I don't want to live anymore. I'm broken. I'm hurt. I'm tired. I don't want anymore.

Even my boyf-.. Ehm ex-boyfriend went mad and killed everything that breaths in his near.

I'm with my friends now hiding in some forest but dont really knowing what to do.

Changbin and Hyunjin forced me to stay alive. One year ago I was about to give up but these two forced me to fight for my life and if I would give up, they would follow me.

This caused me to wake up and starting to fight. I have to find a cause to want to live again and I'm still searching.

Every day hearing stories about my B-..Minho what he has done again made me sad.

He was so sweet and caring back then but now he changed into a monster.

I was afraid of him and if he would find me or us I would kill myself. I dont wnat to be killed by him.

But then again.. I want to protect my friends. The two were so important to me I would go crazy if someone would hurt them.

I loved them like my own family. I also missed our other friends like Chanie and Jeonginie and so on.

I want to see them again but I believe we would never see again.

I would do everything to get back to normal again. I would do everything to get my Minho back, the normal one I used to love and still do.

I know I'm crazy but I can't help but feel the same for him but I'm still scared if him I mean he would kill me in seconds if he would find me.

I hope he was at least immune. I dont want him to die my precious boyfriend..