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I wrote this about me and people in general. As I see it, we all are selfish to some degree, and ultimately alone in many ways. This is my story this year so far, a story of loss and sadness as people and pets have left my life. It's how I feel -- alone. Maybe you feel alone too or maybe you can relate to something I say, or better yet, maybe this will inspire you to share something true about yourself.There is no hidden meaning in any of what I write and no great truths revealed. I'm not secretly sending a message to anyone who might know me now or knew me before, nor am I looking for anything from anyone. I simply needed to write some things down to express my emotions and share some of what goes on in my head. So take it for what it's worth -- nothing more than my fleeting thoughts. Enjoy!…

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A casual date under a thousand year old tree takes a turn when nature takes over . . .…

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This is a collection of rambling thoughts I have about sex and what gets people excited. These are my views, and I welcome yours! This is not meant to be an exhaustive list, or even balanced. I just hope to spark some interest, conversations, and common shared experiences. Or perhaps, I am just a freak! Either way, I hope you enjoy!…

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This is a special story written for a friend, someone who wrote two stories for me without pause or wanting anything in return. I hope you like it!…

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I feel worthless most of the time. Do you ever feel that way? This is my quest to figure out why and what to do about it. Ride this roller coaster of emotions with me, from the depths of deep despair and feelings of utter failure to the heights of a hopeful future.I hope to one day consistently and permanently change my outlook - my mindset and my inner voice - so I can live a happy fulfilled life. If that sounds like something you want too, I invite you to come along with me on this journey. I can't guarantee any easy answers, but I hope to ask the right questions. In my experience on this planet, ignoring things rarely makes them go away. So I choose to confront even the most difficult internal questions about myself in an effort to live my life to the fullest, or at least quit feeling bad about myself all of the time. I invite you to do the same in your life and ask some hard questions of yourself.Here's the chapters I plan to write at this time (I'll update this list as things change):What's Wrong With Me?Why I Wrote ThisFeeling Worthless (Why do I Ruin Everything?)Perception vs RealityHeart vs HeadAnxiety (Why Do I Always Worry)Addictions (used to feel so good)Divorce (hurts)Suicide (Why Should I Live?)Self-talk (Why is that Voice Inside My Head so Critical?)Mindset (how do I change it?)Subconscious (How do I control it?)Law of Attraction (How do I get what I want?)You Are Not Broken (Why none of Us Is Broken)SolutionsJoy In LifeAnd as with my other books, much thanks to @_MaeBae_4 for making such inspiring and intense covers! Check her out - her designs are fantastic and her stories are well worth the read.…

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This is a poem I wrote about life, using your bed as the marker of a life fully lived. I compare sleeping at night with taking a nap. But deeper than that, I am hoping to give the reader the experience of how great it is to steal away a nap in the middle of the day, contrasted with what we do every night by simply laying in bed waiting to fall asleep. Whether or not you are exhausted depends upon if you are living your life to the fullest or not. I hope it inspires you to live your life more fully, and take more naps.Note: I edited this poem and changed it's name from A Nap (or How To Live Your Life To The Fullest) to simply "The Bed"And a great big thanks to @_MaeBae_4 for her amazing cover abilities. She made this one and many others. She is the best at combining visuals to represent my stories. Definitely check out her stories on Wattpad as well. She's just awesome.…

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Lucy was the girl that was always in front of me but I never knew she was there -- until one night when I called her for some banal question about a homework assignment and suddenly Lucy's light shone bright in front of me. We talked all night and I knew from that moment on I would never miss an opportunity to see her or spend time with Lucy again. I knew what it was like for the first time in my life to fall head over heels for someone, immediately. What would come next, I could never have imagined . . .I want to thank @_MaeBae_4 for making my cover. She is really talented and you should definitely check out her stories and her great design skills!…

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Johnny and Lucy are in love. He invites her over to his house one day for a pool party for two. As they eat pizza and swim together, the sun wasn't the only thing heating up everything that day!Follow my favorite two characters as they embark upon some of the sexiest times together as a couple out in the sun! You won't believe what these two will do for each other they are so in love. And they aren't perfect, but they are perfect for each other :)I want to extend a special thanks to @_MaeBae_4 who made this cool cover for me. I'm not good at making covers so I very much appreciate her talent! Check out her work, read and follow her.…

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This is my real life reflections on what depression is. It includes sadness but it's much more. I try to explain it as best I can from my perspective having gone thru it for awhile. Maybe you can relate. Maybe you know someone who is or has been depressed. This is as real as I can make it, trying to make sense of it and reflect on it. Hope you find it helps you make sense of things perhaps to some degree too.…

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"We all want people to love us for exactly who we are . . . so we have to make the best of what we have" Wilson from the movie WilsonWhy do people and pets and relationships have to leave us? Why does life have to continuously move forward to be considered alive? We're all flawed. Why do things have to end? More importantly, how do you deal with that? I don't know, but these are my musings on death, something I think about in life a lot.Maybe you can relate or maybe you can provide some insights. Or maybe you will just get depressed reading it. Since death is a part of life, I thought I would comment on it since it is my biggest fear in life.…