"so you didn't fuck ushiwaka?", oikawa questioned

"nope", y/n shook her head, looking around his house that she'd never been to.

he'd lived out of a smaller apartment in his first year living in the city but had eventually moved into a bigger place overlooking the beach a few months ago.

this house was definitely much bigger. he paid for it on his own but his parents insisted on funding renovation costs for it because they were extremely proud of their son's achievements. he had fully moved in just about a month before his trip back to japan.

the house had two floors and one guest bedroom. its front faced the main road while the back directly opened upto the beach. the inlay had definitely been done up by an interior designer.

"this is quite the place", she remarked, looking around, "and... you're famous around here"

"you know that praising me will only boost my overinflated ego, right?", he asked, chuckling.

"it was an observation", she scoffed. "i also saw you in like, some deodorant commercial."

"ah, that. i look hot shirtless, i know"

"i shouldn't have brought it up"

she walked upto the deck, looking at the view in wonder. she didn't think she'd ever really observed how different the beach looked in the night. it was weird.

he walked up behind her, placing his arm around her waist. his chin leaned on her shoulder.

"what are you thinking?", he whispered, to which she leaned back into him and shook her head.

"i'm scared", she admitted

"of the ocean?"

"no.. uh... what exactly is this?", she blurted, "like, what are we?"

he slowly turned her around so she could face him. his lips met hers cautiously. she breathed in, allowing him to wrap his arm around her waist.

he was about to pull away so he could answer her question.

but then the kiss escalated so quickly.

it grew breathless. needy. urgent.

the kind of kiss that said 'i missed you so fucking much'

his hands pulled her closer, her fingers raking through his perfect brown hair. he was so beautiful.

their love affair might've spanned a few weeks but their friendship had lasted a lifetime. the time they spent apart was time that did not matter anymore.

breaking away from the kiss was like being forced to come up for air. they broke away, breathing heavily.

he brushed hair out of her face, placing another small peck on her lips.

"you wanna-?"

"yes", she whispered and he chuckled softly.

he led her up the stairs to his bedroom, faster than he ever had before. she closed the door behind her, barely acknowledging how big the room was as she was kissing him again.

there was an uncertainty that tugged at her heart.

and she wanted to ignore it because oikawa felt so good and she missed him so much and he told her he loved her and he meant it and everything seemed perfect.

she wanted to ignore it because he pulled her into his lap, holding her like he wasn't gonna let go of her. like he was almost scared that she would slip away if he stopped holding her.

she wanted to ignore her gut feeling... she wanted to...

she broke away from him abruptly, squeezing her eyes shut. she was so overwhelmed.

"i'm sorry-", she whispered, suddenly feeling her face heat up. her words got stuck in her throat as she covered her face with her hands.

"you okay?", oikawa questioned with concern, his hand slowly moving up her back.

her hands began to tremble slightly. fuck, no. no no no she wasn't gonna cry again. no. she wasn't gonna allow it. for god's sake, she wasn't this weak.

she felt him gently pry her hands away from her face, cautious of making some kind of mistake.

"talk to me", he urged, "y/n, please talk to me"

she slightly shook her head, afraid of saying another word because she would definitely cry.

"i'm sorry-", she managed to say again, her voice barely holding it together.

"don't- don't apologise", he shook his head, "tell me what's wrong. please."

"i...love you", she said, voice slightly wavering, "i love you, tooru"

"i love you too", he said without a shadow of doubt, kissing the back of her hand, "i love you so much"

"i have...", she tried to explain herself, feeling the urge to cry flood right back in, "i've... wanted this for so long and-"

he intertwined his fingers with hers, giving her his undivided attention. she was trembling again.

"i've wanted...", she resumed, voice unsteady, "i-i've waited for this to happen for so long and you don't understand, tooru i'm- so scared. i'm so scared that we will end badly and i can't... i don't know if i can handle.."

it wasn't until he reached for her face to wipe away her tears that she realised she was already crying.

she clenched her jaw, shaking her head again.

"i'm sorry-", she whispered but he cut her off.

"shhhh stop apologising", tooru felt his heart hurt all over again as he watched her try desperately to hold in tears.

he realised he really hurt her. he broke her heart. and now she was scared that he'd do it again unannounced.

he moved his hand to her hair, pulling her in so she could rest her head against his chest. her arms hesitantly wrapped around his torso.

"i love you", he whispered, over and over, "i love you so much, i'm so sorry, i love you."

she cried silently as he massaged circles into her back, waiting for her to let it all out.

"i firmly believe", he began, trying to articulate what he felt, "that we'll be fine."

she could only listen, still clinging to him.

"i believe that we'll make it", he said, pressing his lips to the top of her head, "i promise to not hurt you"

she chuckled at that, whispering, barely audible "you know better than to make promises you can't keep"

"i give you full permission to hurt me", he whispered, "to break my heart, to crush my soul, puncture my favourite volleyball, whatever you want"

"you're so dramatic", she mumbled into his chest, slightly hitting her fist against it, "obviously i'm not gonna puncture your favourite volleyball"

"so you'll do the other stuff?", he gasped accusingly

"shut up", she groaned, finally pulling away from him with her red, tear stained face.

he smiled his beautiful smile, wiping the stray tears falling from her eyes.

"ruin me, y/n"

she reached for his face, her heart melting from how he immediately leaned into her touch.

"what's the alternative?", she questioned, gliding her thumb across his cheek. he grabbed her wrist and placed a kiss on her knuckles.

"please be my girlfriend"

she smiled so genuinely through the tears, heart beating a mile a minute.

"are you sure?", she whispered

"more than i've ever been", he assured, "we can keep it private for as long as you like. i promise."

"and what about haji?", she recalled the fact that her brother and him had an argument over her.

"let me tell him", he insisted, "he'll understand"

"will he?"

"i'm serious about you", he placed another kiss on her lips, "so he will understand. i'm positive."

she took a deep breath, deciding 'fuck it'

"i'll be your girlfriend tooru"

-•-•-•-

"so you're his girlfriend now", the girl across from y/n stated, "that's good, right?"

"cami, please don't tell anyone", y/n requested and the model only nodded.

"did y'all have sex?", another girl questioned, and y/n looked at her apologetically

"midori- i'm sorry", y/n sighed and akamine laughed, reaching out to place her hand on her arm.

"you're lucky i like you", she stated, "and frankly, i get what atsumu saw in you so~ i'm not mad"

y/n stared at her blankly.

"okay fine i'm maybe a little mad but i'll get over it", midori shrugged.

"so atsumu is... your ex", cami pointed, "but you're fucking his identical twin"

"yes"

"damn, girl. i wanna do that."

"it sounds better than it is", she shrugged

"have you ever...", cami thought out loud, "have you ever, like, had a threesome with them?"

"wellll", she chuckled, "they said they're not into it so... there isn't much i can do"

"that sucks"

"yeah, tell me about it"

cami, akamine and y/n were out for lunch today. the two didn't know how they befriended cami but they did and now she was here.

"you didn't answer my question though", akamine pointed out to y/n

"we didn't have sex", y/n informed, "i kinda cried... a lot. and then we just fell asleep."

"i mean fair enough, you've been like dead inside for weeks. what kind of psychopath doesn't cry at the end of assassination classroom?", akamine remarked, "crying is a big step forward"

"you didn't cry in assassination classroom?", cami gasped, making both of them stare at her.

"you know japanese?!"

"you watch anime?!,?"

"i don't live under a rock", cami scoffed, "i watch it with subtitles"

"what else do you watch??", y/n questioned curiously

"i recently watched jujutsu kaisen", she shrugged

"isn't gojo pretty?"

"prettiest"

"he reminds me of this guy i know", y/n remarked, "i don't know how to explain but their voices sound so similar"

"are you talking about kuroo?", akamine snorted, "rei used to say the same thing about him"

"wait, rei knows kuroo?", she raised her eyebrows

"they hooked up a couple of times", akamine informed, "why?"

"no wonder rei is so scared of chi"

"can you blame her? chi is scary", akamine chuckled, "hot, but scary"

cami's eyes widened in realisation.

"wait, you guys know kuroo and chi?"

-•-•-•-

"so...", oikawa looked at the screen, thoroughly excited.

makki and mattsun on the other end were extremely sleepy because it was 3 am in japan right now. not that the brunette cared.

oikawa looked like he could not stop smiling. his eyes lit up the whole screen. it was honestly nauseating.

"god, just spit it out already", makki groaned, "the fuck are you smiling about?"

"so i met y/n cause she's here", he looked so happy, "she's literally here. can you believe it?"

makki and mattsun's sleep disappeared as they sat upright and tried to look fake surprised.

"oh my god, really?!", makki gasped dramatically

"how did she get there?", mattsun questioned, overcompensating, "did she fly?"

"yeah we talked it out and...", oikawa's voice trailed off as he narrowed his eyes at them. his best friends could fool anyone but him.

"y'all are dating now?", makki tried to complete for him.

"you two already knew, didn't you?", oikawa gasped

"yeah"

"we've known for weeks"

"surpriseeee"

"for research purposes, did you faint when you saw her?", makki questioned

"did you feel like you were hallucinating?", mattsun added

oikawa pouted, looking away from them.

"i hate you both"

"you look happy", makki remarked, his tone genuine this time.

"you really like her", mattsun observed

oikawa was still smiling when he corrected mattsun.

"i love her"

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vote if you liked the chapter bb

sorry it's a little late, exams are ongoing.