~Recap~

I don't have time to pull the shirt on before Liam's voice says, " Jennifer?"

~End of recap~

" So burn me with fire, surround me with flames, I'm gonna wake up, screaming your name, yes I'm a sinner, yes I'm a saint, whatever happens here, whatever happens here, we remain."

Real - Joshifer

Chapter Five

" Liam, I-" I whisper.

" What the fuck, Jen!?" He screams. " I tell you I love you and you can't wait a matter of hours to sleep with him!?"

" Liam, it's not what it looks like," I tell him.

" I think it is," says Liam, elbowing Josh as he stomps out the house.

As soon as he's gone, I feel tears well up in my eyes, and one drops over the edge. " Hey, it's ok," Josh says, pulling me in for a hug. I bury my face in his chest.

Why wouldn't Liam listen? I didn't sleep with Josh! Even if I did it's none of his business.

But why did I have to defend myself? If I had wanted to sleep with Josh I would've and it wouldn't have mattered if he didn't want me too. Which leaves only one explanation.

Do I have feelings for Liam?

No. No, I can't. I can't have feelings for Liam. I have feelings for Josh.

But I can't deny that feeling. That feeling that comes when he says my name.

No, shut up, Jen! Shut the hell up!!

I breath in Josh's musky scent and then pull away. I kiss him softly. When I'm in flats I'm only a tiny bit taller than him, and he's wearing platforms, so we're about the same size.

Then something flashes through my mind. " Josh?"

" Hmmm?" He hums, smiling cheerfully.

" How are we gonna get out here without the paparazzi seeing?"

" Shit."

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" How does it feel knowing that the whole world wants to sleep with you?" Jena asks.

" I don't think th-" I start.

" I wasn't talking to you," she says, then addresses Josh. " Zip?"

" Uh, sure," he mumbles, unzipping her. I glare at him. He shrugs.

She whips round and smiles at us. I look up and glare at the sky. Woody and Josh wear a matching smirk.

The elevator stops on her floor. " Thanks, that was fun. We should do it again." She says, before walking out.

" No, thank you," Woody says smugly. " Johanna Mason, District 7."

" Cut!!" Frances yells.

I immediately grab Josh's hand and pull him out the lift. I drag him round the corner and jump down the stairs. We come out at the hotel snack bar.

" Can I have, um, a bag of salted chips," I mumble.

The girl at the counter smiles and hands them to me, then turns to Josh, " Anything for you, sir?"

" Uh, same as her please," he says, smiling charmingly.

She hands us each a bag of chips and we burst the packets open, letting the salty, crunchy sensation fill our mouths. I grab Josh's arm, and drag him out the room, saying, " C'mon, this is an interview on Ellen, not some stupid MTV show."

We've gotten back from Hawaii, and are now filming the first half of the movie.

We climb into his car, and he backs out of the car park. He drives towards the round about and starts talking about filming.

Two hours later, we arrive at the studio. He walks me in, and I head into the back. He takes a seat in the viewing room.

A kind lady smiles and hands me a light pink and purple, modern patterned dress. I run into a bathroom and strip off my district 12 parade outfit, and throw the dress on. I walk out and the lady sits me down. She brushes my hair out and pulls it into a high, smooth pony tail. She wipes my makeup off, and puts a foundation over my face. She powders my skin and puts a bright pink blush on my cheeks, and a matt bronzer through the hollows of my face. She uses a tightly packed brush to pat a dark grey eyeshadow on my lid, then uses a fluffy one to blend a lighter grey through my crease. She uses a creamy black liner to tight line my eye and apply to my bottom waterline. I shiver; I hate the feeling. She puts two coats of black mascara on my lashes and then applies a pink lipstick to my lips.

I get out the chair and get ready behind the stage. Someone suddenly pushes my on and I see Ellen. I walk towards her, trying to ignore the dozens of people around me. I can't of course. I reach her and she stands up, hugging me briefly. She and I sit down.

" Wow," I mouth.

" Yeah, the make you feel good out there," she says, smiling.

" Yeah," I say. " Can we do that again?" I get up, and everyone cheers loudly. I sit back down, grinning.

" You can just keep doing it over and over again," she jokes, and I repeat the steps.

" It's so nice of you to be here," she says. " I'm such a fan."

What!? No way! " No, I'm a huge fan!" I say.

" You are such a talented person in everything you do, and I love the new movie, which we'll talk about in a minute." She says.

" Thank you," I say, sincerely.

" And, so, this is really just been a couple of years for you, that this has been like this right?"

" Yeah," I say.

" And are you used to it?" She asks.

Pah.

" Ha, totally," I say jokingly. She laughs. " It's bizarre. But most of it actually centres in L.A. So as soon as I leave L.A it's like no one knows who I am, and it's almost offensive."

The crowd laughs.

" You could carry these magazines that you're on the cover of," she chuckles.

" Yeah, I'll just get a tee shirt, or, uh, just dress up as Katniss," I say.

" With a big bow and arrow?"

" Yah," I say. " I've always wanted to just dress up as Katniss and go hiking."

" People are grabbing their dogs," she mimes picking up a dog.

The crowd laughs.

" Where are you from originally?" She asks.

" Kentucky," I say immediately.

" Kentucky, and how's your mother enjoying your success?"

" Oh, she's very happy," I say. " She had more fun than I do, uh, she called me one day, recently I've just gotten into the academy, which is exciting, it's exciting for any actor. And then I got a call from my mother while I was in England and she goes, ' I did something hilarious'. And I was like, ' what?'. And she was like ' I voted'. And I said, ' you voted for what?' and she's like, ' the Oscars'. And I was like, ' you voted for the Oscars, what do you mean?' and she goes, ' the ballet came here, and I voted'."

The crowd giggles loudly.

" She thought I'd be like, ' hahahaha, that's hilarious, I'm gonna get kicked out of the academy." I say. " Fortunately, she did it wrong, and mailed it back to herself. So, I got to do it again."

" Uhu, that's horrible. So, she just thought anybody who receives the ballet can vote? Like it's the Peoples Choice Awards or something like that."

" 'But I'm one of the people'," I mock.

" Wow, so did you agree with who she voted for?"

" Yeah, no."

" So, everybody loved the Hunger Games, and everybody's really excited about the second one. You're filming the sequel now, you're in the middle of it?"

" Yeah, " I say.

" And where are you filming that?"

" Um, we're just back from Hawaii," I say. " So, ah, not too shabby."

" Yeah, that's not too shabby." Ellen says. " But you're now in Atlanta shooting?"

" Mhmm,"

" And, uh, you swam with sharks I believe? Not for the movie but just for fun."

" Yeah, just for fun,"

" And you wanted to swim with the sharks?"

" Yeah, well I went swimming with sharks once before, and I was like in the boat on the way to the sharks and I was like ' yeah, cause they're nurse sharks they don't bight, right?' and he's like ' no, no, they grab, suck and twist the flesh off. And I was like, ' oh, ok'. So I was like, pfft, I've done it, I can do it again. And they were like whale sharks, and I wasn't originally afraid, and then they said that the groupers were the most aggressive and that they were the size of a car, and I know that a fish should never be that size. And I became terrified of this grouper but they were like ' don't worry, they always stay by the rocks' and I'm like ' okay'. And so I'm swimming and I'm up at the top and I'm not even enjoying myself, cause I'm like ' grouper, grouper, where are the groupers?'. And then there comes one swimming strait up to the surface. And then I start screaming and it's like in a tank at a museum, it's a very safe environment. "

Ellen says something unintelligible that scares me. " They do what!?" I exclaim.

" I don't know what I was saying," she laughs.

" I didn't even know what you said but it scares me,"

" Well I was just thinking about how they would feed fish like that, it's enormous."

" Well, yeah, that flashed through my mind. I was like ' oh my god, I'm part of a plot and they're gonna feed me to the groupers!'."

" Part of a plot? Like people would do that,"

" I don't know!"

" Yeah, uh, that's not gonna happen," she mumbles. I laugh. " Ok, thank you Jennifer, for being here. Everbody, Jennifer Lawrence!"

I get up and wave to the crowd, waking off. I run behind the stage and shout Josh's name. " Where are you?" I shout.

Then I see his face.

" Jennifer." Nicholas says.