Anime__fan450 this is for you!

Ever since you were born you thought you were the wrong gender

Y/n L/n was born a woman, something when thinking about, felt very uncomfortable.

You really never knew why you felt like this. You spent years feeling like you don't fit in without really understanding why, and you started avoiding talks of gender altogether, half of the time you felt ashamed, guilty, and confused.

They tried to repress these thoughts but it just made it harder. That is when you stumbled upon an article about being transgender a term you had just learned, searching more about you found out more about what transgender means.

You skimmed through the many sources and found an article explaining what transgender means you read through the article and summarised it to what you understood :

"Transgender is a broad term that can be used to describe people whose gender identity is different from the gender they were thought to be when they were born"

you felt relieved, relieved that you weren't the only person who felt this way but at the same time you felt anxious, you could feel the anxiety creeping through your entire body, the reason for that was you had a boyfriend.

His name was Hairo Kineshi and you couldn't bear to lose him. He was the only person who was the light of your life during the darkest of times, and you didn't want him to break up with you.

You could look into his fiery eyes forever, the eyes filled with determination and love for you, and his red locks of hair which, when you two were alone, you would play with, it was soothing during the harsh times.

And his muscular build always seemed perfect with your build it was like two perfect puzzle Pisces, you loved the times when he would pick you up in his strong arms and look at you with a gaze filled with compassion and love

Which made all your struggles seemingly vanish,

You would rather die than lose all that love and you don't want to lose anyone remotely close to you, Parents, friends, classmates, hell even neighbors!

There was a chance that they were accepting—but they also might not be, and you feared that you would lose your loved ones.

So you hid your true identity, you smiled even though you knew you were far from happy.

Hairo started noticing weird things when he started dating you, but he didn't want to barge in your private life, so he kept a safe distance from you while still being supportive and trying to be a good partner,

He really started having red alarms when he saw you sending him fake smiles and stared to avoid everyone he was worried as a normal person would be boyfriend he loved you so he decided to confront you about it,

It was a rainy day in Hidari Wakibara, you were walking to pk academy a short distance from your house which was a short walk, an umbrella in hand you started walking through the gate of the school,

You had placed the dampened umbrella you removed your indoor shoes and placed them in the shoebox, and bent down to wear your Uwabaki, Right then and there you saw a fiery-haired figure beside you it was hairo,

"Hey Y/n!!" he practically screamed in your ear to the point you could sense his energy, you were pretty convinced everyone could,

"Hey, hairo!" you replied sending him the happiest smile you could,

"I was wondering if I could talk to you later of course if you're okay with it," hairo said sending you a warm smile, you could see his posture was timid which was awfully eerie because hiaro's most known for his confidence and determination.

"Sure I don't see why not" you responded with a nervous smile etched on your face, to be frank, you were afraid, afraid that maybe hairo stopped loving you? Maybe he moved on? Has he found out about your gender crisis?

During the hours of school, you were filled with anxiety, your hands were clammy and you felt tense knowing the bell would ring any minute, during that time you prayed to God that it wasn't anything bad that he wouldn't leave you

You felt pathetic, pathetic that you had to wait for the bell. There were only thirty minutes until the bell was supposed to ring but to you, it felt like hours, hours of endless waiting and stress.

When the bell had finally rung, you jolted out of your seat and started making the way to hairos class so you could wait for his class, the thing is that you went to the same school but both of you were in different sections, the reason is that you were a bit older than him. (by a month)

You waited uneasily next to the door of class 2-∭, it felt like hours but in real life, it was only about 10 minutes you flinched when you heard the doors open and a flurry of students went by but only one seemed to catch your eye Hairo Kineshi.

You could see him from the corner of your eye approaching you,

"Hey Y/n" you heard the sound from beside and felt someone picking you up it was hairo! You were lifted from the ground and held in bridal style by strong hands,

"Hairo!! Put me down!" you laughed, but he didn't listen to you he went in closer and kissed both of your cheeks and then your forehead before he complied with your demand, if someone were to see y/n they would think they had a horrible cold,

They had a face redder than beets and were mumbling incoherent sentences at seemingly no one. Hairo was just laughing at the adorable scenario before him.

Hairo and you had started walking from school all the way to his house, which to you was surprisingly nice and sorta peaceful

"So y/n" Hairo said looking at you with a serious face, His face shifting into a face of concern,

"Are you ok?"

The boy asked, sounding sincere as if he would give up the whole world for you, which the look he was giving would.

Your face and crushed up at the out of context question and his change of demeanor

"What do you mean?" you asked for clarification looking at him eye to eye

"Well I started noticing you acting sorta weird for about a few weeks now and as you partner, i was worried"

"I-" you were about to say but halted you had stopped walking you were currently looking at the ground, the sun had begun to set leaving a shadow on the cement floor, you started thinking about it should you tell him?

"y/n?"

"Hairo this is going to be difficult for me to say bu- but I feel that it is important for me to say it, There's something I've been bearing inside of me for a long time now, and i think-" you had stopped talking before starting again

I think I'm trans, I've had these feelings for a long time now and I don't know how to exactly phrase it but I think I wanna transition into a boy, it's fine if you wanna leave me it really is bu-

Words had started spewing from your mouth at the speed of 100 miles per hour you couldn't stop and you couldn't look up at him,

"Hold on y/n-" hairo had interrupted you mid-sentence

Shit!

had he finally decided he wanted to break up with you you knew you should have never said anything stupid mouth! You didn't want him to break up with you it was all your fault you had disappointed him just because of your selfish desires shit-

"I'm sorry! I shouldn't have said that shit- forget about what I just said it was just me being dumb please don't break up with me I still love you I'm sorry for being selfish and only thinking about myself!" you shouted

You had started Sobbing and shaking like a frail bird. Desperately clawing at your hair, pulling on the strands, you couldn't seem to breathe.

Hairo couldn't figure out what to do before he had opened his mouth to speak

"Y/n, I love you no matter how you look, your skin color, or your gender identity the most important thing is that you feel comfortable in your own skin, I know how hard it is to come out to someone cause I'm bisexual myself so congratulations!" he went on to add one more thing

"And I'm sorry for misgendering you for all this time"

He took a step forward grabbing your wrists which were still clawing at your scalp and brought them down he lifted your chin and knelt into the most passionate kiss you ever had from him

"Love you" he whispered into your ear sending butterflies to your stomach

You had looked at him with a disbelieving look before it turned into a soft smile. Maybe this would work after all.

You had wondered for a long time if anyone would accept you, if you'd had known it would've ended like this you would have done it a long time ago.

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A/n:

I just wanted to let you know that no matter what gender you are race skin color or anything you're my readers. and I will protect you 💓