(TW: uh there is mention of s////de so if u want an alternate chapter plz lmk! i'm more than fine with making one!)

'ah a nice hot shower, finally' i thought as the bathroom mirrors started fogging up and melting by Kali Uchis rang in my ears (thought i'd throw in a little cute song :) )

*ding*

The notification snapped me out of my thoughts, unfortunately. I didn't check it for another 5 minutes still wanting some heat to rain on me but getting antsy thinking it may be Stan.

Dina: hey y/n.. are u busy 2day? i think we should talk ab last night..

me: sorry Stan and i have plans, another time tho?

Dina: oh, yea another time..

god I hated this. I'm not mad that she kissed me I just wish we could act like it never happened. I mean she's my best friend i don't want anything to change between us, ugh

In hopes to distract my brain I focused on what I was gonna wear to Mr.Barber's bowling alley. I laugh at the thought of calling it that. Is it bad how much my mind wanders to him? Hm, anyways clothes haha! I wasn't the type to put much effort into my clothes, if i liked it boom there's the fit! But i could use the distraction plus maybe I'll get to see mister Stanley looking like a bright tomato again. :). I pull out a black dress, no... too fancy. Bowler shirt... nah too.. Stan. Finally! I put together a mini-skirt, zip up, and some boots.

(Sorry if u dont like it >w<)

I pulled out my phone and decided to see if the alley was busy right now, it usually was dead until 4pm and it was only 12 but I wanted to be sure

me: hey :)

Stan: whats up y/n :)

me: you guys busy yet?

Stan: nah, rush hour isn't till forever, when r u coming?

me: would now be fine?

Stan: yes ma'am B)

me: k, you hungry?

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"AHHH YOU'RE THE BEST!!" Stan loudly says bringing me in for a bear hug

"Of course I am" I bow chuckling

He smiles grabbing a slice of the pizza i brought for us

"Ok so" the pizza filling the sides of his mouth "here's what we're working with, you'd say you have 'powers', correct?"

"Uh.. I mean.. i guess?"

"Yes, the answer is yes y/n, ok so what powers are you aware of, that you possess?"

"Stan i dont know, i thought it was clear that im confused when i spent the night crying to you" I say squinting at him as if he didn't think this thru

"Hm, see you coulda said 'well Stan, when my mother provoked me at home, things in my room started flying everywhere. When Bradley provoked me I made things violently crash off the walls. And when you provoked me i made a whole tree fall causing you to crash your fathers car' which by the way, i had to go get this morning"

"I- Im so sorry about that.. i didn-"

"I know y/n, messing with you" he rolls his eyes in a playful manner "anyways what i was trying to get at is that something happens when you're being irritated by someone"

"Ok but how is this training?"

"Are you dumb?" A scowl appeared on his face?

"Wh- shit maybe" I grin not taking him seriously 

"Yea I figured when you failed that math test, you weren't all the way put together up there" his arms folded as they were from the previous statement 

"OHHH i see what this is, aww wittle stan gonna make me mad?" I pout my lip in a mocking manner

"You know I had sex with Syd right?"

"Yea right"

"That same place you and I kissed, yep see it happened the same way me and you ended up kissing, i just went further with her"

"Ok? Your point isss? Should I be jealous?" I was

"I dont know should you be?"

"What do you want me to ask why you didn't go further with me or something?"

"Oh that isn't obvious?"

"Which part? Asking you or fucking me" I say trying to get on his nerves more than he could mine

"Forgot, you're not all the way up there" he sighed

"So are you gonna spit it out or gonna continue to fail at this 'training'?"

"You're not worth it."

I looked at him with a blank expression, it did hurt hearing his voice say that so confidently 

"See I thought this would be obvious, i mean to the average human it probably is, but when your dad offed himself wasn't it clear to you then?" he said inching closer to me as I barely processed the words that just left his mouth

"..I dont wanna do this anymore."

"Are you quoting him right now?" still a nonchalant look on his face, at least what I could see from behind the blur of forming tears

"Stop it Stan."

"Or what? You gonna be a daddy jr y/n? you gonna continue the legacy?"

Bowling balls arose from behind me to the height of Stan's head, his eyes widening and his face cracking into a smile

"Y/N YOU'RE DOING IT MY THEORY WAS CORRECT!"

2 of the balls went flying for him and he ducked, the others dropped to the floor as i stared dumbfounded with the conversation we just had 

"y/n.. I-I didnt mean it! c'mon you know I'd never actually sa-"

"BUT YOU DID YOU DID SAY IT"

"I'm sorry I didn't know what else to say I wasnt thinking."

"NO YOU WEREN'T THINKING! YOU'RE SUCH A FUCKING ASSHOLE" I could feel the tears rolling down my cheeks and my feet stomping away from him towards the door before he grabbed my wrist

"That was wrong of me, I'm sorry I'll never say anything like that again I'm so sorry" the curly haired boy pleaded holding my head into his chest

"Leave me alone... I don't wanna talk right now.." I push him off of me and wipe my tears as I open the door not turning around

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me: hey you still free?

Dina: Yes, whats up?

me: plans got cut short... wanna meet at the diner?

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As I was sitting alone in a booth bouncing my leg up and down faster than I thought possible, I realized this was a bad idea. My temper tantrums weren't necessarily just "rude" they were dangerous. I was too upset to talk about something serious. AUGH Its ok, you're okay y/n, breathe.

"Are you meditating?" I hear a familiar voice beaming as i was calming myself down

"Something like that" I motion for her so sit across from me with a gentle smile

I've never experienced a more awkward moment in my life.

"ahem.." I clear my throat snapping Dina out of the trance she found herself in "so, whatdya wanna talk about?" I sip my soda

"look.. about last night, I was drunk and upset and.."

"Dina, it's not a big deal. I'm sorry for rushing out and giving you that impression, Stan had to be home soon and I didn't wanna get him in trouble." 

"Oh.. okay. Well, thanks.. for understanding and everything"

"Dina, im your best friend, you never have to worry about being in a weird place with me" I say putting my hands atop hers. wow, this was going better than I anticipated, sure i may have said one false statement but I meant that she was my best friend. That's what mattered

After we shared apologizing smiles with each other we ordered some fries and shakes, like old times before all this chaos. We focused on all of the good parts of last night instead of the rest, I accidentally told her about Stan asking me to be his date while i was caught up in yesterdays thoughts forgetting what happened before i arrived here.

"Awww y/nnn thats so sweet! What did you say?? I mean you like him right? You've been almost inseparable since you got here."

"Mm I said maybe" my heart stinging thinking about the hurtful words he said to me "he's cute i guess"

"Oh come on! You stare at him all the time! Weren't you with him just earlier, what happened?"

"The alley was starting to get a little crowded, didn't wanna get him in trouble" I swirl my milkshake in a circle, a lie could roll of my tongue, my gaze could give it all away though

"Hm... did you guys smoke? You don't smell but.. your eyes are a little tinted"

"You're not gonna let this go, huh?"

"Y/n you gave me a whole speech about how we're best friends and that I shouldn't worry, so why can't you tell your 'best friend' what happened" she said with a sad tone that matched her sad expression

I let out a sigh before I started "we got into an argument, he said some hurtful things that I'd rather not repeat for the sake of myself, sorry, but.. i dunno i know why he said it and he apologized but it really hurt me, yanno?"

she thought before she spoke moving her lips to the side of her face "was it something totally unforgivable?"

"...no"

"Well, be mad, for now. When you're ready to talk to him, do it. Did he have a good reason to say what he did?"

"Uh, it, um... not to the extent...?"

"Thenn i'd say maybe you can talk to him, take a little time to yourself, then see where you guys stand."

"Thanks Dina.. that's really helpful" I give her a melancholy smile as she returns her warm one

"Can I ask you something though?"

"Anything!" she adjusts her posture leaning towards me

"Well yanno.. with Syd being your other best friend and all... I'm sure she tells you everything.. right?"

"When she has something actually going on, I suppose so, I mean.. I hope she does. Why what'd she do?"

"Before.." I twiddled my fingers looking at the table rather than at Dina who's eyes were nearly burning through my frontal lobe "...before i moved here, did her and Stan uh.. were they-"

"So Stan told you they slept together?"

"Its true?"

"Look it was a one time thing, Syd's over it and Stan's totally into you, I promise you that part won't be something that affects your relationship"

A wave of relief hit me, yet I was still anxious. Too anxious to leave Stan in the back of my mind instead of talking to him how Dina suggested

"Hey, go talk to Stan, ask him about his feelings." her smile was more timid now but still understanding 

"Are you sure, we can hang out longer"

"Its fine y/n, you're head is somewhere else, tell me EVERYTHING, not that half assed shit you were feeding me before, but really tell me what happens" She pulled me into her embrace just like the first time she did when I moved here 

"Of course, Love you."

"Love you." (✿◡‿◡)

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3:47pm. Perfect right before rush hour!

When I walk into the alley Stan's not at the counter like usual. I walk further down the alley hoping to run into him cleaning something or run into his boss to ask where we was. I decided against yelling his name out not wanting to give the buddy buddy OMG LEtS TALK impression, I wanted this to be serious and genuine. I needed it to be.

Once i get down to the last few lanes I see his curly hair just above one of the ball holders (What r those called??) as he was clearly sitting on the floor up against it. The closer i get to the machine I hear this sort of smacking noise. As soon as I was right behind him I knew i shouldn't peek around the corner. I knew it'd make everything worse. I knew I shouldn't make a scene. But of course, I decide against myself and peer around nearly sobbing in front of what I saw

"Really Stanley? I really wasn't good enough compared to her was I? 'Training' was just an excuse to tell me how you really felt? Was making me feel something funny to you??" I manage to get out in between hyperventilating cries looking at him and Sydney who has released each others lips when I spoke

"y/n I swear this isn't what it looks like" Stan pushes Syd jolting up above me

"Oh cuz that isn't cliche! You know what Stan, FUCK YOU!"

"Y/n-"

"Sydney, please do NOT start too." I say as one of the lights in the ceiling next to her fall indenting the spot next to where she sat before 

(A/N bruh its 4:20am I'm literally going INSANE i need bed </3 this chapter is sad, me sorry 

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