Holy shit I'm sorry for not updating! I forgot about this. Well anyway here's chapter nine :D

—•Your POV•—

My mom finally came home and I told her what happened. I haven't gone to school for the past four days.

*ding*

"God! I already know who it is, josh" I said. I picked my phone up and answered the text.

Josh: hey you feeling ok?
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Me: yea I guess
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Josh: have you been feeling you know.. suicidal?
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Me: a little.
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Josh: oh. Want me to come over?
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Me: no. I'm fine thanks tho.
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Josh: no problem bye
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I got up and walked over to my closet. I sat down and closed the closet door. In my hand was a razor. I was thinking of the time when Tyler would say "I love you my lovely" or little things like that. But then I realize how wrong I was to think Tyler actually loved me. I took the razor and put it against my wrist I sat there with it sitting on my wrist for a little while before I slit. I started crying. I opened my phone and looked at the picture of Tyler and i and smiled but then I lost my smile.

I got out of my closet and sat on my bed. "Why am I here" I asked myself. I lied down and went on instagram.
*ding*
_meerkat._ wants to send you a message. I looked at the message.

M: hey. Can I talk to you?
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Me: who is this?
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M: you already know. I had to make another account. Pls don't block tho.
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Me: what do you want?
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M: I want to talk
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Me: why!
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M: Jenna and I aren't together.
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Me: good
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M: I'm sorry. I don't know what happened. Can I come over. I miss you..
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Me: no!
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M: please I would like to talk to you in person.
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Me: fine!!
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I was so mad. Why did I let him come over!

About 7 minutes later I heard a knock on the door. I ran downstairs and opened the door. I didn't want my mom to answer the door.

"Hey.." Tyler said. I gave him a small smile and a little wave. I let him come in and we went to my room.

"So what do you want to talk about?" I asked. He looked up at me.

"I-.." after that he hugged me I stood there for a second but then pushed him off.

"We're not dating anymore!" I said a little aggressive.

"S-sorry. Um. Ever since you and I broke up I've been very.. depressed and sui-suicidal." I looked up at him.

"Well it's not my fault now is it." I said raising an eyebrow. He shook his head.

"I.. i just wanted to know if you still cared."

"Cared about what." I asked. We stood in silence for a long time.

"Cared about me. I've almost killed myself and .. I wanted to know if you cared if I died." He said. I nodded slowly.

"Of course I care. Just not as much as I used to. You've hurt me.. more than anyone. When I first met you I was the happiest I could have been. But then you ruined that and made me suicidal." I said putting my hands behind my back touching the lines. I looked down. "I-I just wish you were still mine." I said, voice cracking. "I miss you. I still look at the photos. I still pretend your mine. But-" after that I bursted into tears. "But then.. I realize your not mine and sooner or later I will have to stop pretending and start getting over I-it." I said crying.

I was still looking down when I felt to arms wrap around me. I wrapped my arms around his and cried into his chest.

"I'm sorry." He said. "I don't want to hurt you" he said softly. "Are you still my lovely?" He asked.

"I.." I started. I looked up at him. "Yes" I smiled and hugged him even tighter.

"I love you." Tyler said started to cry. We both stood there hugging till my mom came in my room.

"Oh. Um. I'm sorry. I'll just leave." After that my mom left and Tyler and I started laughing. I texted josh what happened.

Josh: oh , that's sick. But if he hurts you again I will do something about it.
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Me: lol ok
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Me: hey can you come over?
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Josh: let me check.
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Josh: yea. I'll be over in a jiffy. XD
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Tyler and I talked about small things until a heard the door bell ring.

"Finally someone uses the doorbell" I said smiling. I walked downstairs to see my mom opening the door.

"Oh hi." My Mom said to josh. I ran over to the door and let josh in. We went to my room and all talked.

"So how'd you and ty make it up?" Josh asked. I looked at Tyler then back at josh.

"Well. He made a new Instagram since I blocked his other account, and he texted me saying we could talk then.." I took out my phone because i forgot what was said in the texts. "After that I asked who it was but I already knew who it was. He then asked again if we could talk I asked why.. why don't you just look at the texts." I gave josh my phone.he then gave it back and laughed.

"Wow" He said. I laughed. " then what?" He asked.

"He came over we talked and we sorted things out pretty much and yeah" I say. Josh nodded. "I'm hungry" I say. I get up and run down stairs then I hear Tyler and josh running down too.

"What you guys want?" I asked. They shrugged.

"Whatcha got?" Josh asked. I looked around.

"Um.. uncrustables?" I say with a smile. Josh said nodded and took it. Tyler said no.

"I'm still gonna be hungry after this." Josh said.

"Well do you like fruit I have a whole bowl of fruit. Oranges, apples, bananas-"

"Ew. You like bananas?" Tyler says. I look up at him.

"Bananas are gross" josh adds.

"Um.. no I don't. I was only giving you an option just in case you did like them. Bananas are gross." After I said that Tyler hugged me.

"I love you even more!" He said then kissed my forehead.

After awhile we all found chips, and ordered pizza. We found a movie to watch after the movie we found a really good series,We all agreed to watch together only.
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"I have to go home guys. I'll see you guys tomorrow at school." Tyler said getting up.

"Wait!" I said getting up.

"Yeah?" I hugged him and kissed him and said goodbye. "Heh. Goodbye my lovely." He said.

"And I'm really your lovely?" I asked putting my hand on my hip and raising an eyebrow. He laughed a bit.

"Yes of course." He then had to leave and I let him go.

The rest of the day josh and I watched movies, until he had to go home. I don't want to go to school tomorrow. All the missing work I'll ha e to make up and all the F's I have in the classes. Great!
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A/N

Well there you guys go! I know it wasn't he best but at least I gave you something :) we'll see you guys in the next chapter!

-Bean
8/18/18
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