*the next day*
MATTIAS POV:

i woke up early today , around 9 am cause i needed to do some work before bella woke up.

*hours later*

i check the time after doing all the paper work to see.

"12 pm!" i said shocked.

i go upstairs to check if bella was awake.

TW// flashbacks and anxiety/panic attack

i open my room door slowly to find the night light open and bella under the blanket. i heard these strange whispers but only one i heard clearly.

"stop don't touch me" i heard bellas voice crying under the sheet as i quickly open the lights and remove the blanket to see bella curled up in a ball, uncontrollably shaking whispering to herself for someone to stop.

"bella, bella"i said trying to get her attention.

i place my hand on top of her hands that were shaking with fear.

bellas eyes shot open. he body seems to relax with my presence.

she sobs but not making a single noise as i just see tears escape her eyes.

i lay down next to her, hugging her from the back as her body settles down.

"it's okay baby no ones here it's just me alright" i said trying to calm her down.

she turns around and hides her face in my chest as she crys.

i'm not getting used to this.

it hurts so bad to see her like this.

"uh- he-he he wa-was there an- and-" bella try's to speak.

"shhh shhh it's okay it's okay" i said trying to calm her down as her hands were still shaking.

bella eventually calms down but still laying on the bed zoning out.

"come on i ordered some IHOP for breakfast" i said trying to cheer her up getting up from the bed.

bella sits up and lifts her arms up for me to carry her.

i have to make her feel safe again.

as bella started eating her breakfast which i thanked god for i texted the therapist and told her what happened.

she said it's progress for her to just let it out, she said to make sure i'm by her side since she doesn't feel secured enough alone.

i texted my mom and told her that we should come over, she agreed.

"i'm full" bella says putting down the fork as i lift my head up from my phone.

"come on bella just one more bite and you'll finish the pancake" i said as she just glares at me.

"just one, for me" i said as she sighs and takes a bite.

"there we go! btw we are going to your grandparents house today" i said.

"no no no" bella said.

"why not?" i said shocked sense she never disagrees to go to my parents house, ever.

"what about you? where your going?" she said thinking she'll be going alone.

"ohhh no i'm coming with you don't worry" i said.

"oh okay"

fuck

the therapist is right

bella goes upstairs and changes to a nike crew neck matching sweatpants with white af1s.

on our way there bella falls asleep, i smile to myself. bella always gets dizzy on car rides as usual.

once we arrived i didn't want to wake her up. i carried her inside the house were my mom was in the kitchen and my dad and luca were watching a soccer game.

"matti!- oh hey" whispers my mom as soon as she comes up to us.

i place bella on the couch next to my dad and luca and follow my mom to the kitchen.

i sit on one of the high chairs as she cooks infront of me.

"how is she?" my mom asked as i look at bella then back at my mom.

"not really good" i said.

"what happened?" my mom asked concerned.

i told her everything, the theripast, the anxiety attacks, her problems with eating these past few days, literally everything.

my mom just stares at me as i see guilt, sadness, anger, and mostly hurt in her eyes.

she comes infront of me and gives me a hug. no words, just a long hug that i needed.

"dad?" i heard bellas voice.

"oh hey bella" my mom waves at her as bella smiles and comes standing next to me.

i whisper in bellas ear "can you go hug nona she's been feeling sad" i said to her and she nods and goes for a hug.

"awwww bellaaaa" my mom says.

my mom started talking to bella and she was actually having a conversation.

i smiled and left them to talk alone. i walk towards my dad and luca.

"sup dad what's the score?" i say as luca raises his middle finger at me behind my dad while sticking his tongue out as i roll my eyes.

"we are loosing 2-0" dad said keeping his eyes on the scream.

"LETS GO!" he screams out of no where.

luca who was behind my dad jumped up as i laughed at him.

NO ONES POV:

while the boys were watching a soccer game, mattias mom and bella are upstairs looking through some photo books.

"don't tell your dad i showed you this but come here" mattias mom whispered while both of them were sitting on the floor.

bella came and sat next to her on the floor as she opens the photo books.

"is that, mom?" bella asks as mattias mom nods giving her the book to look through.

"she was beautiful" her grandmother said with a smile on her face.

"your father loved her with all his heart" she said as bella looked at a picture of them both laughing with a baby on mattias lap.

"is that me?" bella asks looking at her grandmother as she nodded smiling.

bella looked through pictures of her new born self on her dads lap with every picture.

"when you were first born mattia always had you around him, he would never leave you alone making sure you were okay" she said as she flips one picture to show to bella.

"this was you and your mom..."

bella smiled at the picture, she couldn't keep her eyes off of it.

"look at this picture" mattia mom tried to distract her from the picture.

"this was your dad and your uncle when they were kids" she showed her at bella laughed on how dirty their clothes were.

"why are all there clothes are dirty"

"they played with mud after the rain" she said.

*time skip*

TW

BELLAS POV:

me and dad were in the car on our way home. my hands started shaking but i didn't know why. at first i thought i was cold so put on my crew neck back on.

i looked at my hands and they were still shaking. i didn't want dad to see so i kept them under my thighs.

i closed my eyes trying to fall asleep since i get dizzy in the car. i couldn't.

i took a deep breath and looked out the window.

i closed my eyes again and i felt someone grab my arm. i opened my eyes and it was nothing.

stop being dramatic bella just calm down

my arms couldn't stop shaking.

i closed my eyes again and i felt someone touch my waist.

i open my eyes it was nothing. dad for a phone call but his phone was connected to the bluetooth the car started ringing and it made my jump a lil.

dad gave me a confused look and answered the phone but puts it in his ear.

(he disconnected the bluetooth so bella can't hear the conversation)

it was just something abt business so i just ignored it.

i look down at my hands who couldn't stop shaking.

i looked out the window as tears formed in my eyes.

stop being dramatic

i thought.

when we arrived i immediately got out of the car and waited for dad to open the door.

he opens the door and i walk upstairs normally so he doesn't suspect anything.

i go in my room and lay on my bed.

crying.

"bella!" i heard my dad calling my name.

i wanted to answer but i couldn't as i felt arms around me, touching me. i felt cynthias punch on my stomach. as just arms touching my body.

"bella!" dad called again.

tears escapes from my eyes as i was sitting up trying to just leave my room.

"bella" dad says as i hear his voice getting closer.

"y-yes" i replied wiping tears quickly so he doesn't notice.

he opens the door.

"i've been calling your name did you hear me" he said.

"no i was in the bathroom" i said looking around.

dad goes silent.

he comes closer as i keep just looking around .

he lifts up my chin.

"why were you crying?" he said.

"i wasn't crying" i lied.

"yes you were" he said.

shit.

i thought as i felt tears in my eyes.

"why are you crying?" dad asks.

i couldn't say anything.

i look too weak.

i hate it.

i hate it i hate i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it.

i look away and put my head down.

looking at my toes and my uncontrollably shaking hands.

"can you just tell my why you were crying"

still looking down i felt a tear escape my eye.

dad pulls me to hug him as i just cry.

"i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it" i said as i started moving angrily as dad still kept his arms around me.

"why why wh-" i cried as i kept moving angrily and dad never put his arms away making me calm down.

NO ONES POV:

mattia stays there in silent. he just wants her to let everything out not knowing it's hurting him the most.

mattia bends down at her level.

"bella" he says.

"mhm"

"you are the most strongest girl i know, you are the most bravest person i've ever met" he said as bella smiles.

"your my little girl and i will never let anyone even lay a finger on you" he says.

"you are the most-"

"dad stop" bella said laughing.

"what *chuckles*?" mattia says.

"you know i hate compliments" she says.

KAIRIAS POV:

we heard everything.

but we aren't in NJ.

you see we called mattia and we wanted to see bella. i think he forgot to hang up...

so we all heard everything.

i hang up and turn around to see the boys reactions.

roshaun has is hand on his mouth with "aw" eyes.
ale looks furious.
alvaro made the crying face (wasn't actually crying)

"can i kill those two motherfuckers plus cynthia and jora" ale says angrily.

"ale i cant believe i'm telling you this but you have my permission" roshaun says.

"guys *sigh*" i said.

"we need to do something"
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didnt proof read this so sorry for any mistakes. comment some ideas if you'd like anything to happen and what do you want kairi says.