𝘾𝙝𝙖𝙥𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝙛𝙞𝙛𝙩𝙮-𝙨𝙞𝙭

ᴠɪᴇɴɴᴀ
ᴛʜᴇ ɢʀᴏᴜɴᴅ

After I did it, after I saw the final breath leave his body, I felt like I'd been killed myself. Not Sapnap. I inhale, my chest rattling as I do, and continuing as I exhale.

I just did that, I just killed him..

I scratched at my hands, at the never drying blood that plagues my skin, seeming as if it were absorbing into my bones, making way to my brain to torment me for the rest of my days. I couldn't do this, I can't heal this.

I just killed him. Sure, he was dying before and would be dead anyways, but I had killed him..

The rain feels suffocating, feeling as if it were trying to crush me as it drowns out everything, I don't even hear the footsteps approaching me from behind. I don't feel the hand on my shoulder, or the weight of someone trying to stop me from rubbing my hands raw with such a force I was using. I choked on tears, and felt my lungs heaving as someone held my hands in theirs.

All I do is stare at Sapnap's lifeless body, laying on the ground with blood ridden clothes and a piece of metal sticking out of his stomach and where his heart should be. I don't hear the person say something, I don't hear anything but the repeating thought of-

I did this.

I did this.

I did this..

All I do is sob, and try to hold myself together as footsteps echo around me, and my body is being pulled away from Sapnap, though I shake my head.

"No- no." is all I say before breaking their grip on me, stumbling on the ground to get to the man I cared dearly for at one point. I feel the weight of guilt press down on to me, as does the presence of another hand, but I don't move from where Sapnap lies. I don't want to move. I don't want to have to move.

"Vienna, we have to go.." Female, soft and careful, full of secrets yet to spill. Nihachu. She moves her hands to my shoulders, trying to pry me from the ground, but I can't find the strength to stay put anymore. Mud covers both my shoes and pants, traveling up my shirt and into my hair, I can't find the energy to care.

"Vienna please." Niki whispers, I hear more people talking, its overwhelming. I go limp, and lose all feeling in every muscle, knowing the other woman was right.. I just didn't want to leave him alone, not after what I've done. Never after what I've done.

Instead of letting Niki drag me away though, I stand with the remaining pieces of my heart falling out onto the ground, mud and dirt and rain collecting on top as if it were a bowl. I saw it pumping, beating as If I were still alive, the veins still colorful and still working, as if attached to something. But I knew it wasn't, it was a lie. This all was a lie..,

Right?

It had to be. It had to be all fake. There's no way I could lose this many people in one night, this many people that I will never see again, or hear their voice again, or feel their touch again, no matter the intentions behind it.

Wilbur,

Technoblade,

Sapnap..

And anyone else who didn't make it past the battle, who didn't live to see the rain.

God, I hate the rain..

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