I sat on the couch in total darkness, tears uncontrollably streaming down my face. Left alone to my thoughts and nothing else.

4.35 AM

The only source of light being from my phone, engulfed my face as i checked the screen for any sort of contact from him. None.

Am I overreacting? Is it childish to feel this upset?

This is the one day i was hoping he'd be there longer than he has before. I know he's busy, more than anyone i know. And i try everyday to understand his position. And i know he has it hard, taking over an entire business, that's well established all around the world must be daunting and tiring but i just don't get it. Why not tell me?

Why didn't he even call me?

As i got home i sluggishly took off my dress and shoes, wiping off what's left of my makeup that was already washed away from my tears.

Taking a long shower in the colossal bathroom that felt even more emptying in my heart.

"This is burning off my skin Antheia!" Adam retorted, fighting me off to reach the shower handle to change the temperature, not long before finding the perfect warmth for the both of us then placing wet kisses on my face, trailing my chin and down my neck. His large arms grabbing me from my waist, dragging my naked body pressing it against his.

I felt myself drown as i remember all of our times together in every part of the apartment.

Why does it feel like it's the end?

Putting on an oversized tee i dragged my feet to the couch, not even sure about what i'm waiting for anymore.

I could suddenly hear dangling of keys on the other side of the door before it pushed open. My heart sank and my breathing ragged. I hurriedly wiped the tears off my face, putting on a brave face as i watched him walk through the door. Sighing deeply and his head slumped.

His eyes widened as he saw me seated on the couch, immediately switching on the lights and rushing to me.

"Antheia i- i'm so sorry, please let me explain" He cajoled rushingly, his chocolate brown eyes desperately searching for mine. His warm hands reached out to clasp mine.

I could feel the lump in my throat widen, hindering me from speaking. All i could do was disappointingly watch his face. A face that brought me so much happiness everyday, a face i yearned to see every day. The person I burned for.

"What" I whispered meekly, almost entirely inaudible.

"I was on my way i really was but then i got caught up with a meeting from the board in Hong Kong and then the one in England, i couldn't get out of it i really fucking tried"

I felt disappointment overcome me, i couldn't bring myself to utter another word.

"For so long?"

"Antheia you have to believe me, i fucking tried. I couldn't even move"

"You could've called?" ... "I know i fucking know".

The grief inside of me shifted to another emotion i wasn't all to familiar with before, especially in this location. In this setting, with him.

I pushed past him as i stood up from the couch, finding it difficult to be in his presence.

"You want me to believe it was meetings that kept you until 5 in the fucking morning from seeing me on the one day i hoped you'd be there?" I gritted my teeth as i watched Adam's disappointed and grief stricken expression on his face. "And to not even have the decency to call this entire time?"

"Anth-"

"Am i that unimportant to you? The one fucking day Adam. All this time you're gone everyday for hours i never say a word. How could you do this?"

"Of course you are important to me, I didn't do this on purpose" He protested, frustratingly driving his hand through his messy hair. Violently taking off his jacket as he slammed it on the couch.

"I find that hard to believe, I don't know who the fuck you were really with and where. But i've had enough" I huffed, crossing my arms over my chest. The dawn chills lacing over my skin.

He furrowed his eyebrows, seemingly taken aback from what he heard. An offended expression on his face. "What the fuck? you think i was cheating?"

"Not like that isn't your character" I spat.

His jaws clenched, his eyes stabbing into mine. "I slave off everyday and you think i'm fucking cheating? Are you serious?"

Feeling uneasy and overcome with emotion I hurriedly tied my hair into a bun, brushing off my hair off my face. As if the slightest strand of hair could distract me from my thoughts.

"What the fuck could be so difficult that you couldn't even show up even for a little or even contact me today? Do you even know what it is today? What it meant to me?"

"I'm aware of the day Antheia, I don't expect you to understand what i have to do when all you do is laze around at home doing fucking nothing like a child"

I felt my heart sink deeper into what felt like a trench. My knees felt weak, tears unbeknownst to me fall swiftly down my cheeks.

I felt a rush of emotions engulf me, mostly the staggering sense of betrayal from the one person i trusted and felt safe with from the world. The one person i felt at home with. A strange and unwelcome sensation of coldness flooded me, i struggled to place myself.

Adam's expression immediately changed to a guilt ridden one, his eyes widened at his own words. "Anthe-"

"Now you fucking listen"

I could feel rage within me i never knew i had. Days of disappointment, rejection and depression all flooding me at once.

"You can never understand the struggles i had to face to get to where i am today, struggling to pay off fees and surviving all on my own, I had no body no fucking help, And now all i see is rejection, you will never know what it's like to survive in this world like i do when i all i want is to get somewhere on my own" My voice bellowed, my throat vibrating.

"Antheia-" He attempted to walk closer to me, his hands wavering from submission.

"The last thing i need is someone born with a silver spoon telling me how i live my fucking life" I seethed.

My chest hurt from how rapid it was beating, my throat aching from yelling as loud as i did. Silence loomed over us, the faint sunlight dawning through the closed binds indicating the sun has risen.

Tears pooled in Adam's eyes. His expression that of a disappointed and surprised one, his jaws clenched. I was shocked myself, i never thought i'd ever say what i said to him just now, in this exact manner. Never did i think we'd be in this moment. But here we are.

He attempted to inch closer to me.

"I'm so sor-"

"Don't. Don't come near me. I can't do this anymore" I couldn't hold it back any longer, feeling uncontrollable amount of tears fall down my cheeks, turning away to rush to the bedroom. "Antheia please, listen to me" He desperately called out for me.

I turned back one last time to meet his gaze, he was a few feet away from me. I could see it in his eyes he wanted nothing but to be near me.

"This is over"

I felt myself break and fall apart. My heart ringing in my ears.

"What? Antheia this is ridiculous don't do this just talk to me."

"You don't get it do you? It'll always be like this"

I bit my bottom lip, hopelessly trying to stop myself from crying.

"I can't be with someone who thinks this way about me" Tuning out all noise, i rushed into the bedroom, slamming it shut.

Flinging myself onto the bed to yell into the sheets, attempting my best to silence my loud cries. I could hear banging on the bedroom door, Adam desperately trying to get into the room. Unable to do so as i locked it to stop him from coming in.

He banged and banged, calling out for me repeatedly.

I never felt this much pain in the span of an hour. It happened so fast and yet so slow, the exchange running inside my head repeatedly like a movie. My whole body yearned for him yet i knew i couldn't give myself what i really wanted.

It will always be like this.

He'll never be home, He'll never be with me like he used to. And he'll never understand my life, and maybe I won't understand his. And it felt as if i was stabbed in the heart realizing that all this time he thought so less of me when i was struggling everyday to make something of myself, on my own. i felt betrayed, worst yet. I felt less of myself, which is something i never felt about myself ever.

And the realization of someone you love and trusted with your entire life making you feel this way is the most painful emotion to feel.

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Having slept for maybe 3 hours, I hesitantly got out of bed. My heart beating profusely although it felt as if it stopped beating altogether from last night. My eyes were puffy i couldn't even see where i was walking.

I called up the girls and told them everything, with gasps and shocked screams deafening my ears on the other side of the phone. I couldn't help myself but break down on the phone with them, with their voices comforting as i sobbed to them.

I started to pack my luggage with my clothes. Having the strong urge to get away from the apartment. Away from him.

With Erika immediately suggesting i crash at her old apartment she used to live in before moving into another place with James, it felt ideal that i get away as fast as i can.

"We'll meet you there, you get here soon okay?" Rhi insisted, her tone was warm and comforting.

My tears were falling onto my clothes, forming small patches of water on the fabric of my clothes as i placed them inside my luggage, zipping it shut.

I silently opened the door to peek outside, there was no sign of him.

Gently grabbing my suitcase i walked towards the door.

My heart sank as i saw him sprawled over the couch, in a deep sleep. Letting out gentle huffs as he breathed in an out. He didn't even sleep on the guest room, or the two other empty rooms in this apartment. I guess he was waiting for me come out, he fell asleep on the couch.

Watching him made me realize every inch of me yearns for him, i quickly left the keys on the table next to the couch and rushed out of the apartment, unable to hold myself from my tears.

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"So it's over just like that?" Edward's mouth was agape as he questioned me, the three members of the Kings huddled around me, offering me comforting words. One having a tea, another having a coffee and the only man in the room having a beer.

"yeah" i sniveled, trying my best to hold in my grief stricken voice.

"Babe don't you have like... a game to watch or something?" Rhi gestured at Edward, expecting him to leave us be. "Wha- I'm part of the girls!" he pouted, bringing out a hesitant smile from me. possibly the first time i've smiled after the fight.

"Well you can stay here for as long as you like, or... forever. I don't need this place anymore not like i knew what to do with it anyway" Erika shrugged, taking a sip of her tea.

"No i just.. need some time to figure things out, i'll get my own place after" I reassured myself, thanking Erika profusely for giving her place to me although she screamed at me that it was absolutely nothing to her to do so.

Spending some time with Kings, they tried their best to lift my spirits. And they really tried. With Edward and Rhiannon distracting me with stories of their time together, Edward typically messing about and Rhiannon annoyingly having to deal with him. And Erika reminding me of her wedding plans and keeping me up to date with her constant change of her wedding gown.

It could only do so much when i remember bouts of the argument the night before, sending me on a spiral of distraught emotions.

Edward's eyes widened as he watched his phone ring, shooting a look at us. "Fuck it's Adam"

"oh my god ANSWER, Tell us what he says!" Erika yelled. The whole room shushed, my heart was beating rapidly, almost ringing in my ears.

"Hello"...

His eyes were still widened with the rest of us eagerly watching him as if we were waiting for the announcement of an election winner.

"Yeah.. yeah she's here... with us"

Oh my god. The girls and i looked at each other, not saying a word but knowing exactly what's on each of our minds.

"Did you block him?" Edward whispered at me, a hand over the phone so Adam won't hear. I nodded in response. Of course i blocked him, the last thing i need is to talk to him.

"Uh... I don't...I don't kno-" He continued to speak to him on the phone, Edward's demeanor changed. I could tell when Adam stopped being a friend and became the Head of the King's from the way Edward changed his tone.

"She....uhhh"

"What?" I whispered, trying to decipher why Edward was struggling to answer Adam. The girls confusingly watching along with me.

"She's in Erika's old place" He replied in a defeated tone over the phone call.

Edward mouthed 'sorry' immediately after, with the rest of us loudly cussing in a whispering tone. Of course Adam would demand my whereabouts using his position as the head, I don't blame them for doing what he asks. Not like either of them has a choice when it comes down to it, sometimes i forget that they're under him.

Edward hung up the call, covering his face as means to defend himself from being sworn at from the girls. "I'm SORRY I'M SORRY! you know i don't have a choice" he helplessly protested.

"Does this mean he's gonna show up?"

"I think so..." He replied, all of us sighing in unison having no idea what to do next.

"I'm getting out of here for a bit, I don't want to see him"

The rest of them agreed, leaving the apartment with me we all parted ways. The girls bid me goodbye, demanding if not threatening to call them if anything were to happen, or if i just wanted to cry but with company.

Finally having some time to myself to fully bask in on the situation i decided to head to the one place that often calms me and brings me comfort.

I head towards Goodmans. Seeing the cats as they've all grown so much which surely add to my comfort.

Marmalade having become a little chunky, probably because of my snacks i bring for them everyday. They meow furiously as they see me come, greeting me with their cute pitter patter of their paws.

The smell of the books hit me as i enter.

Walking into the back with sushi following me I notice a new cat, there hasn't been any new cats here for almost a year. It was a fully grey one with piercing green eyes looking up at me letting out a husky meow. Silence loomed over the bookstore, not a single person in sight but only the little pitter patter of paws running back and forth playing with each other.

Huh that's odd.

Walking a little further towards the back to check on the other cats, I immediately stopped.

I let out an audible gasp, A smile forming on my lips.

My heart jumped.

"Liam?"