, cause you saying that would make this whole situation better", I rolled my eyes so much they basically turned a whole 360°.

Shane hit the table with his hand so hard we both just froze.

"I ain't gonna take this shit for the next, I don't know, weeks or so. We all are gonna sit down and talk, it could make everything worse or better like just get along" we just looked at him and slowly nodded our heads.

We all went outside again to hear what Michelle had to say before we'd leave for our first stop, North Carolina. It was a long trip ahead but we had everything we could need inside. We also got our phones so we just had to text or call each other if something was up.

It was in the middle of the day but the tour bus was rolling now. We were all basically locked in until the first stop and we all just sat there... quiet. Shane was in his room, Roy in ours and I sat on the table just chatting with Katya who was one bus away but still one of my best friends. She talked about how happy Trixie made her and all I could do was smile. I was so happy for them and that Katya finally made a move! Shane got up and stood in the middle of the two rooms we both were in. He just stood there looking at us. Hinting that I had to make the first move, I tried to keep him down though because I have no idea what was going through Roy's head, also who wants to be the person who makes the first move? Not me at least. I tried to look at him but he just kept staring into the wall.

"Okay. That's it. We're gonna spend a hella a lot of time together so now it's time to get over yourself and talk"

He went into the room and took Roy into the kitchen/living room/basically everything, put him on a chair and just sat him there. Without any explanation whatsoever. My mind was just like an airplane, empty and filled with gas.