It was always a pleasure, to get drunk in love

The letter~~

I needed another page to write more. Oh lord, there's so many things to tell you.

As I said that was my biggest mistake for not contacting you. Thinking you were near me and I will be able to surprise you. But that wasn't the case. Had I known I made such a grand mistake I wouldn't have waited for a month.

Y/n-ah, we are still married. You are still my wife, I'm still your legal Husband. I never, during this whole 7 years I never went to the court to submit or divorce papers. It was always kept in my study table drawer. I did tell everyone that we are divorced and I've submitted everything, I'm angry that you didn't even stayed to talk about the money and property or your shares you will take from me. I even lied to Albert why the divorce never happened in the first place. But the truth is I couldn't possibly take the paper...I planned on burning it...I did sign it to make you believe how desperate I was to get rid of everything...everything fucking thing that's going wrong between us. I wanted to end this all.

I swear after taking the papers from you I cried so much for hurting you. I punched the car, I punched myself so many times. It hurts to see you cry and beg when you don't deserve any of those. No one deserves love, happiness and care more than you in this world. You deserve so much goods in your life. I am so glad that my family forced me to marry a person who can be defined as an angel.

Those past 7 years has been a living hell for me. I looked for you so much. I told Albert to find you at any cost so that I could at least ask for forgiveness from you. Indeed it was my very first intention but I wanted you back anyhow. I needed you, I need you, even right now I need you by mu side. I wish I could hug you and cry my heart out in your embrace but sadly I even don't deserve that, right?

But...I do deserve a little bit of happiness with the things I've been through?

Please don't take TaeHee and TaeSoo from me. I swear, I promise I will never in this life nor the after life will try snatching them from you. I'm well aware about how our babies have saved you and how they give you the strength to stand strong. But please they also become my strength and light. I beg you, please no matter what don't separate them from me, please Don't ever erase their fathers existence from they're life. I will do anything you'd tell me to do. I promise....please, please I beg you.

This is the only thing I wish from you. And the second thing is your happiness. No matter what, never let your past affect you anymore. They are gone for real now. Smile wide and show everyone what you can do. Idk what you talked with heejin and my family...idk what is your thoughts about me after all that. But I can roughly guess that you've started to hate me even more for acting like an jerk. But....it really hurts yk, hurts to see that you didn't even hear my part nor even gave me a chance. It's karma...what I did with you came back to me.

You have come so long...you did great and I'm proud of you. As you've finally freed yourself from the cage of mine I will just help you a little to break free from those chains which has been holding you for so long. I've filed for another divorce agreement. Albert will come tomorrow morning before you leave all you have to do is give your sign and than I'll take care of everything later. We might have to meet again for the shares however I'll tell Albert to contact you if you don't want anything from me or anything related to me...that's okay there's nothing for me to force you. And ofc we are not filling for the kids custody, they are going to live with you. I will watch them from afar.

I'm sorry for everything I've made you go through. I wish I could turn back time to that night and smack myself with something heavy. I wish I could give you at least one thing which could be called beautiful. All I did is always force you. I'm sorry for staying silent while we both were so in love with each other. I'm sorry for not playing a good husband role. I'm sorry for not being by your side when you needed me the most. I'm sorry for not being by our babies side when the most beautiful moment they needed their father. I'm sorry for everything I've done. I'm so sorry for breaking your heart and making you very. Honestly, someone like me doesn't deserves such a kind human like you. I hope you will someday be able to forgive this sinner for what he had done. I sincerely ask for your forgiveness.

I've sent few gifts for you and our babies. Each present has a lot of meaningful things. But ik you won't take any and I didn't wanted to you to know about those meaningful things...they are related to me. As you're set free, I told Albert and Mrs. Ann to make you decide on those things and later give you this letter.

In the envelope you saw our wedding photographs...you might need them if our babies wish to see one as you didn't take anything from me back 7 years ago. I've sent you your diary but I kept those letters. I'm never giving you those...never. They were meant for me so I'll keep them.

Lastly, I love you. I loved you. And I will keep on loving you even after I died. I pray for you safety and happiness. I pray God will bless you with all the thing you deserve. Please be happy and move on. I'm rooting you from far. Thank you for everything and staying patience with me. If you ever feel like cursing on someone you can curse on me XD. I'm a good reason for you to stay remembered.

I love you. And finally, Goodbye my love.

Yours ever
Your babies father.
Kim Taehyung

Your POV:

I couldn't stop shaking. How could he do that? How can you stay silent and act like a villain all this time? Why didn't you...why didn't you never took all those opportunities to tell me everything?

But than again, I would have never heard your piece of explanations. Why did I do that? Why did I stayed Stone hearted and never demanded explanation from you?

I was sobbing so hard that it was getting hard for me to breathe. "Why? W-why taehyung why?" I wanted to scream. Suddenly I remember the gifts he sent for me. I looked for my phone but suddenly the damn device disappeared.

"W-what should I do?"

I was crying non stop. My heart was pounding so loud and my body was shaking so much. My mind went blank and all I wanted was to run to thar house and slap that man hard.

After looking for so much I gave up and sat on the floor hugging my knees and cry my heart content. "Taehyung....taehyung..." all I could do is call for his name. I want to go to him right now. I want to scold him for what he did. I want to punch him for again staying silent.

"You stayed silent again you jerk." I said in the middle of sobbing. My heart hurts so bad. I cried like this for an hour feeling hopeless. I can't call kento back to take care of the babies. I can't run away from here to go to taehyung. Why is life testing me so much? What did I do to deserve all those? It's unbearable for me. I can't stand it anymore.

Dear god, if your there and watching all those silently, I, your follower, beg you for the first time, complain you for the first time to stop and have a pity on this human. I have lost so much god please.

"Mommy?"

I heard a soft voice echoes from the door. I immediately turn around and see TaeSoo standing there with her little Teddy. I immediately take the letters and stand up. I walk towards her.

"Hey baby?" I pick her up and walk back towards my bed and seat on uts edge. "What's wrong?"

She was rubbing her eyes this whole time. "Is everything alright baby?" I ask again while patting her back gently.

"I miss daddy."

I stopped patting her back and stared at her. "I didn't see daddy since the day we came here. I want to see daddy."

She stopped rubbing her eyes and looked up at me. "Mommy...can I talk to daddy?" I couldn't say anything.

Please don't take TaeHee and TaeSoo from me. I beg you.

Suddenly words from his letters started to ring in my head. I couldn't stop myself and end up hugging TaeSoo tightly and cry out loud.

"I'm sorry...I'm so sorry baby. Mommy is so sorry for what she did to you. Mommy was so angry that Mommy didn't even see how much you needed daddy. I'm so sorry TaeSoo-ah."

TaeSoo couldn't understand anything. All she did was pat my back while I cry hugging her. I don't want them to know all those...I'm afraid they'll hate me in the future. Why am I so selfish? I'm keeping their father away from them and that father is asking desperately to never make them forget him. While giving me their custody...it hurts my chest so much.

In the end the criminal is me. In the end I'm the bad mother. In the end I couldn't understand the man I loved so much. In the end again I was being protected and loved from far and all I did is selfishly complain.

TaeSoo fall asleep on my lap while I kept crying. It was already midnight and by than I stopped crying. I took TaeSoo back to her room and tuck her. TaeHee was sleeping peacefully.

I was re reading the letter over and over again and everytime I read them, each and every words was attacking my heart like a needle.

Finally I found my phone when kento called for me. It was under the pillow and I couldn't find it. I was going crazy at that moment.

After the call I stared at the moon and couldn't sleep all night. It was frustrating. I did attempt to call taehyung for about 10 times but each times I cut the call even before he picked it up. But the 10th time he did actually picked up.

He kept saying hello and who was I, but my voice...it just simply went off. I couldn't utter a single word. I heard him laugh and a lot of noises around him. Before cutting the call I clearly remember what he said.

"Shouldn't you at least say hello when you call someone? It can be our last call and last time hearing each others voice over phone right?.....Goodbye, I love you."

My lips quivered and all those tears returned. My hands started to shake as my heart was pounding loud. Before I could say hello he cut the call. I called him again multiple times but it was unreachable.

He turned he phone off. He finally turned his back on me. He finally closed all the doors, window for me, so that...so that I could never reach him. He finally gave me the freedom I was waiting for.

This is going to be the end of our story. Just you, just me. Alone on the path, one in the brightness, another on the darkness.

This is the end of this story. Complete.

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Hiiiii!!! I didn't say anything in the previous chapter. On 18 December it was my 4th year anniversary as one of those BTS FF writer. So I wanted to update a lot that day but I couldn't. There are also another chapter I'll update in few hours. After this all the ending chapters will be updated on 30 December. Which means the journey of this book will end on taehyung's birthday. Stay tune till than.

And thanks a lot for waiting patiently for my updates...actually I've been going through a lot now and it's getting impossible for me to update...but I promise I will update on taehyung's birthday. Keep the tissue box's ready because the upcoming chapters are gonna be hella....idk a lot of exclamtory XD

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Thank you.

To Be Continued