Chapter - 39

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In your hesitation, I found my answers



Your POV:

"I don't like to see you around another man. I want you to be in my arms only. You only belong to me y/n-ah." He said as he cups my face.

My whole body went numb. I feel weird, I feel like I'm about to throw up but then again I feel like I'm in so much joy. But the disgust is much bigger than the joy in my heart. I want to believe them all but I can't. My heart refuses to believe them.

I grab his hands and put a lot of pressure on them as I force him to let go of my face. I don't want him to see me crying. I don't want him to hurt me anymore, I'm so done with his nonsense. I'm really tired and exhausted.

"Y/n-ah?"

"Let go of me."

"I won't."

"Your words....as always they are like piercing to my ears."

"I'm not like before, babe."

"Then what are you?" I looked up at him as tears started to build from the corner of my eyes. "What are you now? What were you before taehyung? Do you know? Do you remember anything?" My voice cracked.

He puts a bit of pressure as he pulls my face close to his. He nods "I know...I know what I did before, what I was before. But I'm not like before anymore. I promise." His voice cracked too.

I look into his eyes for few seconds. "Then prove it. Prove that you have changed. Prove me wrong taehyung."

He keeps staring at me and didn't say a word. He seems like he was hesitating but he has his answer ready. I sneered. "You can't. Your silence said it all."

I forcefully yank his hands off my face. I smile bitterly, "you can't prove yourself. You are still like before a bloody jerk. And I hate you."

His eyes widen, his body flinched. He keeps staring at me as if he's lost somewhere unknown. He has this expression where no one can read what his thinking or what he is feeling, but I know, I know he is feeling broken. And I'm glad that he is feeling those feelings which once I felt too.

I take few steps backward and keeps a little distance from him. "You disappointed me as always. I've honestly never expected anything from you in the first place."

He parts his lips to say something but doesn't say anything. I can see those tears building up from the corner of his eyes. Lucky me that I'm still holding onto my tears.

"You can't prove yourself taehyung. You can't." I said as I stare at him with disappointment. We stay like this for a brief moment and stare at each other, lost in each other's eyes.

Suddenly taehyung moves forward and wrapped his hands around the back of my neck as he suddenly pulls me to him. Without my realization, I felt something warm and soft crash on my lips. To my surprise, it was his lips that are moving against mine gently.

He lightly swept his tongue between my lips, pressing his warm, soft lips to mine more. He slowly brings his hands to my face and cradled my face. Then, he passionately kissed me, tickling my tongue with his.

I don't know what happened, I'm feeling dizzy. I don't know what's happening but his kiss is making me feel fluttering inside me. This feeling, I've never felt before. I want to push him but my hands won't move, my body is just reacting to how he is making me feel. The cold breeze is touching our skin, even though I like night weather but I hate to admit that I'm loving it tonight.

Suddenly I felt something wet landed on my cheeks. I look up at his eyes to see his tears falling. I felt a weird pain in my heart. Slowly he stopped kissing Me. He pulled back a little and opened his eyes as looks at me. Our eyes locked as we stare at each other blankly.

"Does...does it proves myself?" He uttered suddenly. He looks like those babies who have been trying so hard to admit their guilt.

I want to tell him how I felt. That I want to experience this feeling again. I want to pull him back and kiss him passionately. But I can't. I'm scared. What if those are lies? What if he's just playing with Me again? What if he intended to break me into more pieces again? I'm scared, I'm so scared.

"Y/n-ah? Say something."

I grab his hands and yank them away. I step away from him as I look down. I can't let those weird feelings get me. I can't. He'll hurt me again. It's all a lie. My heart hurts.

People have been treating me like this since the time I was born. He is one of them. I've believed many people, I've given everyone my heart, they crashed a hammer onto it so many times that it can't be fixed anymore. Why do all of them have to be so cruel to me? What did I do to deserve those? I just wanted to be loved, then why not?

"Y/n-ah are you okay?"

I feel like I'm going to faint in no time. I feel like something is stopping me from breathing. I want to get away from here, I'm scared, somebody? Somebody help me!!! I'm scared, I don't want to stay here. Please!!!!

"YUA-CHANNNN?"

I heard a loud voice calling for me from afar. I look around and saw Ryuu coming towards me, he was running. He looks worried, he kept calling my name. But why is my vision getting blur? I can't see his face clearly anymore. What's happening to me?

"OI YUA? OI OI OI OI OIII?"

I heard Ryuu yelling and he was getting closer but I can't hold myself, my body seems so heavy all of a sudden.

"Ryuu!!" And the last thing I remember is I reached my hands to him and he holds them. And then everything went black.


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I suddenly felt a hard cold wind just touched my face. It was stopping me to have a peaceful sleep. So I opened my eyes slowly to see where in the world this cold breeze is coming from.

"Where am I?" I look around me confused, Why am I here? I am standing in an unknown place.

It seems like I'm in someone's garden. Or maybe it's not a garden but a forest. I can't seem to get where I am!! I look up in the sky but the sunlight prevents me from looking so I put my hands above my eyes and try to look slowly.

I slowly move my hands and look at the clear sky. But those trees were also at blame for covering half of them.

I stare at the sky for a brief moment, I thought, 'it's been such a long time since I saw such a clear sky.' I smiled. Then I look around me. Everywhere my eyes landed I only saw trees, flowers, grass, water and birds, butterflies.

"Where in the world am I? Where did Ryuu go? I was with taehyung a moment ago....how did I end up in here?"

I won't say I barely see a single human being. There I see no living being other than birds. I started to feel scared...Why's there's no one? Why am I alone in such a place? Where is everyone? I started to walk slowly and keep looking around. This whole place is another level beautiful.

Such a beautiful actually exist and it's really hard for me to believe it. I kept walking and keep admiring the beautiful nature. Nature can be this beautiful for real, I feel so at ease.

While admiring I kept hoping to see someone around. It's scary when you can't find a single person in here. If this place wasn't this breathe takingly beautiful I would have screamed and run like an abnormal titan by now.

Suddenly I came to a halt. "Am I in the world of titans?" My whole body shivered. I shake my head immediately, "haha no way in the world I'll be in a titans world...I would have met a titan by now...haha never...they don't actually exist idiot."

Slapping my both cheeks hard I take a deep breath and was about to walk but suddenly I heard a loud noise. As if someone was screaming, or something was screaming? I flinched hard and panicked. I started to look around but saw no one.

"N-n-no t-t-here's n-no way ahahaha.....titans don't--" My words got cut off by the same loud roar. "KYAAAAAAAAA TITANS CAME ALIVE AAAAAAA AAAAAA DADDYYYYYYY."

I run towards a huge tree and try to hide behind it. I was shaking in fear. That thing roared again...but it seems like it's near yet far. I tried to calm down and listen to the roar again.

Then I realized that it's not a roar. It was a cow. "The hell....a cow? Which cow roars? And which cow screams this loud as if a titan is screaming....tf is wrong with me?" I slap my forehead and ruffle my hair in a mess.

"If there's a cow that means someone is living here. I should go and check."

Saying that I started to walk fast towards the same direction where I was hearing the cow screaming. To my surprise, I saw a beautiful wooden house. The house looked so beautiful and clean, and there was really a cow and it was screaming. It seems like I'm in the backyard of this house. So I immediately run towards the opposite side smiling.

I heard people talking I got so happy to see that someone actually lives here. When I came to the front of the house I said happily, "Excuse me anyone--" but my words got cut when I saw the people in there.

My body went numb, my hands and feet felt cold as cold sweat was all over my forehead. I couldn't believe my own eyes, what's happening?

"Father? Mother?"

My heartfelt heavy. What is are they doing in such a place? Where am I? Why am I seeing them here? Weren't they dead? How come they are here where I am? How can I see them? What's happening in here?

Father? Mother? Why are you here?

So many questions were roaming around inside my head. I panicked, I feel dizzy. I look around but I see no one other than my parents and me.
What is this place? Why is no one answering me?

 

What in the world is wrong with me???

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Hiiii weekly update. Hope you enjoyed this chapter. Ramadan is about to end soon guys. Keep praying for everyone's safety and success. And I saw that a lot of you are against taehyungXyua but some ain't. Chill chill babes why not see what happens to them till the end. I still have a lot of twists to serve on your plate fufufufu.

Did you guys watch Vincenzo? Geez, I loved the ending soooooo much. The director and author real said, "You wanna know what a Mafia do...I'll show you." Like seriously I'm just in love with that series.

Sorry for the late update those gifs were taking a long time to save and it took me this long. Now now don't forget to VOTEEEEEEEE and comment on nice things...I don't like people who leave negative comments when I clearly said DON'T LIKE THE STORY THEN YOU CAN LEAVE...I'D BE WAY MORE GLAD THAN YOU. thanks.



To Be Continued


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