"Normally I'd go on until I'm satisfied." he said, leaning away, and my stomach dropped. "Are you not satisfied, sir?" I asked, trying to hide the pain in my voice.

There was silence before he spoke. "I don't have sex with virgins. I prefer those who aren't so inexperienced so that I could do more with them, things with they can handle." he explained. "More?" I repeated, as if  what we did wasn't enough... What more was there?!

"You'll see." he said, and left the bed. I heard shuffling before he spoke again. "You'll be sore for a few days, so I have rules." he told me. Rules?

"Yes sir..."

"If you sleep with another man, I'll punish you." He warned, and I felt him lean forward. "I'll make sure that ass is so red, you'll regret letting him touch you." he mumbled, against my ear.

"Yes sir." I murmured back. 

"Good girl." He replied, before kissing below my ear. He then moved away from me and I could hear his footsteps walking towards the door. I knew it shouldn't, but this was the part that upset me. How I imagined losing my virginity was to a man I loved, my husband perhaps, and would wake up to in the morning. After my father fell sick I had to throw all my fantasies away. This job reminded me of reality and how I needed to toughen up. I couldn't develop feelings.

It would be wrong, and I'd only end up heartbroken. A victim of my own love story. 

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I was leaving work now and was planning on just sleeping the rest of the evening off, but my phone rang and my plans changed. I quickly pulled out my phone, "Hello?"

"Rai, are you busy? Where are you?" Ryan asked on the other side. My eyes widened slightly. "Oh, I was just uh- I was leaving work."

"Great, I'll pick you up."

"No! I mean, it's fine. The bus stop is right ahead. I'm fine." I told him. "Fine, then I'll meet you at your house." He said and cut the call. I looked down at my phone confused. Why was he meeting me at my house? Didn't he have a shift today? I didn't want to keep him waiting, so I rushed towards the bus stop. I wanted to catch the early bus but my legs were too sore.

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"You need to stop doing that." Ryan said leaning against his car. "Doing what?" I asked, walking up to my front porch. He was parked outside my house. "Not letting me do things for you." He replied. "Why would you want to do that?" I questioned but there was no response.

"I'm taking you somewhere." I paused and turned around to face him. "Where?"

"Get in the car and you'll see." He told me and walked around the car. I shoved my keys into my pocket and walked over to his car. He opened the door for me and I got in.

"I also need to tell you someth-" His speech paused as he looked over at me. My brows furrowed as I studied his face. His jaw tightened and his eyes darkened. "Tell me what?" I asked.

"You have a boyfriend?" he says, breaking the silence.

That was what he was going to ask me?

He raised his hand to my neck and aggressively rubbed my neck with his thumb. I winced and moved away. "Who gave you that?" he questioned, in a low tone. I looked up in the small roof mirror and saw a purple bruise on the side of my neck.

Was that a bite mark?

Fuck- shit even!

"I asked you a question, Rai." I flinched slightly and shut the mirror.  "N-no one. I don't have a boyfriend, Ryan." I answered. "So you made out with someone?" he continued. "No- Why do you want to know?" I asked, pulling my blouse up to cover it. He murmured something under his breath and turned on the engine.

I bit the inside of my cheek as he began driving onto the main road. "Are you okay?" His knuckles had turned white from gripping the wheel and his body was tensed. He didn't reply so I shut up and looked out the window. Why was he so mad? 

"Have you eaten?" he asked. I shook my head. "We can have dinner together." he said and turned right. "Your house was where you wanted to take me?" I said as he pulled into his huge drive. "No, I changed my mind." was all he said before parking and opening his door. He slammed it lightly and walked over to mine. "Thanks." I mumbled as I got out.

He handed his keys to a guy in a suit. His house was so big and beautiful."Genny." he called out and this little middle-aged woman came running towards us. "Prepare dinner, I'll be back." he told her. She nodded and hurried away.

"Im going to take a quick shower. Make yourself at home." he said before walking away. I stared at his back before following Genny. "Where is the bathroom?" I asked her. She smiled at me. "Upstairs, second door on the right." I nodded and followed her instructions. The house was big and empty so it was really quiet. It made me feel weird being in this big house. I stopped when I reached the first floor.

Did Genny say left or right? I shrugged my shoulder and went left. Everything looked so expensive it made my stomach hurt. I pushed the first door to my right open and walked in on a naked Ryan. Well, half naked.

My eyes widened. He hadn't noticed me yet. His back was facing me. My eyes roamed his muscular body. A white towel hung low on his waist and his back muscles flexed whenever he moved his arms."Sorry." I finally said. He turned around only making it worse. His body had a thin layer of water on it, making his abs glisten and I could see his hair trail leading to -

I almost choked at the bulge underneath his towel. I'm such a pervert. But how did he shower so fast-

"Yes, Rai?" he asked, snapping me out of my trance. "Bathroom." was all I said. "You can use mine." he said nodding towards the door in his room. I nodded and quickly walked towards it. Locking the door behind me, I ran my hands through my hair and let out a small groan. Why was I so flustered?!

It's Ryan, for god sake!!

I did my business and washed my hands, and when I opened the door he was still there, except he was dressed. "Sorry I walked in on you." I said as I walked up to him.

"You don't look sorry."

"What?" I choked.

He shook his head. "Come, let's eat." He said.