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It all falls into place then. He knew, of course, he knew, saw Felix's face appear in the studio once he realized what was happening to him. It had been faint then, somehow. A truth so barely acknowledged that it lived only in the back of Hyunjin's mind, a secret, wrapped in layers of paper so no one would ever take a glance at it, not even him, even though he knew it sat there, uncovered but solid. Real.It's different now that the secret had been dragged into the light, the paper torn to shreds, and there's barely any surprise, his mind only catching up to what his body already knew, but his heart squeezes with the realization, surging through the pure, sweet taste of loving someone so deeply, only to sour when the thought hits him, that the flower growing in his chest and the petals making their way up his throat can only mean one thing:He's in love with Felix, but Felix doesn't love him back.…

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"Felix doesn't remember if there was ever a moment before this day that could have led up to this. The days after he spends hours thinking about it, dissecting every conversation between them, every touch, every moment of shared glances, and he looks for signs that those touches or those glances lingered longer without him noticing, or that either one of them said something that held more meaning than Felix noticed at the time. He questions his own actions and motives, wonders if he'd wanted Hyunjin in the way they had each other before this day, and maybe he just didn't know it yet."orFelix and Hyunjin leave a New Year's Eve party to change clothes. Somehow, they don't return for a while.…

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The call them Sensates. People who are connected - who can see what the other sees, feel what the other feels. People who can easily share their consciousness with the other. There are clusters all over the world, hiding in the shadows, and from those in power trying to exploit them.The members of Stray Kids don't know any of this when it starts. What they will learn though, is that their connection tests the very foundations of their relationships.And no one's more than Hyunjin's and Felix's.…

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"You're good, jagiya?" Minho asks and the sound of it rumbles pleasantly through Jisung's body.Sometimes, Jisung likes to think about Minho saying the words into his ear, thinks about how it would resonate through his body then, and he shivers at the thought.orJisung realizes he's attracted to Minho. Minho notices.This is a canon compliant minsung story told in three parts.…

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"He doesn't cry once the following week. He's too numb for it, too empty, and by day four he has everyone convinced that he's coming down with something.On day five he takes Hyunjin's rings off.He's not sure if Hyunjin even notices, but Seungmin does. He eyes Felix with a frown, glancing between his hand and his face, but doesn't say anything for the whole day. When on the next day Felix's fingers are still bare, Minho notices too. He keeps close to Felix that day, not asking any questions but giving a silent offer to talk if he wants to. He doesn't."OrFelix accidentally listens in on a conversation and Hyunjin's words break his heart.…

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"It didn't hurt. It never does, the pain is what comes before, and then Felix watches it seep out of him, and numbness replaces where pain has been. The numbness is what he craves. The not-feeling. It's what he craved then too and it did come but it didn't work like it used to. "orFelix cuts himself and Chan sees it.…

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'Hyunjin has always been different in that regard, and Felix is more careful, more mindful around him. As if the stakes are higher. (Felix loves each and every one of them so much, so he can't explain why the thought of angering Hyunjin, losing Hyunjin, makes him panic in a much different way than thinking about losing any of the others.)'orAfter filming 2 Kids Room with Hyunjin, Felix questions first his words to and then his feelings for Hyunjin. And slowly but surely, it becomes everyone's problem.This is a canon compliant Hyunlix story told in 12 parts.…