"duncan let me go" 

" why its literally 3am" 

"cause i think i started now release me"

he finally let go of me.

i went to the bathroom... and i was correct. 

pop a few pills. but not what i usually take... cause maybe it will work faster and better.

i climbed back into bed. but i made sure to lay on top of duncan uncomfortably.

"why..." he said weakly. 

"because i want to" i said. going back to sleep. 

"move bitch... shes my bitch now" i heard gwen say followed by a thud. 

i open my eyes to see gwen in my bed with me cuddling

" period buddys?" i asked

" period buddy... ow" she said

i watched duncan get off the floor

" you pulled me onto the ground" duncan said

" yah well i wanted to cuddle and you always cuddle with her..... my turn hoe" gwen said.

i was scrolling through tik tok. gwen asleep.

"tell chris to bring trent" duncan looked at me. 

"you getting jealous???" i asked smirking

"no" he said turning away

"get in the bed" i said looking at him

he got in the bed and put his arm around my shoulder while gwen was laying on my chest.

i watched nico come in.

"y/n you were sad you know this song" he said playing a tik tok

"yes i do" i said listening it

" sing it"

"having done this time and time again she were a yellow cardigan. i just wanna stop the scars that grow everytime that i go home. thats why i came up here instead. thats what the girl in the cardigan said. oh wait a minute what did i just say. i couldnt care less either way. but in the moment i just scream. something that i did not believe. hey dont do it please. oh what to do i  cant stop this girl oh this is new.  for once i think ive bitten off more then i can chew. but even so plase just go away where i cant see your pitiful expression is just to much for me." i said stopping as him and duncan were looking at me.

" what is the song about" duncan asked

" a girl who stops other girls from suicide. but shes only there to do it herself. but in the end it was her stopping her self and then finally jumping. " i explained

and they both looked at me.

"what" i asked

" nothing" nico said leaving

duncan was still so confused

"dont think about it to much. its a bop" i said looking at him

gwen finally woke up

"dude.... thats the best ive ever slept.. it was like i slept on a cloud." gwen said poking my boob

duncan looked at her

i watched as he laid on them

" shes right" duncan said then sitting up.

"aw what the fuck" i said

chris called me

"uuh.... ethan is here balling his eyes out... can you come outside" and the he hung up.

so i put on shoes and went outside gwen and duncan following me

"Y/N" i saw ethan and he run to me and hugged me

also knocking me down so we both were laying on the floor. he was still hugging me.

"what happened" i asked

"lindsay not this one but you know who.... she fucking hurts. she also hit me with her car" he spoke

"adding that to my purge list" i said

"and now she said she might come here" he spoke back

"if she comes here shes getting a bat to her head" i said back.

"dont mean to break up.... what ever is happening.. but can you maybe get off.... you know my girlfriend.... ive barely touched her today" duncan said looking at gwen

ethan got up and hugged duncan.

"youve never been hurt by y/n so if it ever happens heres my hug" ethan said then pulling away.

"YOU GUYS ARE STILL DATING" heather yelled

thats when ethan stopped crying

" oh ethan baby. whats wrong why the fuck are you crying... if its not over me" heather said

" go away heather" i said back

" you go away and let me and ethan get some time together" 

" no heather" 

i watched and she hugged him and made him put a arm around her.

"didnt wanna do this but" i said earning gwen and duncan to look at me.

"YIP YIP" i yelled and held open my arms. 

ethan came running towards me and hugged me and put his chin on my head.... crying more. 

"she hit me with her car.... she called me a fag" he said

" its cause your?" 

" yeah" 

i moved my head to look at ethan. 

" you wanna.... i dont know.... cuddle with gwen?" i asked. he looked at gwen who opened her arms. 

"can we sit down" he asked.

so we all sat down and ethans head was in gwens lap.

"so what is happening" duncan asked

" your a whole season behind duncan" i said

"well tell me" he said back

"ethan was trying to get with lindsay. and he did. for 4 months. but then she broke up with him. hit him with her car and called him a fag. its exactly what it sounds like" i explained

" HER CAR" he asked

" y/n would hit someone with her car. i dont know whats shocking" ethan said

duncan looked at you. 

" your dating crazy dude" ethan also added.

"i mean i like crazy and i like y/n but i dont know if id like to get hit by  a car" duncan said

" she wont hit YOU with her car" ethan added

i walked away to get a bottle and a shot glass. 

i walked back. 

i poured a shot

" take a sip" i gave it to ethan who downed it. 

" another" 

i poured another... and then a 3rd

" thats your cut off lightweight" i said.

thats when heather came back

"what are you doing ethan" heather asked

"laying with my bestie gwen and my other 2 bestiees duncan and y/n" he said

"its starting to kick in" i told them.

*sniff*

*sniff*

"what do you smell girl" ethan said probably thinking i was like a dog thats his running joke

"i smell a familiar smell...it smells like jack" i said

"how the fuck does she know everytime" jack spoke from behind me

"why are you here" i asked

"i wanted to show you my dog... come here  chef Boyardee" he said and this brown fluffy dog who was really big came up.

"you named your dog... chef boyardee" i asked

"yes i did" he said back.

what the fuck.

the dog came and licked and then knocked me to the ground and was basically on top of me

"breathe" i said weakly. 

"chef" jack called back.

the dog got off.

"hey y/n" a female voice rang.... i dont know this scent

i looked

" oh MONICA" i said

"hiiii" she said back

" did you change purfumes?" i asked she nodded yes.

"whats up with ethan.." jack asked

"it was lindsay... she hit him with her car" monica added

"whosthe black haired bitch" jack also asked

" its heather to you. and im not a bitch" heather spoke

" you sound like one" jack said and heather started hitting jack. thats when i pulled her off of him. and chef boyardee went into attack mode. 

"i cant fight im preggers" monica said

" no way" i said 

i looked at her stomach and poked it.

"ow it kicked me" she said laughing

"y/n I FUCKING HATE YOU. YOU RUIN EVERYTHING" she said. looking like she was about to cry. 

"huh?" i looked confused

"ethan just told me the plan you guys had" heather said.

and withtaht she came at me.... and i put her in your place. 

" you are so fucking boring... hey im gonna be honest with you. since no one else wants to be. any guy who says he wants you not just for sex. is a lying mother fucker. so go ahead a cry. no one will care. and the only one you can blame is yourself. you did this to youself. you made it to where you have no real friends. because you cant buy them and expect them to care. when all you want to do is ruin peoples lives. dont expect them not to ruin yours" i said

and she started balling and she ran away.

"god its amazing how scary you can be y/n" gwen said

" oh sorry." i said 

"its fine.... it was needed" duncan added a little shocked.

"oh we brought wyatt" jack said and thats when wyatt ran up to me

"aunty y/n" he said hugging me

"ok bye" jack said running off with monica and chef boyardee

"wait your leaving me with the..... kid" i said sighing. 

"when is your mom coming wyatt" 

"in 2 days"

"WHAHUASOKDJPIJD 2 DAYS" i said completely just out of it.

"i dont know how to raise a kid" i looked at duncan

"why are you looking at me" duncan asked

"wyatt go sit in duncans lap"  he got off of mine and sat in duncans

i got up and ran

" IM GOING TO GET MILK... ILL COME BACK IN 2 DAYS" i yelled still running

"GET YOUR ASS BACK HERE" duncan yelled

"YEAH AUNTY Y/N GET YOUR ASS BACK HERE" wyatt said

i came back... ok im back. and i came back with a cup of milk

"oooo MILK" wyatt yelled

" for a 5 about to be 6 year old you really like milk" i said

"this man just cussed" gwen said

" fuck yeah i did" wyatt said causing me to laugh. 

it was currently 8 pm. and wyatt was alseep. on me. 

"i havent cuddled or kissed you all day" duncan said laying his head on my shoulder.

"ethan." i heard lindsay say but you know i called her fat bitch.

"oh hey lindsay" ethan said getting out of gwens lap.

"i wanted to say sorry. please take me back" the fat bitch said.

ethan looked at me

"i cant." he said

"well whatever i didnt want to anyway" she said

along with some other shit she said

"duncan please take wyatt" i said putting him on duncan.

and walking to a shed and getting a bat.

ethan turned back

"DUCK" i yelled and swung the bat. ethan ducked and the bat made contact with lindsay. 

"ow" she said falling to the  ground.

"UGLY" i said hitting her with the bat on the ground

"FAT BITCH. NO SENSE OF MORAL. THATS WHY YOUR DAD ABANDONED YOU WHEN YOU GOT PREGNAUT" i yelled still hitting her with the bat full force. 

"tell the cops and ill tell them you ran over ethan" i said stopping. she was crying

" if i do will you kill me" she asked

" well shit im thinking about doing it right now" i said. and she looked at me

"i wont and i wont hurt you or ethan" she said running away

ethan looked at me

"why are you moody today" he asked

and i hit ethan with the bat

" IM SORRY IM SORRY" he started yelling. 

"whats happening" wyatt woke up and asked

" go back to sleep wyatt" he did as told. 

"im going to my room" i said taking wyatt and going to my cabin. duncan joining. 

i laid wyatt in one of the bunk beds. and laid in my bed. duncan joining and taking this time to actually cuddle with me. 

"i havent been able to do this all day" he said pulling me closer. 

we bullshitted for a bit and then slept.