I'm YorkshirePerrie. All credits go to Happinessintime for she is the person who wrote this book. I'll try to update daily so it can be open to fully read for everyone soon.

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Harry POV

July 15th, 2013

I never thought hearing just a few simple words would not only destroy my heart but heal it all in the same. They always say actions speak louder than words and to a point I suppose that's true; but to me, words meant everything. Words destroyed me, and words built me up. I've never had anyone physically do anything to me as an action that would hurt me but words have definitely been my undoing.

Just like now. Hearing him say my name and the word love in the same sentence is something that I have been so desperate to hear. Yet at the same time I want to close myself off and never hear them uttered ever again. Love destroys people, it tears them down making them feel weak and vulnerable. That's what it did to me, what it still does.

"This is ridiculous!" I hear someone from behind me say. "Someone needs to find him before he throws his entire career out the door!" Upon hearing those words I feel myself and everyone beside me tense up.

"His career? Is that really the only thing you can think about right now?" Zayn speaks up from beside me. "He is obviously hurt and very upset about something and all you can think about is his career? Who the hell gives a shit about our career right now! Our best friend is God knows where telling the world everything for some reason and I highly doubt it has anything to do with his career!" He shouts at him.

The happiness I was feeling momentarily seems to fade quickly. He's right, something's wrong but I don't know what it is. I'm not sure anyone does.

"How about instead of standing here worrying about your next damn dollar you make yourself and do your actual job and fucking find him?!" Zayn continues on. I place my hand on Zayn's arm hoping to calm him and he looks to me. Something he see's on my face instantly calms him and he looks at me with remorse. He mumbles a quick apology before our eyes are glued back onto the screen.

"I guess once I accepted it, it was quite obvious that I always fancied Harry.. I mean what wasn't there to like right?" He lets out a soft chuckle as he beams at the camera. "He always made me laugh and seemed to always know when I was down or upset just how to lift my spirits again.. It was difficult to ever be sad or anything but happy around him.. He just brings out that bubbly giddiness in people and you never stop smiling."

"I did keep it a secret though.. I was afraid if I told anyone or even Harry that they would just laugh in my face or be disgusted by me. I'm not sure why since the lads are the most accepting people I know but it frightened me." He bites his lip pausing for a moment. "But then one evening while Harry and I were watching a movie the bloke just kissed me!" He laughs. "I was shocked and couldn't believe what was happening. I thought and dreamed so many times of how our first kiss would go and let me tell you it was nothing like how it went... The real thing was a million times better." A soft blush forms on his cheeks as I sit forward, inching closer to the screen.

"Some people might find it weird that I was kissing a guy and my best friend at that but... I swear to this day the moment our lips touched it was like the world shifted.. Everything that was out of sort or lost its place suddenly collided back to its rightful spot. There was nothing that I had ever felt that could compare to the magnitude of love and passion and warmth that I had at that moment. It was truly a moment that will forever be branded into my memory.. And definitely one of my favorite memories with Harry."

"I can't believe he is telling everyone this... The views are over half a million now!" Liam interrupts, his eyes locking with mine. "Harry you need to do something..." He looks at me with a serious look on his face, almost like he knows something's going to happen. "This could end up badly Harry.. People.. You could get hurt." He says, causing me to stare at him dumfounded.

"What am I suppose to do? He's turned off his phone and he's only paying attention to the live stream.." I responded.

"Maybe type in a comment? See if he see's it?" Niall offered. I sighed with a shrug and sat forward and began typing in the box.

Louis, please call me.. H

It's all I could think to type and I watched his face as he looked at the screen. I couldn't tell if he had seen it or not so I typed out the same message again but got the same reply. Nothing.

"So um.. After our kiss you would think things would be a bit awkward right?" He smiles. "Never with me and Harry. Like I said everything just fit.. It fell into place.. There wasn't a long conversation of "What did we just do" or "What are we", we just kind of assumed we were together I suppose? I don't ever remember either of us asking each other out, we just automatically thought we were together. And let me tell you I was over the moon!" He grins while running a hand through his hair. I smile right along with him knowing that was exactly what happened. We just instantly became a couple and it worked for both of us. For a while.

"We kept it a secret from everyone for a while because it was something so new to us that we didn't know how everyone would react. Plus we were releasing our first album later in the year and everything was just snowballing for us, but we knew we needed to tell everyone soon."

"It was actually funny when we did because all Niall, Liam and Zayn did was just kind of stare at us like they thought we were going to say something else... I think Niall's exact words were "You made me made me shit my pants all the way in here for something I already knew about!".. I don't think I've ever laughed harder or been more relieved. Seems Harry and I weren't as clever as we thought and all the boys already knew something was happening." He grins once again, finding the humor in the memory.

"So everything went on as normal except we kept our relationship between us, the lads and our family. We weren't ready for the world to know yet and weren't exactly ready for our team to know yet either. So we kind of just played it off as a bromance I guess you could say. People questioned it a lot but we just continued saying we were close friends... And then it got a bit more intense... The fans got a bit more intense.."

"You all had kind of become infatuated with idea of Harry and I, and while we found it amusing it was also kind of scary. We were afraid that you all would hate us and leave us if we ever became public.. And we couldn't let that ruin our career, not only because we wanted to be successful but it wouldn't be fair to the other boys as well.. So once again we continued to keep it a secret, but even that was becoming to hard.. It was starting to put a strain on our relationship and I hated it.. I hated knowing that it hurt Harry because we couldn't hold hands in public, or we couldn't go out on a date because it would cause to much speculation. Everything we did felt wrong sometimes because we knew the back lash of it."

He sighs again as he looks around the dimly lit room he's siting in.

"So that's when we decided we needed to come clean with our management team.. And tell them everything.. Tell them how we were together, we were in love and that we needed it to be out in the open because it was not only hurting our relationship but our friendship.. I mean even the other guys could tell it was hurting us and had encouraged us to tell them but we were scared shitless!"

"Its hard enough to come to terms with it all yourself let alone wait for the approval of others."

I became quite intrigued with what he was saying because I knew what happened next. I knew what went down when we told management but I also know Lou better than anyone in the world. And I know he's hiding something. Something that I don't even know and maybe the other lads as well.

"So in the late fall of 2011 we set up a meeting with our Management team.. We all sat down and discussed everything from our career to our personal lives... Then Harry and I came together and spilled everything about or relationship.. We told them with smiles on our faces that we were in love and happy.. We explained how we wanted to be honest with them and honest with everyone else that we were in fact a couple." He shakes his head a bit and looks down.

"In that meeting they plastered smiles on their faces and told us congratulations... In that meeting they said everything was okay and we would decide how we would tell the public." A look of pain flashes across his face as I look on confused. I hear Liam's breath hitch and I look at him to see him looking down to the floor with his eyes closed.

"Liam?" I ask him. He looks up at me with sorrow filled eyes and shakes his head. "I'm sorry Harry.." He says and looks back down. I tilt my head in confusion and look back to the screen.

"After that Harry and I left with the biggest smiles on our faces. I was so happy, feeling a never ending peace wash over me... Until the next morning." I looked at him in complete confusion.

"The next morning I was called back into the office to have a meeting with our management... I thought it was strange they only wanted me but shrugged it off to be nothing.." His bottom lip trembles a bit as he tries to continue through his tale. "I wish I had never gone back into the office that morning.. I wish I wouldn't have sat down and listened to the bullshit story they gave me but I did.."

"What is he talking about?" I question out loud looking to everyone.. "He told me he went to get breakfast... He came back with breakfast.. He didn't go to a meeting?" I question but still with a slight boldness in my tone.

"I sat down in the chair across from Greg, Melissa and a few others.. I thought maybe they were just going to go over a few things about Harry and I's relationship.. And I was right to an extent, they did.."

"They told me it couldn't happen.. They said they wouldn't let it happen.. That Harry and I couldn't be together, not then, not now and not ever."

I felt all the air leave my body as he said those words. Complete confusion swam across my mind as I tried to put everything together to make sense, but nothing added up.

"They told me they worked out a plan to change the way I felt about Harry.. I just laughed at them and their ridiculous notion.. How can you make someone change the way they felt about another? We were in love! You can't just change that.. And I knew they couldn't make me feel any less in love with Harry than I did... But they said they were going to try." He gulped a bit looking directly into the camera.

"I was then handed a thick stack of papers.. A contract.. A bloody contract that I had to sign... And if I didn't sign then they said they would pull me from the band.. I just shook my head at them thinking there was no way they would actually do that.. Take me from the band? They couldn't right... B-But then the showed me some stuff... Things I never thought I would have a problem with until I saw it.. Things that only reaffirmed my thinking that they could and would remove me from the band..

"They showed me things people had written about me.. Stupid and petty things like hate; people saying I didn't belong in the band, I was ugly, my vocals were weak or even that I was to thin.. I never thought it would have an effect on me but in that moment it did.. Greg, Melissa and all of them knew it would.. They had some how come together to find my weakness and how to break me.. How to make me sign that damned contract.. And I did.. I signed it.." He trails off.

I find myself standing and staring down at him. My breathing coming in short pants as I spin around staring at everyone.

"What did the contract say?" I spoke loudly looking at everyone. They shifted in their positions but kept their mouths shut.

"What did the damn contract say!" I scream louder. I waited for one of them to give me an answer but none of them did. The sound of sobs echoed through the room from a broken boy on a live stream being seen around the world. A boy I thought loved me but had left me instead. The boy I gave everything for and I thought just left me with absolutely nothing to live for. He gave me my answer. And the answer made me launch across the room towards the man I now knew I hated with everything in me.

"The contract said I had to end everything with Harry.. Our relationship and friendship... I had to be with someone else, a girl, and make Harry believe that I.... that I never loved him."

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