I could trust them.
I knew it.
But I changed into my human form nonetheless.

Rhys hadn't noticed it.
He couldn't have.
His whole attention had been focused on Feyre.

Nobody talked to me as I sat on the floor in the doorway waiting for news on Feyres condition.
She had to survive.

They had wanted me.
Only me.
Feyre had only been a lucky coincidence for them.
Nothing more.
I had been the target and if she wouldn't survive, it would have been my fault.

Everyone was nervous and anxious and they were scared.
Not for their safety but for the safety of the future of the court.
The heir.

My shirt was still covered in blood.
Mine and Feyres.

My wounds hadn't healed completely and me turning into my human form didn't help them either but I couldn't worry about myself now.

Exhaustion settled in as the adrenalin left my body.
The last time I had run that fast to help someone I had been too late.
But not this time.
Never again.

After a long time Mor came to me with a glass of water and silently looked after my wounds.
She cleaned them and bandaged the ones that needed more attention.

I didn't tell her that it was pointless to waste her time like that on me because I could just become Fae and heal in a short amount of time.

She needed a distraction and so did I.
If Feyre didn't survive would they blame me?
Would they still help me to get home?

I didn't even want to think about it.

After Mor was gone I fell asleep for a while and when I woke up relief filled me.

I heard screams.
Not terrible screams or screams in pain or agony.
Screams of a baby.
A beautiful little creature.
Seeing the world for the first time.

Relieved gasps filled the room next to me as if everyone had held their breath until now.

Mor ran past me and she was gone for a while and when she came back she had a baby in her arms.

If she had it that probably meant that Feyre wasn't able to care for it yet.

I hoped she just needed rest and I knew that I needed some too.
I hadn't been hurt as bad as her but I needed to be prepared for everything that was too come.

Even if Rhys hadn't noticed anything Feyre had and she wouldn't just leave this topic alone.

And I knew how to get home now.
I just needed something from my world.
How could I not have thought of this?
It was so obvious but no one had considered that option.

No one stopped me as I went to my room and as soon as I laid down on my bed it didn't take long for me to fall asleep.

When I woke up this time the sun was shining.
I didn't know how much time had passed since I had fallen asleep but it must've been more than ten hours.

I got up and went downstairs and when I entered the dining room Azriel was the only one who was there.

„How is she? Is she alive?”
„Yes she is. She is awake and  everyone is with them now and they want to eat soon.”
„Why aren't you there?”
„I don't know I was with them earlier but it just didn't feel right. I don't know I just kind of wanted to leave them their privacy.”

After that I didn't talk to him anymore but as I stood up to leave the room he stopped me.

„Thank you, Celaena.”
„What for?”
„You saved her life.”
„What?”
„Our healer told us that she wouldn't have survived if you hadn't stopped her bleeding.”
„Oh.”

I didn't know how to respond to that.
I didn't know if it was even necessary to answer.

But I felt the urge to make him feel like he didn't need to be thankful.
Not towards me.

„It was the right thing to do. She would have done the same thing for me. And I was the only one who could help her so I just did. You don't need to be thankful.”
„I know that she would've done the same thing but it's still brave to think about someone else first rather than to always put yourself first.”

I hadn't even noticed that the rest of the court had entered the room but as they sat down Feyre couldn't stop staring at me.
Her face was blank and I couldn't see any emotion in it.

Everyone was staring at her as if they were waiting for something.
Then I realized that she hadn't even told them what had happened.

„I know all of you are waiting for me to tell you what happened but this will have to wait. Celaena, why don't you tell us who you really are?”
Now everyone was staring at me.
„I don-”
„Don't even try to pretend as if you didn't know what I was talking about. You know what I have seen and either you tell them or I will.”

„What's going on here?”, Mor asked with confusion in her voice.
But instead of answering I just showed her. Showed them.

I could feel my power rising through me as my true form broke free from the cage I had built around it.
The gasps that filled the room this time didn't express relief, just shock.

„You're Fae”,Azriel whispered next to me.
„How is this possible? How could you glamour yourself this well?”,Rhys asked me.
„I don't know what you mean by that. I can change between my Fae and my human form whenever I want to. I just stay in my Fae form normally.”
„Wait so you're not an assassin, right?”,Cassian asked.

„I will tell you my story and this will take a bit and I hope you'll be able to understand why I haven't told you what or who I am. My name isn't Celaena anymore it's Aelin. Aelin Ashryver Whitethorn Galathynius. I'm queen of Terassen. I was born Fae and I have always had powers that were hard for me to control. I was born in Terassen and grew up there and I have loved it. But when I was young a king, an enemie of us order the death of my parents and me. I... I remember crawling in the bed of my parents and waking up the next morning bathed in their blood. There was this woman and she helped me to escape. She sacrificed herself for me so I could live. But as I was running away I fell into the river and I would've drowned if this man hadn't come and saved me. The man who was the king of assassins.
So whithout me and my parents protecting Terassen the King of Adarlan could easily take it. He was skilled and there was other kingdoms he also took. 
The king of assassins, Arobynn Hamel told me that the only thing I had left of my home, an old amulet had been lost in the river so I stayed with him, I was raised by him and he taught me his ways. He was cruel but he was the only home I had. So I left my old identity behind and became Celaena Sardothien. As I grew up I never turned into my Fae form it wasn't even possible because soon after the King of Adarlan had taken many kingdoms the magic suddenly disappeared and it never came back. I already told you about me and Sam and my time in Endovier and this is all true but I lied about working for the king. It's true that the prince of Adarlan freed me from Endovier but I didn't become the Kings Assasin right away. There was this competition and 23 people participated in it. Whoever would win it, would become the kings assassin for four years and then get released in freedom. I saw my chance there because Endovier only meant death and even though I hated the king who had killed my parents I wanted to achieve this. During the competition the prince and I got closer and we sort of became a couple but after I won the competition I broke things off with him. After that I got my first target but I couldn't kill for that king. The bodyguard of the king who I had fallen in love with warned me but I didn't listen to him. I never killed anyone the king had ordered me to kill I only pretended to do so. Except for one man. I knew him from when I was working for Arobynn and I didn't want to kill him at first but he killed my friend. And the bodyguard he knew that it was going to happen be he hadn't told me about it so I nearly killed him and he arrenged me getting send to Wendlyn so I could kill members of the royal family for the king there. But I didn't stay in Wendlyn. I came to Doranelle to a woman who was a powerful Fae and my aunt. There magic still existed and I met Rowan there. He trained me and helped me control my Fae form and my fire and after I had learned how to control them I wanted to retrieve the wyrdkeys. I had seen a new danger rising in Doranell. The Valg. They possessed bodies and came from a different world and I found out that the king of the Valg, Erawan had possessed duke Perrington who worked for the King of Adarlan. There was a gate open and these three wyrdkeys existed which could seal the gate and send back Erawan. And I knew that one was on the amulet that had belonged to me when a was a child and I also knew that Arobynn had it and that it was never lost in the river so I wanted to leave but my aunt didn't want to let me leave with Rowan. So I threatened her and was able to free Rowan from a blood oath he had sworn to her.
I came back to Adarlan and the Valg had already spread there too. So I executed a plan to kill Arobynn and I retrieved the first wyrdkey. We got information on how to get the magic back and I did. And then I killed the King but it turned out that he was possessed by a Valg. After this we had to concentrate on Erawan and how to find the wyrdkeys and but then I found out that it would take my life in return for forging a lock that could trap him infinetly and I was ready to find the next keys but then my aunt, Mave, who also turned out to be Fae kidnapped me. She...she whipped me...and she...she didn't give the wounds time to heal before she locked in an iron coffin. And I was with her for month and she...she continued to torture me. The healers had to heal me everyday and at some point it was so much that they had to build my body new. They took my scars and every story that was linked with it. You surely remember when you locked me in that prison cell that I screamed in pain. That were my scars returning to my body because time works different here. But my mate, Rowan he was able to free me and after we retrieved all three keys I was ready to gorge the lock, to kill myself in order to save the world but the prince, he wouldn't let me die alone so we did it together and I thought I would die but somehow I didn't. The gods only took some of the prince's and nearly everything of my power. But after I had given up my power I was falling through worlds. And I passed this world. I saw you, Rhys and Feyre standing on the balcony and you waved at me and somehow this gave me the will to return to my world. And after that we had the ability to defeat Erawan and Mave. We had great losses but we won the war and I got to reclaim my throne and ever since then I was Queen of Terassen again.”

I wiped away the tears that had streamed down my face that I hadn't even noticed until now.

Silence.
Silence was all that greeted me.
I could clearly see the shock on their faces.

„How old are you?”,was the first thing that Feyre asked.
„I'm 21.”
„I'm so sorry. I shouldn't have forced you to reveal this about yourself, Aelin. I'm so sorry.”
„It's okay. Really.”

„Okay, I think it's time to send you back to your mate. To your kingdom.”