21 by Gracie Abrams

I want you to listen to this music first. It's important to read the lyrics. After that, continue reading this.

Akira,

This song was the first time I felt truly understood; every lyric resonated with emotions I longed to express to you but couldn't find the words for.

I hope you don't find it ambiguous. Wala namang hidden message diyan. Wala rin ako sa katinuan para magbigay ng codes or puzzle. Kung ano yung sinabi sa lyrics, ganon din ang mensahe ko sa'yo.

I mean every words in that music.

I think about you everytime when I hear Gracie Abrams. It's like Gracie was made to be my spokeperson. 

You didn't failed to haunt me everyday in my sleep. Hindi lang pala sa panaginip, you are everywhere. It seems like you don't have a plan to leave me be.

You are my excess baggage. You are a ghost from my past. You are my nightmare. I fear you.

But I fear myself more for wanting to see you again.

Maybe you could forgive me by then.