Imagine living your life with 4 brothers and now you've to leave them and go so far away. 

This is a diary I wrote about another 30 days with my 4 brothers. After these days passed, I've to take flight and prepare myself to face challenges as I'm going to study abroad.

Before writing my diary I would like to introduce my four brothers. 

Tay

Tay is the eldest in my family, which means he's the leader. He always makes everything perfect just to be a role model for the 4 of us including me. 

He acts like how a leader should be, being responsible for everything in our family and he's the one that we can rely on the most. He's our second father, the explanation is as simple as that. In front of us, he could master everything, there's nothing that he can't do. 

But there's one thing in him that no one could go through, he's being possessive. It's good to be possessive, but I feel like my life is being controlled. I can't enjoy my teen life such as being in love, going out with friends and came home late, having that crazy fun night.

He graduated from a business management course, and because of this, he's the only one that can help my parents to manage their company and the cafe. He's great at managing finances. 

And now, he's the CEO of  YODA, a brand name clothing company and he's the heir of our family's company.

Off

He's Off the 2nd brother in my family. As you can see he got the most Chinese look, yes he got it from our mama. He loves to dress in a bad-boy look. Other than that, everyone knows him well in the university, hmm yes, he's a famous boy in his university. I could still remember the moment when I went to his university to see him performing, girls down the stage scream loudly as soon as they step on the stage. Off graduated from a psychology course, but he often helps Tay out with the business in the company. He would spend most of his time being in the office, and most of the important thing is he's the leader in the HR department in YODA.

Maybe, it's because of his bad-boy look, the girls were attracted to him. But in my view as a sister, he cares for us so much especially me as I'm the only girl among our siblings. I could say that he's a protective brother. 

Sometimes I've ever wondered why I could have a possessive and a protective brother. He's the only brother that is willing to spend his time on me for my studies. He's the only brother that would fetch me to the library, school, and bookshop. For school, yes but for vacation, Nah.

Another thing about him is when he gets angry, you can see another side of him. In his hot-tempered mood, he's scarier than a horror movie.

Singto

After Off, Singto is the third brother of mine. He's sweet and caring, he's totally different from Tay and Off. He just let me go off for anything that I wanna do. He doesn't being possessive like Tay and Off. He's the one who takes me out for vacation.

Btw, he's a girl's dream boy. He could my best friend, the most important thing is he knows me well compared to my other brothers. He's a busy person but he always tried his best to spend his time with me. He would take me out for exciting activities such as surfing, skateboarding, and snorkeling whenever he's free.  

He loves adventure and challenging activities, which was totally different from Tay and Off as they love reading more than getting sweat.

I could still remember the days that he took me to a bar for a countdown and lied to my elder brothers so that I'll not be scolded.  That made me feel being loved and cared for. 

He is the brother that introduces me to the real teen world looks like, I enjoy my teen nightlife every time I'm with him. 

Singto is an event planner, he spent most of his time being outside rather than home, that's why he could travel to many places. As I knew, so far everyone was satisfied with his works, most of the actors around Thailand would let him managed those big events.

Ohm

This is Ohm, my twin brother. Yes twin, if you've asked me why did I've got this much brother. the main reason is that both of my parents wish to have a daughter, so here I'm. This proved that I'm the youngest in my family and I and mama are the only girls in our family.

So now you get the answer to why my 2 elder brothers which were Tay and Off being protective and possessive. No one could ever hurt me if I'm with 4 of them.

Ohm is my twin, my classmate, my roommate, I could say that he's everything to me. If you ever wonder how he could be my roommate. Let me tell you that Ohm is being clingy to me, it makes me laugh every time we flashback the times where almost the whole school thought that both of us are dating. Ohm is a boy who loves arts very much, that's the reason why he could get along with me. We love painting at night, the situation is calm. 

Moreover, Ohm spoils me very much, he's now 18 and never has a girlfriend. I don't know the reason for him being single, but spending time with him was a roller coaster, sometimes we fight for little things, something we're being good to each other, that's what called siblings. And... Ohm is the timidest among my brothers, he loves reading and watching something horror and mysterious or even stories about serial killers but he need someone to be with him at that moment.

Kanikka

And this is me, so I'm 18 same as Ohm and the youngest. I'm an open-minded and friendly person. I could adapt to a new environment easily.

I'm proud to say that I'm lucky to have 4 brothers protecting me at all cost. But now I've to move to another place that's so far away from them. I'm going to continue my degree in Brisbane while my brothers were 1000 miles away from me.

I've 30 days left to spend time with them and I'll be back in 4 years after completing my medical study. Ohm didn't come along with me, I'm going for a psychology course meanwhile Ohm, he wants to be a lawyer. Our ambition was different and now we've to follow our own pathways.

The purpose of writing this diary is because I'm going to write down all of my feelings and life. After 4 years, I'll re-read this diary and ill see how much I've changed. I wanna compared my life before and after living life without 4 brothers.