Sanskar : How you recognized me without looking behind? ( surprised).
Swara : for recognizing you. I don't need to look. Your presence is enough for me to recognize you. ( while putting her face close to him).
Sanskar smiles at her words snuggle in her more make her smile in tears.
Swara smiles in present remembering their soulful moment but soon her smile fade realising now things are different. Tears formed in her eyes.
Suddenly her heart beat start beating fast. She put hand on her heart remembered it's usually happen when Sanskar is around her before she turn she feels arms around her stomach and chin on her shoulder.
Swara : Sanskar!!
Sanskar : ( chuckles) aaj bhi meri aahat se mujhe pehchan jati hoon. How you will marry Laksh then?
She close her eyes letting tear fall from her eyes which she wiped immediately side him from her make him chuckles then only she recognize he is stumbling and understand he is drunk.
Swara : You are drunk Sanskar.
Sanskar : Yes! I am drunk.
Swara : what you are doing in my room at this much late that too drunk? ( while crossing her arms).
Sanskar : I wanna talk to you. ( drunk).
Swara : but I am not interested in talking to you leave my room right now before anyone see.
Sanskar : I don't care anyone see or not. All which matters to me I wanna talk to you. ( shouts).
Swara : don't shout Sanskar. If someone...
( worried).
Sanskar : I don't care. I wanna talk to you. ( like a stubborn kid shout).
Swara roll her eyes know he will not go till she will not listen to me.
Swara : Say what you wanna say?
Sanskar : What you we're saying? ( drunk).
Swara : ( confused) what and when?
Sanskar : in morning you we're saying you are of someone else. ( angrily shouts how she can forgot this when he is burning with this words).
Swara : is I said anything wrong? ( angrily) i said the truth.
Sanskar : No! It's not truth. Truth is this that you are only of mine only mine. Only I have right on you. ( angrily hold her shoulders tightly).
Swara : ( feels pain) Sanskar! Mujhe dard ho rhaa hai.
Sanskar : ( hurt) Dard toh tumhe hoga hi main jo hoon tumahri zindagi main.
Swara feels pain seeing his glassy eyes.
Sanskar : par jaisa bhi hoon tum sirf meri hi hoon. ( drunk).
Swara : tumahri kya Sanskar? What I am to you? ( make Sanskar shocked by her question making her leave) What i am to you Sanskar? Kya rishta hai humara? Kya naam hai humare rishtey ka? An illegal relation?
Sanskar : shut up Swara! How you can say our relation illegal. ( angrily).
Swara : when a girl and boy stay together without marriage. People call it's illegal only. ( making him face the truth) Sanskar! Without commitment there is no relation.
Sanskar : ( frustratedly shouts) commitment! Commitment! Why you are so much obsessed of this word? Why commitment is so big thing for you.
Swara : because this word my mom didn't got. ( teary eyes make him shocked) it's very big thing for me because from childhood I heard only taunts from society of being illegitimate because I want to remove it from my life because I don't want my life to be like my mother who didn't got vermilion in her life but I want it Sanskar.
Sanskar looks at her shocked. She never expressed her desire of getting commitment.
Swara : You know what Sanskar! Living in live in relationship was never my dream. It was never. I never wanted this. I have some other dreams of my life. 'Marriage' 'Commitment' 'Husband' 'Kids'. This was my dream. ( teary eyes) do you know why? Because from childhood I hear only that I am illegitimate. I wanted to bound in a legitimate relation. I wanted vermilion in my hairline and mangalsutra on my neck which will stop the mouths of society who used to say I can never become someone's wife because illegitimate girl like me only can become someone's slut but wife no.
Sanskar clenched his fist hearing this.
Swara : I wanted to prove the society wrong. I wanted to show I also can become of someone's wife. I was all sure about my thoughts but you know things doesn't work what you plan. It's work according your destiny and my destiny made me meet you and everything got change. I start getting affected by you. ( teary eyes) I stopped myself very much but you know is dil ke paas dimag nhi hota Jo ise samjayee not to beat. ( crying).
Sanskar feels pinch seeing her crying but let her speak which she want to say.
Swara : ho gaya pyaar! I fall for you endlessly without my plan. ( crying) I knew me and you has no future even after knowing you don't believe in commitment. I surrender myself to you because i wanted to be marked by you whom I love. I didn't had any other thought then this just wanted to become yours that's it. But next morning I realized i also did mistake like my mom. I also became blind in my love ( stare his face who has now hurt) Don't think i am regretting for that night. I can never. That was the best night for me. After ages i able to sleep in your arms. i lived my whole life in that one moment Sanskar. ( crying).
This touched his soul. He looks at her with glassy eyes.
Swara : But i knew you are not having faith in love and marriage. You just needed me so I tried to make myself away from you because I wanted to show myself strong but I am not. I so wanted you but I was stopping myself and when you confessed that you want me and asked for live in relation. I agreed without thinking much not because I wanted that. I agreed because you wanted that. I agreed because i wanted you only. I agreed because I saw love in your eyes for me. I thought you also love me.
Sanskar become shocked knowing she agreed to him because she thought he love her.
Swara : I was agreed in living with you without marriage because I thought that one day you will realize the importance of marriage in life when you will realize your love for me. I stayed with you without marriage like a husband wife. But I never forced myself on you to change your thinking because staying with you was my choice. How I can force myself on you? Love is not force. Main chahti thi tum khud humare bare main socho. I thought I will give you this much love that one day you will come out from your shell which you made because of your fear. I thought one day I will break this wall in us which stopping you to become mine. I thought i will give you this much love that you will yourself come to me and will ask for marry. (Crying).
Sanskar stare her crying face feels pain inside.
Swara : don't think I am blaming you. It's was my choice. I love you so it's my problem. I expected too much from you. You know I was in dreamland of my love but it's gone broken when you made me face reality and the reality was this painful that I broken in pieces. ( burst in tears sit with thud start crying) I broken in pieces Sanskar. I broken.
Sanskar is standing numb tears fall from his eyes. He stare Swara crying forward his hands toward her but stop in mid back off close his eyes feeling pain in his heart go out from room.
Next Day!
Sangeet function is going. Sanskar is standing with Laksh and his other friends but his mind is somewhere else. It's like he only present there physically but mentally only thing is running in his mind is Swara.
He is remembering her yesterday words. Her love confession, her pain everything revolving in his mind which making him restless.
I fall for you endlessly
I thought one day my love will change you.
I thought I will give you this much love that you will come out from your shell of fear.
But you made me face reality and the reality was this much painful that I broken in pieces.
I broken Sanskar!
I broken.
Her words are ringing in his ears.
Where are you lost Sanskar?
Sanskar come in sense hearing Laksh.
Sanskar : nowhere. ( trying to sound normal but failing badly).
Laksh : Sanskar! It's clearly written on your face you are looking tensed. What happened?
Sanskar : I am absolutely fine Laksh. ( trying to sound normal) i just didn't slept well so.
Laksh : are you sure?
Sanskar nod yes.
Suddenly his heart beat become fast. He looks find Swara coming down from stairs dressed in pink saree looking gorgeous. She is smiling.
She is very good in hiding her pain isn't?
He thinks in mind seeing her sadness behind her broad smile.
But is he can also hide like her? No he can't. His pain is clearly visible on his face.
Laksh come toward her take her hand. She come with him smiling but deep inside only crying. Sanskar can feel her un listened crying which making him restless as well his heart is paining seeing her with someone else.
He unknowingly imagined himself on Laksh place with her.
He come in sense when they pass him and sit on their place. He see her with glassy tears. Function start. After a while Swara and Laksh also come on stage dancing on a romantic song which pained Sanskar like acid
He unable to see it more and go from there. Swara who was watching him secretly become shocked seeing him going like this. The thing which make her worried his tears.
She without thinking part away from Laksh go behind Sanskar.
Someone else also is having tears revealed Ragini. She come near Laksh and drag him from there.
At Terrace!
Swara reach toward Sanskar who staring stars while remembering how he and she used to stare stars together.
He is remembering their first meet, their teasing session, their closeness, their love making, her care, her love, their happiness then how they parted. He remembered how after her he never abled to touch any girl.
He remembered yesterday talk. How she pour her heart in front of him.
I fall for you endlessly.
Ho gyaa pyaar!
I stopped myself alot but still pyaar ho gyaa mujhe.
I knew you don't have faith in love and marriage but i agreed to stay with you because I just wanted you.
I agreed because I thought one day you will understand the importance of love and marriage.
I thought one day my love will change your thinking.
I thought I will love yoi this much that you will come out from your shell of fear.
I have some other dreams of my life. 'Marriage' 'Commitment' 'Husband' 'Kids'. This was my dream.
I wanted vermilion in my hairline and mangalsutra on my neck
He remembered before breakup she told.
I want your name of vermilion in my hairline.
I want your name of mangalsutra on my neck.
I want our kids.
I was living in dreamland of my love but when you made me face reality. I broken. Because reality was this much painful
That
I broken in pieces.
I broken Sanskar.
I broken.
I broken!!
I love you Sanskar!
I love you!!!
Her words ring in his ears which make his heart heavier. He sit on his knee with tears in his eyes close his ears don't wanna hear but reality is piercing his heart.
I am of someone else now.
Every her words ringing in his ears.
Ahhh!!!!!
He shouts top of his voice burst in tears.
Sanskar!!!
He see Swara standing worriedly for him. He see her crying like kid. Swara run toward him hug him. He start crying badly in his arm.
Swara : Sanskar!! Kya hua? ( she caress his back her eyes become teary seeing him broken like this).
He hug her tight crying badly in his arm.
Sanskar : ( crying) I can't bear this. I can't.
Swara : what Sanskar? ( cups his face).
Sanskar : this pain. I can't bear. ( pointing toward his heart) it's paining. I need you. I need you. Now I can't deny more. I can't lie to myself more that I don't get effected by you because reality is this that i get effected. It's pain Swara. It's pain. ( crying).
Swara looks at him with tears seeing her like this.
Sanskar : It's been 6 month I am trying hard to prove that I am old Sanskar the same play boy. But every time I failed terribly. Chahe main kitna bhi nakar loon par sach to yhi hai main Purana Sanskar nhi rhaa. You changed me and after you main vo Sanskar bhi nhi rhaa jo tumne banaya kyuki tum mujhe bhi khud ke sath le gayi.
Swara : there is no use of talking this Sanskar. ( she turn to go but stop hearing Sanskar).
Sanskar : Please Swara! Let me complete bahut Muskil se aaj samjh aaya hai. Don't stop me now.
Swara 's eyes become teary hearing him.
Sanskar : that moment i didn't touched that girl. ( make her shocked) I tried but nhi kar payaa. Nhi hua mujhse bas tum hi tum najar aarhi thi. Nahi hua mujhse. ( tears brimmed in Swara 's eyes knowing truth that he was always loyal to her) I tried many times to become old play boy Sanskar but nhi kar paya. Kabhi bhi.
Sanskar : today I realized why i never abled to touch any girl after you because you didn't touched me Swara. You touched my soul. You owned my soul. ( crying)
there was no single moment Swara when I didn't thought about you. You was every second in my mind. I tried alot to take you out from my mind but I failed it. I can't see you with anyone else. My heart pains like hell when I see with anyone else. You are mine only mine. I just want to see myself in you, in your eyes, in your heart I only want me. ( crying).
agar yhi pyaar hai toh haan karta hoon main tumse pyaar.
Swara who is standing with close eyes controlling her tears open her eyes in shock tears fall from her eyes which she always wanted to hear she is hearing those magical words for her. She turn her face to him.
Sanskar : karta hoon pyaar main tumse Swara bahut bahut jyadaa itna ki main kuch bhi nhi hooon tumhare bina. Khali hai yah Sanskar tumhare bina Swara. I always run away from commitment. Par aaj main commitment karna chahta hoon. Tumhe apna banana chahta hoon is janam agle 7 janmo ke liye. I want to marry you Swara. ( teary eyes shouts) Today I want to see my name of vermilion in your hairline. I want to see my name of mangalsutra on your neck. I want our kids. I want my future with you. ( crying) I want!
Swara smiles in tears hearing his words which was her dream. She run toward him for hugging. Sanskar also smile open his arms for her but she stopped remembering something.
She remembered her engagement with Laksh.
Sanskar : aao na please! I am craving for you. ( crying).
Swara : I can't. ( taking step back make him shocked).
Sanskar : Kyun? I love you now and also ready to marry you. ( hurt teary eyes).
Swara : but now I am marrying Laksh Sanskar. I can't cheat him. I am sorry but you are late. ( teary eyes).
Sanskar : No! Don't say like this. I know you love me please don't do this.
Swara : but commitment is big then any love. I am sorry Sanskar. ( run away while crying not wanna weak).
Swara!!!
Sanskar call her name again and again but she run. He burst in tears. He remembered how earlier she was asking this and he denied now he ready but now destiny played.
In Swara 's Room!
Swara crying miserably laying on bed remembering her all memories with Sanskar.
Swara : I am sorry Sanskar.
Her trance broke by knock. She compose herself hearing Laksh voice. She wipe her tears open door.
Swara : Yes Laksh!
Laksh : Swara I wanna say something. ( while entering inside).
Swara : are you alright? ( seeing him tensed).
Laksh : I love Ragini. ( with close eyes).
Swara become shocked hearing him.
Swara : what? ( shocked).
Laksh : I know you might be hurt but I can't hide more things from you. I already love Ragini even from childhood I love her but then she played with me. She act fake love with me for a bet and I was hurt when I came to know. I wanted to show to her that she doesn't effect me that's when your orphanage aunty brought your alliance. I said yes because i was hurt and thought to move on but i never abled to. She is my love. I can't forget her and today she confessed that she also love me and I forgave her and accepted. I am sorry Swara! But this loveless marriage will only lead us in suffering that's why it's better not to continue it. You also loved someone. You can understand me. If he would come back. You would accept him. Please understand me.
Swara start crying in happiness. Now she can be with Sanskar. She was only stopping herself for sake of Laksh but now he also love someone else.
Laksh : ( see her crying become worried) I am sorry Swara.
Swara : Don't be! Even I should say thank you to you. ( smiling in tears).
Laksh : what? Who?
Swara : Sanskar!! I love him. ( smiling).
Laksh : what? Sanskar and you. ( confused).
Swara : he was only my boyfriend with whom I was in live in relationship.
Laksh : that's great. But why that rascal hide this from me.
Swara : don't abuse him. He is my would be husband. ( in warning tone).
Laksh : Oh Oh! Would be husband. ( teasingly suddenly become worried remembering something) Swara go fast to him. He is leaving for Mumbai.
Swara : ( shocked) what?
Laksh nod yes. Swara run out in haste.
Sanskar come on poll side. He remembered their first meet on pool. He close eyes controlling his tears.
But gasped when someone push him and he directly fall in pool. Before he see who push him someone jump in water but later see that person sinking. He remembered Swara.
Hold my hand Sanskar!!
Sanskar realized it's Swara. He immediately hold her hand take her out holding her hand. She smiles brightly to him.
Sanskar : are you mad? If you don't know swimming. Why you jumped in? ( angrily).
Swara : purani yaadein taza karne. ( smiling).
Sanskar : what? ( confused).
He gasp when Swara place her lips on his lips start kissing him taking him under water. He come in sense when she bite his lips unable to control himself more he kiss her back while tightening his grip on her petite waist.
Both break kiss when out of breath.
Sanskar : what was this? ( breathing heavily).
Swara : Laksh love Ragini. ( breathing heavily too but smiling).
Sanskar : what?
Swara : now me and you always and forever. ( hug him tight happily).
Sanskar
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