CHAPTER 25

𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘢𝘥𝘥𝘪𝘤𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘢 𝘤𝘦𝘳𝘵𝘢𝘪𝘯 𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘰𝘧 𝘴𝘢𝘥𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘴
𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘣𝘰𝘥𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘪 𝘶𝘴𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘣𝘺 𝘨𝘰𝘵𝘺𝘦

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WARNING: so this is kind of a sad chapter with angst and more explanations on Yuji's past.

The next day came by in a flash. Hinata recently got scolded for wanting to open his eyes. Yuji actually agreed with the human tangerine. Hinata actually had lots of potential in him, and Yuji believed in his teammates.

"Kageyama, let's practice." Hinata suggested to his teammate, "I want to practice with my eyes open."

The first year duo, along Yachi, headed to the gym while Yuji walked alongside Tanaka as they made their way outside the school gate. Yuji's eyes widened as soon as he remembered something. "My shirt's in the gym's closet, I'll be back!" Yuji hurriedly ran from his friend.

The closer he got to the gym, the louder the yells got. "Woah woah woah, what's the problem?" Yuji tried separating them as the yelled their arguments. "Is this about the open eyes thing?" Yuji asked. He sighed once the two stayed quiet, which he took as a 'yes'.

"The preliminaries for the next spring tournament is next month," Kageyama grabbed onto Hinata's shirt. Yachi started panicking while Yuji's faced remained stoic, but he was alert. "What do you think is more effective? A completely useless quick, or a complete one? Huh?!"

Yuji's expression turned into a disappointed one, while Hinata's face held pure rage. "Then how am I going to be strong enough?!"

"YOU'RE SELFISHNESS WILL JUST LEAD TO THE TEAM'S DOWNFALL!" The setter yelled as he threw Hinata down to the floor. Yuji placed a hand on Yachi's shoulder as the poor girl was now panicking. "Yachi-san, call Tanaka." he told the girl, eyes still watching the two as they argued.

"Kageyama," Yuji piped in. "Please consider how Hinata's feeling. How would you feel if someone's stopping you from doing what you think is essential to you, just because they don't have faith in you?"

Kageyama's glare shifted to Yuji. "How would you know what's good for him? All your life you've been given everything you want without struggles. I know more players who are even more worthy in playing in the National team. All you do is slack and fuck around, stop acting like you know anything or even care about us, and actually look at the reality. You're fake to everyone and you're even more selfish than Hinata."

Yuji felt a pang at his chest as he heard the honest words of his friend, who's eyes just widened in regret once he realized the words that came out of his own mouth. "Ka..ge..ya..maa!" Hinata yelled as he ran to the setter and clung around his waist. Yuji was in a state of panic since Kageyama's words got through him. He placed himself inbetween the two and tried separating them.

His ribs were jabbed and he definitely felt a hit on his cheek, but he still struggled to stop the fight. "STOP! HEY!" Yuji yelled as he tried to stop them but was unfortunately hit on the stomach, causing him to gasp in pain.

Tanaka ran through the door and punched them, successfully putting the fight into a stop. Yachi helped Yuji up as he crouched down, feeling the need to throw up.

"Yuji-san? are you okay?" Yachi asked as she helped him up. "I'm not sure what the hell just happened, but please think about everything just now." Yuji smiled weakly as Tanaka helped Yachi in helping Yuji up.

"How do you know what's good for him?" Kageyama asked. "THAT'S MY OPINION!"

Yuji sighed and shook his head in disappointment. He grabbed his bag and walked out, not bothering to spare anyone a glance.

Once he arrived to his place, he shut the door to his bathroom and threw up on the toilet, finally letting everything out. Tears streamed down his cheeks as he emptied the contents of his stomach. Once he was done, he leaned against the wall beside the toilet and laughed at himself pathetically.

"He's right though, more people worthy than I am. Sakusa Kiyoomi, Miya twins, maybe even Ushijima-san. They deserved it more." he slammed his head repeatedly against his knees

"Selfish huh? isn't that right Kiko?" he smiled whilst looking at his reflection on the full body mirror infront of him. His hallucinations led him into seeing Kiko's face with a sadistic grin.

"Oh the good times," Yuji smiled.

꧁༒•flashback•༒꧂

"I apologize for everything I've done." Kiko bowed infront Yuji, who was as naive as any young boy his age. They were currently thirteen, practically newborn teenagers. Yuji being Yuji, accepted his bully's apology, thus starting a new friendship between the two. A year later, something more romantic bloomed.

Kiko was Yuji's everything. His first boyfriend, first kiss, first time, first love and many more. He has even gone through the struggle in getting along with Kiko's homophobic friends. Unbeknownst to the naive Matsumoto, he was just being used for his money. He gave Kiko everything he wanted.

"Look! A new pair of Jordans, could you get that for me?"
"Yes! What color do you want?"

or

"The brand new PS4! Unfortunately, they're too expensive.."
"Money isn't a problem, I'd give you anything."

Until one day, Yuji was short of cash and didn't own a creditcard due to his young age. "Yuji-chan, could you get me the new Iphone that just came out?"

Yuji looked at his boyfriend with a sad look. "Sorry Kiko, I'm a little dry right now."

Kiko glared at Yuji, "I said. I want it." he said again. "Uh.. I can't afford it right now, I can buy you food from Olive Garden, they-"

Kiko slammed Yuji's back on the wall. "I don't date cheapskates. Do it now, or it's a beating."

Of course, the result was a beating. But to Yuji, he saw it as affection. He loves the pain, he loves Kiko.

Unfortunately, he was exposed the one day to the entire school as a masochistic freak. He was called every insults in the book, from slut to fag to weirdo, and it was all Kiko's doings.

He watched his first love kiss a girl while he was thrown insults by others at the same time, his boyfriend not even attempting to help. He stopped kissing the girl and looked at his now ex-boyfriend with a smirk.

"Go to hell, Yuji."

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Yuji's face was dead as he munched angrily at the onigiri he was eating in the bus. "Yuji, you're gonna get a stomach ache. Why are you so hungry?" Suga asked worriedly.

"I don't eat cause I'm hungry, I eat cause I'm empty inside,"
"Oh.. Then carry on."

Karasuno's bus arrived in Tokyo. Kageyama and Hinata sat far from eachother, while Yuji was at the back with Noya and Tanaka. The team got off the bus and headed out to meet the other teams.

"Woah, you okay?" Kuroo asked as Yuji automatically threw himself at the Nekoma captain and hugged him. Yuji's face was tear-stained and his eyes were puffy, not to mention the bedhead he had, one that was worse than Kuroo's and the bandaid on his cheek from the recent fight. The Nekoma captain wrapped his arm around Yuji's waist and whispered comforts at his 'friend's' ear.

"Hey hey hey! Yuji-san, you look like you need a hug! A hug from Fukurodani's captain might cheer ya!" Bokuto scooped Yuji from his fellow friend and hugged him too.

"Bokuto-san, you're tiddies are so defined." Yuji's voice muffled through Bokuto's chest, earning a laugh from the precious owl. "Use it all you want."

'finally, real friends. people that won't turn their backs on me, I hope.'

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