Close your eyes, it's all the darkness

Open your eyes, it's still the darkness

Your POV:

'Wouldn't it be nice if it rain today too. I want all my sadness to wash away.'

I was sitting somewhere unknown, I don't know but everything around me was water, winds, blue and clear cloudy sky. I was all alone and for some reason I wanted it to be rain. Rain, forever.

Suddenly one cloud slides away and the bright sunlight shots on my face prevents me to look ahead and forced me to shut my eyes and put my hands close to my eyes. But it won't help, it is so bright that I tried to move my eyes the other way but it won't help.

So I slowly tried to look at the sun but it won't help but I still tried and when I was finally able to open my eyes, my vision was blurry but slowly it started to get clearer.

Once it was clear and I was able to fully open my eyes I stare ahead blankly. In front of me now I see, a window opened, purple and white mixed curtains and the sun light shooting on my face forcing me to wake up.

I rub my eyes and look around me remembering why I'm in a strange yet familiar place. The whole room has changed but not fully. The rooms color is light purple and white, curtains are changed, the room is lighten up with white lights, everywhere my eyes landed I see pink peony and the room smells good. It's as if this room has got everything I like and wanted.

I move my body and Stretched, I look at my side and found the bed empty. I just stared at that empty place for few moments. I rub my face a decided to get up. I need to get out of this place right now. I need to gather myself up.

I get up and started to look for my belongings but it was nowhere around. I adjust the blanket and scanned the room but the fact that nothing looks messed up and everything is Clean just got me.

Suddenly the door of the room opened and the familiar figure once again appeared in front of me. I don't think I was having much of an expression on my face.

He was wearing a light gray sweatshirt and dusty olive checkered pants. His hair looked messy and he was holding a white printed bag on his hands.

I see his Adam apple from this far. He looks handsome as always.

I didn't move an inch nor did I utter a word. I silently watch him. He was busy checking what's inside the bag instead of looking up at me.

"I guess it'll be okay-" He finally looked up and immediately came to an halt. He was looking at me while blinking his eyes. "Oh..." that's what came out from his mouth after seeing Mr awaken.

Suddenly he looked nervous, because he was looking around while licking his lips again and again. "I...I'm sorry if I woke you up." He said.

Slowly he approached me with a gentle smile. I was staring at him watching his each moves. He put the bag on the edge of the bed and said, "I told Mrs. Ann to take care of your gown she'll give it back I'm 2 hours I guess. Till then wear this...I just bought it from the nearby shop in a hurry but it'll fit you, I'm sure."

I look down at the bag and then back at him. "Mrs. Ann is happy to hear that you came back. She prepared a lot for you for breakfast. Come downstairs once you are finished." Saying that he waits for me to respond but he didn't get any.

"Then I'll wait for you downstairs." He smiles at me and was about to walk out of the room.

"Taehyung...."

I called for him while lowering my voice. I don't think anyone can hear me but as the room itself was silent so its easy for him to hear me.

He turns around and again with that smile he said, "you need something. I've already warmed up the water. Everything is ready-"

I cut his words. "Stay here. We need to talk." He gulped on his saliva. I stare at him blankly for a while and grab the bag as I get up from the bed and let the blanket slide down from my body on the floor.

I walk inside the bathroom and wash my face and put on the clothe taehyung bought for me. Its long length, and full sleeve off white dress which went above my knees.

I look at my reflection blankly and think about last night. Everything was fine but still, a lot of things got messed up. I need to fix everything full and final. It's frustrating.

I keep my hair open and look at myself for the last time. Then I get to walk out of the washroom and saw him standing in front of the window while his hands are resting inside his pockets.

Upon hearing the door closed he turned around and smiled immediately. "I knew it'll fit you. I hope you are comfortable wearing this."

I walk towards him and stop in front of him. "I've something for you." He sides and took out something from his pocket.

It's a cream-colored ribbon. "Let me put this on for you." And he approached close to me as he hugs me but only to put the ribbon on my hair. He takes some of my hair and ties them with the ribbon.

He was so close to me, his cologne smells good. I can feel his warmth. "It's done." Saying that he didn't move.

We remained like that and when he moved his head, he tilted his head and didn't keep a gap in between our lips. He pecked on my lips and smiles. I look up into his eyes and we stare at each other for a while.

"I love you...."

He whispered while staying this close. I didn't say a word nor did I move an inch. He was smiling. He seemed happy. More than any other time, any other day. He looked happy.

"Taehyung..."

"Yes..."

But I crashed his happiness, this time I crashed it in a blink.

"Let's not see each other ever again."

His eyes widen, he started to move his head up and go backwards but I held him. I grab him by his head and pull him closer.

I force him to look me into my eyes. I force him to stay this close to me. I force him not to go backward because I don't want to repeat the same mistake. I want him to hear me I want him to face it.

"Never ever look for me. Do not come back to my life anymore. Leave me alone. I gave you everything you need and want. There's nothing for me to give you any more. Without you I've been good, with you I'll be ruined. I want to be selfish this time only for myself."

He started to tear up. He grabbed my hands and it was shaking. He was trembling and he was trying to deny it but couldn't.

"Say taehyung, what will you do if in the future one of your daughters came running to you and said, 'daddy my boyfriend told me I look like a gold digger.' What will you do...when one of them said, 'daddy my boyfriend left for his ex-girlfriend but I loved him so much.' What will you do if one if them said, 'daddy my husband asked for divorce so that he could go back to his ex or maybe he thought its a waste to spend the rest of our life even without trying.' What will you do if they said on their wedding night their husband left them and never came back unless it was a family function."

He started to shake his head and cry harder. "Stop....please stop it. I don't want to hear anymore...please...." he tightened my grip on him and attached our forehead together. I close my eyes and asked the final question which will shutter him.

"Say taehyung, as a father what will you do if one of them said, 'daddy my husband forced him on me even after our divorce which I was unwilling. Daddy, he ra*ed me....daddy what should I do?' How will you feel Taehyung?"

He grabbed my hands tightly and shouted. "PLEASE STOP I DON'T WANT TO HEAR ANYMORE...I'M BEGGING YOU PLEASE." He started to sob. "Please...."

I was on the verge of crying too because it was so hard for me to tell him all those. How can I...a mother tell her child's father something like this which includes her own daughters? I'm such a pathetic person...I'm such a shameless mother. But I've got no other choice...if I need him to let me go I've to show him the cruel reality.

"Say it....taehyung tell me...you are their father what will you do to those man's who'll do the same thing with your own daughter? Tell me."

He flinched and opened his eyes. "Tell me..." he looks me into my eyes and said, "I'll Bury them alive, the worse I can do I murder them with my own two hands. No one in this world can touch or harm my daughters....no one was born to do such a daring thing. No one."

I smiled and inhaled heavily. I placed a gentle kiss on his forehead and again close my eyes.

"My father would have done the same too if he was alive. But he isn't anymore. So on his behalf, I want you to let me go...I want to live the rest of my life in peace. I've had enough taehyung, now I just want to rest and live a happy life with my daughters and my family. Let's just go on our own separate ways and live with the forgettable memories. We are humans too and we need to breathe fresh air."

He didn't say anything instead he stared down on our feet and let his tears fall. I let go of his head and wrapped my arms around his shoulders as I pull him close to me.

"I don't have any feelings left for you anymore. There's no hate no love. Right now I only know that you are the father of my child and you have got the only rights on them and not on me anymore. Its you in the first place who wanted to go this separate ways....and now its my turn to make it clear for both of us."

He buried his face on the crook of my neck and hugs me tightly. He started to sob silently. I couldn't hold my tears as well so I let it slide. This is the last time I'll be crying for him so there's no reason for me to hold them, not anymore.

"I love you too....but I don't have those feelings anymore. I can't feel it anymore...the love from 7 years ago. I can't and it's so frustrating taehyung... it's suffocating for me. And I want to let it go so that I can breathe. The same goes for you. So please let us free from this suffocating feeling and live a peaceful life. Let's live taehyung. I know you understand it way better than I do. So please."

I pat his back and wait for him to respond. But he didn't. We remained like that for a while and a few moments later I was about to pull away but he pulled me close.

"Can I ask you something?" I hesitate at first but then nod.

"Were you really happy there without me?" I didn't respond immediately. But he waited until I was ready to respond. "Yes, I was."

I heard him chuckling. "Ah...I see." He pulls me closer and tightened his grip on me. "Stay like this for few more minutes. After this even if I wanted to I can't hug you like this...so please!!!!"

I glance at his back and nod. And we stayed like this for as long as he wanted silently. Without saying anything and moving an inch.

"Am I allowed to see my daughters? I won't take them away from I promise...I'll just sometimes come by or talk to them on phone that's it..."

I nod. He smiles.

"Am I allowed to give them presents?"

I nod. He smiles again.

"Can take responsibility for their expenses? At least half is enough."

I smiled and nod again. He buried his face on the crook of my neck again. And we went silent again.

Suddenly he started to sob again. "Am...a-am I not forgiven?"

I didn't say anything. I couldn't. Because I don't know what to say. When it comes to this I'm lost for words. I don't know what I'm supposed to say to him. Because I want to forgive him but a part of me doesn't want that to happen.

"I don't know...maybe because I'm dead inside that I stopped having a right mind now...I Don't know anything anymore taehyung...I'm sorry..."

He laughs. "No...please don't say sorry to someone like me." He pulls apart from me and wrapped his hands around my head.

He leans on and gently placed a kiss on my forehead. "Please be happy. Be happy more than in the past and more than you could ever imagine. Our daughters are precious to both of us and I know they are the key of your happiness and I surely wouldn't want it to be snatched away from you. So please no matter what be happy...I'll be praying for you while staying this far. And I promise I'll be the happiest knowing that you are happy too."

I let the remaining tears fell as I nod. I look up at him and grab his collar ad I pull him and connected our lips. He was in the middle of saying something but right now I think its the best if we don't hear anything anymore.

It'll be painful.

We move our lips slowly, passionately, and gently. We can taste our tears through this kiss because our tears weren't naming to stop and maybe this is the last time we are shedding them for our past and horrible nightmares and painful days. Maybe it's the last so we let it slide away.

After few moments we pulled apart. We started to breathe heavily. Before taehyung could say anything I said my last word.

"Do me a last favor...talk to Heejin and get away from this burden you have on your shoulders. Talk to her and move on. I'm sure this will help you a lot. And I hope the best for you."

I grab his hands and pull them close to my lips. I use to love those hands so much. I used to pray and hope someday those hands will hold on to me and will never let go. But it's time, and it should.

I place a gentle kiss on both of his hands and silently in a whisper, but it was loud enough for him to hear.

I said, "Goodbye taehyung. Goodbye." My voice cracked and before I break down I turn around and forcefully let go of his hands and walk towards the gate.

I heard him say in a whisper which was loud enough for me to hear. His last words.

"Goodbye Yua. Be happy my love."

Before I close the door I glance back at him. He was crying like a mess, he was trembling but still, he was looking at me leaving with a smile on his beautiful face.

He was watching Mr walk away from his life. For, forever and never to look back.

The door is finally closed and I was standing out of his house already. I wrapped my arms around my chest and grip on it as I burst out crying and started to walk ahead looking like a mess.

It's so painful, more than 7 years ago. I've finally let him go. It wasn't that hard 7 years ago but Why's it now? It hurts, my heart hurts so bad. I look back at his mansion hoping to see him standing outside but he wasn't there. He understood what I meant and that's why he's not stopping me. He wants to see me happy and live a good life. He wants this Goodbye, which is good for both of us...he wants what I want.

So than. "Goodbye, my love." I said smiling and turn around, left the place. Left behind all the painful past and healing all the injuries to walk ahead and live a peaceful life.

Goodbye.....

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Hey hey hey hey!!!! Ochitsuk...calm down angry and sad and sensitive birds....calm down. The story had yet to finish lol. Ig there's still 10 more eps left idk. So I want you to calm down.

Okay...I guess I'm so in the rush to update a chapter that sometimes I don't clearly explain kinds of stuff.

1. Taehyung and Kento's pov are going to be in the next chapters.

2. Yua isn't going overboard about her feelings and traumas...it's a normal case for a human being if they went through worse than ofc not every human in this world are born strong so calm tf down.

3. Taehyung is right and also not right on his mind too. You'll later know more about his side of pov in the next chapters.

4. The beautiful feeling part...."Every person has high expectations for their first time...so ofc if both persons agree its a beautiful feeling but unfortunately for Yua, it turned our be her nightmare" and that's what I meant is a beautiful feeling turned out to be a disgust for her. The other way around. Hope you get it. So calm down and patiently wait.

Got more questions to ask me freely. Hope you have enjoyed so far. Make sure to VOTEEEEEEEE and comment. Read my Other ffs too. Thank you.

To Be Continued