Balloon's POV

I decided to write letters to my foster Father. Great guy per say, he got me as soon as my parents... Never mind that.. Pretty young at the time..

"Dear Father, thanks for always giving me allowance weekly though i dont need it and i have enough from the month. $400 i think? Since im eliminated from the current season, i decided to find a job instead of you wasting your money on me, im grateful for you adopting me and for the money that i have saved. I hope you have the best of luck there, sorry i couldnt just text i dont have enough for a phone. And please dont give me one, im fine with anything you give. From expensive things to just comfort.

                                              Love, Balloon"

After i had finished writing the letter. I looked at the time and noticed it was lunch. I still looked pretty, whats the word.. Chubby? I guess.. I wasnt really eating a lot, i think i mightve gained some sort of eating disorder, maybe i should eat at least a snack. But i wont, i cant deal with their stares and whispering. But i DO deserve it anyway i should just deal with it. My mother used to say that "boys arent weak" or what not, though my dad *tried* to help with that. But i cant get it out of my mind, i should just not eat right now. Everyone else is playing outside, looks like i cant go in the forest again. I got up from my desk and looked outside the window. For some reason i saw Mephone with the final 6. I saw Testy! I always loved her even if they were ignoring or insulting me. She was my cousin after all! Aswell as OJ. I wonder how they are in life.. Im just stuck in here, theyre always so successful, OJ having a hotel. Test Tube being a scientist for the greater good.. Okay nevermind that! Its lunch, i still have to decide if i should go out or not!! Then the dorm room suddenly opens, startling me. I see Nickel at the door walking in and ignoring me as per usual. Maybe he's gonna ins--

Nickel: so why you staring at the window? Being all depressed that everyone's having fun~?

I was annoyed by him to say the least. Usually im never annoyed by anyone just sad by their insults. Im sure he noticed by his irritated expression

Nickel: whats got your knot in a twist? Yeesh, not eating again either. Makes sense, you still look fat

Balloon: How about shut up for once Nickel?

Nickel: Yeesh, looks like the depression changed you "back" to your so-called "old" self, youre still that bitchy season one person

I was DEFINETELY annoyed now. Nickel smirked and got his phone before going outside the room. I hated him just as much as he hated me. At least i got Suitcase with me.. I went to the bathroom to do my regular afternoon cutting session yayyyyyy. Wow im getting affected by Nickel's sarcasm. That's great! I got my small pocket knife and got to cutting even cuts on my arms. Maybe about 20 cuts each? I dont know.. After an hour it was 20 each arm.. I felt a bit woozy but thats normal. I disinfected and bandaged my purposeful wounds up. I wore my normal sweater to hide the wounds.. I should just try and get sleep, or clean the sink first yeah i'll do that..

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Thanks for reading this chapter! I really hope im good at writing cause i did this in an hour, waiting for C2BC 12 but its 6 pm!??? I cant wait forever!!!!