The next thing I know, I'm surrounded by snow-covered homes covered in Christmas decorations. Elliot's house is encrusted with gold. It will always be the light at the end of the tunnel.
I run as fast as I can and ignore the burn in my lungs. I unlock the front door with the key Elliot entrusted me with and crash inside, tearing off my coat and kicking off my boots. He isn't home from work yet. Good. I need to collect myself. I need to prepare. But all I can do is collapse on the living room couch and hide my face in my forearm and sob.
I'm weak on the outside, I know that. I'm not tall or muscular and I can't fight worth shit. But I'm strong on the inside. I'm strong where it matters. I'm smart, I'm careful, I'm a survivor.
With Colton Slater, I'm nothing.
What kind of fairytale fantasy world have I been living in? All the jealousy over Katie, the nervousness about Elliot. None of it matters. I can't be with him. Colt was always supposed to come back. Elliot and his world were an illusion, and after tonight, will be nothing but a memory.
I bawl into my hands. I don't want to leave. I can't leave him.
But I have to, and he'll never understand, so I'll do it quietly. Elliot will be home soon, and I don't want to waste my final hours crying. We still have one more night together, and I'm going to make it count. I want to feel his skin on mine and give him what Katie never did. I want him to know how special he his, how beautiful I find him.
But most of all, I'm a selfish bitch, because I want to be the first girl he ever sleeps with, so he has no choice but to remember me—even if he doesn't want to.
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