once i knew duncan was asleep  i took the time and left.

"hey y/n what are you doing so late" gwen asked

"oh uh nothing much just wanted to go for a walk i guess" i said she nodded and continued to cuddle with trent.

it was only 10 oclock.... so nothing big. hate to admit it but.... im still sad... hopefully i just have one big cry and it over. 

so i was walking... yeah its dark... but its almost comforting this time. i tripped got a lot of cuts... thats normal im clumsy after all. 

"y/n what are you doing" nico asked

"just taking a walk why" i wasnt crying in this moment.

"mom spoke to me the other day" he said

"huh what did she say"

"to look out for you"

thats when i wanted to cry

"sorry i didnt believe you about dad killing mom"

"its fine you werent there to know"

thats when nico hugged me.... its like he knew i wanted to cry.

"are you ok... tell me"

"yeah im fine"

"are you really?" 

he was still hugging me.  and i was crying.

"no"

"tell me whats up"

" i guess im just in it right now...."

"you dont know why"

"i guess i like duncan more then i thought i did"

"your really not good at feeling love are you"

"i still dont know what it feels like..."

"and you were scared he was going to leave you huh"

"i guess so"

"just like mom left you"

"yeah...kinda but it wasnt her fault"

" you dont blame yourself do you"

"i do...."

"why"

"because i feel like its my fault... maybe if she didnt have me her and dad wouldnt be together"

"dont think like that"

i was full on sobbing.

"your actually making noise..." nico was shocked

"sorry ill be more quiet"

"no its ok y/n... i get it"

he was still hugging me.... this is what i needed... i needed to cry... i needed to speak. i felt better. 

"can we go to bed...duncan is there right now but i doubt he would care... i put a double bed in there so i had more room" i said wiping my tears.

"yeah lets go" we walked back and laid in the bed.

i fell asleep before nico.

well when duncan woke up he saw you and nico in a bed and a note.

"hey duncan.... yeah this is really weird. trust me i know. she was like balling her eyes out last night when you were asleep and she kinda opened up. so thats why im here. throw this note away and we never talk about this again."-nico

"well alright then"duncan said and walked outside. 

thats when you and nico followed behind. 

i watched as duncan and nico looked at each other and then looked away. 

"your so short" nico said.... its not fair he was taller then me.

i watched as gwen and trent came out to. 

"gwen want to watch yarichin bitch boy club with me" i whispered

"whas it about"

"anime guys fucking each other"

"count me in" 

"what are yall talking about" duncan asked.

"we are having a girls day" i said back and me and gwen left for my cabin.

and we started watching it. gwen hitting my vape. 

they started putting vibrators on the dude tied to the chairs dick. "now thats hot"gwen said

"right" i said back.

thats when i heard the door open. and me and gwen quickly shut the laptop. 

"what were yall doing" trent asks

"nothing just watching anime" gwen said back

"ok then open it" duncan says back to gwen

"no" gwen spoke again.

thats when nico came and opened my laptop and unlocked it.

"your watching yarichin?" he asked

"huh whats that" trent asked

nico rewinded it to find the chair part. 

"so yall watching porn?" trent asked

"no we are watching a yaoi... its an anime not porn" i explained. 

"uh huh.... then why do i see a guy fucking another guy in a classroom" duncan asked

"i didnt ask about your choice in shows now did i" i said back.

and thats when the boys joined us.

"thats hot" gwen said again to the dude being thrusted into while on top. 

"i knowwww right" i said back. earning looks from both duncan and trent.

"what you wanted to join" i said to both of them

"start writing this down duncan" trent said

we just looked at trent and duncan grabbed paper and a pen.

"alright now thats hot. being tied to a chair and tortured" i said

"its kinky and i like it" gwen said 

then i heard aggressive scribbling..

"duncan are you actually writing this down" i asked

"for future refences"  he said back 

i smiled... it was funny.

so we watched 2 episodes and was done. 

"im horny now" gwen said laughing.

"oh shit me to" we started laughing together.

"are you really" trent asked

"i am i dont think y/n is" she sid again

"we will be back" trent said leaving with gwen

"someone is getting laid" i said to duncan.

"yep" he said back

i went under the blanket and thats when duncan joined me. and put me on top of him. 

"hi" i said

"hey" he said back

and then he kissed me. 

"wow havent done that in awhile" i said laughing

"yeah now shut up" he said and kissed me again. 

is it just me or is he getting rougher and rougher. cause before i knew it was was on the bottom and he was on the top and he was lowkey making out with me.. but highkey making out with me. 

thats when i rolled off the bed. earning me to be pushed against a wall

"i wasnt done yet" he said and kissed me again...and then moved down to my jawline.... to my neck.and before i knew it he was kissing and biting my neck. 

well of course i was well beyond the shade of red. and then he started leaving hickeys. 

my neck.. my collarbone. under my jawline.. he was having fun. i was having fun. 

thats when he started kissing me again. 

and then bridgette walked in

"hi bridge" i said. duncan looked at her

"oh uh.... sorry" she said and then left.

duncan pecked my lips one more time before pulling us onto the bed. all he wanted to do was torment  me and then cuddle. 

well first he looked at my neck and collar bone and jawline.

"not enough needs more" he said before starting to give me more hickeys

after 3 more he was done. 

"you good now" i asked

"dont act like you didnt enjoy it to"duncan said smirking.

and thats when i made my mistake....i looked at his neck...

"what are you looking at" he asked

"neck" is all i could mutter out.

and thats when i bit his neck. 

"now i see why you like it... more" he said 

i did as told and gave him more.... and for the 8 hickeys he left on me.... i left 3. 

and then i laid down looking at the celling. 

then at him. then held on to his arm and cuddled up to him.

he put his hand on my cheek and kissed my forehead.

"i really do like you i hope you know that" he said

"i think i do" i said

" do i need to do more to prove it" he asked smirking

"well" i said

thats when he looked at me and started moving

"OOKOK I BELIEVE YOU" i said

"good" he said still smirking

i started wiping his face

"what are you doing"

"wiping the smirk of your dumbass face"

thats when he grabbed and pulled me on top of him. and then kissed my neck more and started to go lower. and lower and lower.

"ok ok duncan" i said earning a stop. 

he just smiled.

and we laid there until gwen and trent came back.

about an hour later they finally did. to which me and duncan were both under the covers... well mostly me the covers were up to his neck and i was laying my head on his chest.

"wheres the vape duncan" gwen asked. 

to which duncan got it from me and gave it to her after he took a hit.

"you vape since when" trent asked

"since i was 15" gwen said.

we laided there duncan still covering his neck.

"nice hickeys trent" duncan said and thats when i poked my head out.

and gwen had a few... maybe 2 and trent had 4. 

"yall got busy i see" i said

"yeah a little" gwen said back

"hey duncan whats that?" trent asked

"whats what" duncan asked back confused.

"that" he said pointing at one of duncans hickeys

"oh yeah just a bruise" duncan responded

"are you sure cause why do you have 3" gwen asked

"no more questions" duncan said

gwen went to pull the blanket off of me and duncan... but i hid in duncans shirt

"oh hey" duncan said as i poked my head out of the shirt

"hey we are really close now" i said.

"well we are going to bed good night" gwen said and they left

duncan took off his shirt and cuddled.

"i like what i did" he said kissing me and with that we slept.... really close to each  other.