~eyes are never quite~

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I was staring at her blankly for a brief moment. I couldn't believe my own ears and eyes. The woman whom I never met but was the only reason for all my ruined marriage is right in front of me. I'm hearing her side of the story and how everything turned upside down back 9 years ago.

"So this is the only reason why he doesn't want to collaborate with us." She sighs and sips on her drink. She looks at me lazily but when she sees my face her eyes widen. "Omo!! I'm so sorry for making you listen to all this. I'm really sorry. I hope I didn't-"

I interrupted her. "No, you didn't. You didn't waste any more time of mine."

She was staring at me shocked and she looks like she's scared. Maybe because of my empty gaze on her. But I can't feel anything. Everything is so heavy for me now...

I smile. "It's okay. May I ask you few questions? As you just opened up to me about this matter." I said politely. She flinched a little and Idk why. Maybe because of my sudden cold voice. But she eventually nods.

The waiter came to clean up the table. "Umm...I would like to order bubble tea the regular one." The waiter nods. I look at Mrs. Im, "would you like something else?"

"Yes...umm I'll take one mango juice. Thank you." She said smiling. She looks calm but frightened at the same time. I haven't said anything yet.

"Mrs. Im you said that tae- I'm sorry the president found out about you and came directly to your in-law's house...where you were living. Do you perhaps remember what he said how he found out about you or anything?"

I sound like a detective or an investigator but I've got no choice I have to get to the whole goddamn story. I have got all the rights to know, my life was ruined completely back then because of those two stupid lovers.

She bites her bottom lips and tries to think. Her eyebrows twitched, "He said if I needed money and was so desperate to have babies I could have told him. And he also said that he invested all his money on that mansion because I liked that place and the environment and now he has to wait a year to earn back that money so that we can get married and live happily."

I nod and in response, I said hmm. "Where did you learned about everything? Tell me everything you remember." She looks at me confused. I laugh nervously and said, "I might get some idea to help you up with getting this project."

She smiles and nods. "Actually before everything happened. The night my brother and father told me about all this I heard that Taehyung's father actually challenged him to earn his own money. Because he wanted to see how worthy his son is to take the president position. So taehyung didn't have much money. He only had money to fill his stomach. I once said I wanted a mansion that's very refreshing and can be called home. Taehyung worked day night to prove his worth and buy that expensive mansion with all those workers for me. I was so pleased, he loved me like a madman and what did I do to him?" She sniffs.

I scoff annoyingly without my own realization. But thank goodness she didn't hear. It could have been bad. I pass her a tissue and she accepts it.

After few seconds she continues, "That mansion took all his money but he did get the position. But still, he lived like he doesn't have a penny in his hand. This gave my family a chance and they took advantage of it. My husband, on the other hand, was already rich enough, he started his own company 2 years ago before we got married and even though it's not as well known as this company however it's still well known in Korea." I nod in agreement. Im fashion industry is well known for its good service and quality.

"Actually the main reason is my father hated Taehyung's father. They used to be classmates and enemies. They never had a good relationship. Taehyung's father was brilliant and always reached his goal and is now standing here so far. On the other hand, my father couldn't surpass him so he was jealous. So there was no way my father would give me permission to be with taehyung so he tricked all of us. My brother wanted us to end this relationship no matter what, so he lied to taehyung about me leaving him because he couldn't earn his own money and just wasted it on a mere mansion which isn't worth my time.

"He didn't believe me at first but when he saw me there with a big bump he laughed and without letting me say anything he harshly said, "if you loved money so much...if you loved being banged so much Heejin you could have told me. I would have worked my ass off to give you all and even banged you every night. But you know what, screw you...stay happy." I still remember that pained look he gave me before leaving."

She sips on her drink and looks down on her lap as she plays with her fingers. By the time she was explaining everything our drinks came and I have already started to drink my tea because I gotta calm the hell down.

"Well I don't understand how in the world he would have given you money when he was still earning and just wasted all his money on that bloody mansion...that's a crazy way to curse someone. And about another thing, I don't think he, himself would have survived. That's way too tiring." I laugh and lean on my chair as I sip on my tea.

Heejin stares at me as she blinks twice and chuckled. "Well, I guess you got some logic." She inhaled heavily. "I tried many times to contact him but she pushed me every time. Even after I heard he got married I didn't give up. And finally one day I get to meet him in a fancy restaurant. I was lucky to bump into him. I tried to tell him everything but he didn't listen. He just wanted me to answer his one question which is why I made that promise. I told him I was going to come back to him but before that happened he knew everything and everything just messed up. And then he never looked behind nor did he listen to my side of the story. And today I'm here to tell him all the truth and make this project successful."

She doesn't seem like to give up. She might eventually succeed but I highly doubt. If taehyung turned his back at her then no matter what he won't look back. But then again she is his very first lover. And he loved her like a madman so there's a high chance he will forgive her.

I was lost in my thoughts and was busy drinking my drink. Until the woman in front of me calling me by my name. I snap back and look at her. "What do you think? About my past."

I think for few moments and sit straight as o look at her sharply. "Mrs. Im, can I be honest?" She barely nods. I take a deep breath. "If I were you I wouldn't have asked the president for that bloody mansion in the first place." She flinched. "But I liked tha-"

"So what?" I raise an eyebrow and wait for her to respond. But she doesn't.

"That's the problem of you rich people. You don't know the exact value of money and peace. I'm sorry I know that you are a kind person but you should have seen your boyfriend's part too. He was working so hard to give you that mansion and then he was earning money for your wedding. What else do you need? If I were I you I would have asked him to stay by my side, I would have told him if he wants me to live in some jungle with him I would have gone there. That's what crazy love freaks should want from each other regardless of knowing this whole situation." I said everything as I huffed heavily.

She was staring at me with her widened eyes. I clear my throat, "look I understand what you have been through. It wasn't a good thing for your family to do. But you didn't ruin one life. Mrs. Heejin you ruined everyone who was involved or was in future to be involved with him."

Now she's glaring at me. "What do you know huh? You just heard me, you were not there. And how did I ruined many?"

I slammed my both palm on the table together and leaning on I stare at her for few seconds and then I lean back on the chair. I chuckled and said, "because I'm that unfortunate lady who was married to that goddamm ex-boyfriend of yours."

I can feel my blood boiling. I don't want to understand why they broke up. I don't want to understand why they lied to each other. My life was ruined. My hopes shattered in front of my eyes. My babies can't live with their father and spent freaking 6 years without knowing who the hell is their father just because of those two bloody stupid lovers. What did my children do wrong? What was their fault? What was my fault?

"I...I'm...I don't know what to say!!" Heejin said. Her voice cracked up. I lean on the chair a bit more as I put my hands on my face trying my best to calm down.

After few minutes I look at her. "I'm sorry for talking to you like that it just.....After hearing your side story I couldn't proceed with whatever happened in the past...I wasn't involved so why am I being punished? My marriage didn't work out just because you promised him you'll come back to him. My husband was still in love with you. If you could have said the truth about your family maybe he wouldn't have been broken and maybe he would have given you some time and still stay by your side."

I tried my best not to burst out in anger nor tear up. Cause I'll look even more pathetic and I don't want this woman to know what happened in the past between me and my husband. I don't want her to know my side of struggling because she was betrayed by her own family but in the end, she did found her happiness. And I'm still longing for it.

"Anyways, I think you have suffered a lot. After being betrayed by your own family it's really hard to put our trust in someone else. But you have made it so far and you kind of make me feel proud. I think you should go home now. You are pregnant and you shouldn't stay outside without someone by our side alone." I said politely.

She was looking down on her lap from the moment she heard I'm her ex-boyfriend's ex-wife. I understand she's feeling embarrassed and guilty at the same time. I think she shouldn't because she didn't know that her boyfriend would ever get married and all. So I forgive her for making that stupid promise.

I sigh. "Look I understand what you did back then was a rush decision. You were young and were still madly in love with your boyfriend. It was hard but now it's in the past. I think you should take care of your family rather than the president. Talk him through his friends. I guess Jimin will help you out with this. He is a very kind person and after listening to your part I'm sure Jimin will help you to get you to talk with the president. Just don't come to the office so carelessly okay. Take good care of yourself and your baby."

I pat her head and smiling gently I bend over to grab my purse. "How....how could you still stay calm and talk to me? How could you still tell me to take-"

I brush my hair with my fingers as I look at her, "because I'm a human so you are. Humans can make mistakes and can make a rush decision and it's totally fine. We learn through the mistakes we made so that we can make a better future for our next generation."

I take out some money from my purse and tie my hair into a messy bun. "I'm not that of a bitch you know. And you were in love so was he...so am I....so it's fine. I should get going now. It was nice to meet you Mrs. Im Heejin. Congratulations and I hope you live the rest of your life happily because you deserve it."

Saying that I stand up and give her a bright smile as I grab my bubble tea and was about to walk away bidding her goodbye. But suddenly she grabs my hand and stops me.

"How are you doing? Are you happy? You, babies, are happy right?" She asks me. Her eyes look like she's peddling for forgiveness. I put my other hand on hers and gently smiling I nod.

"They have met their father. I'm now a successful model. So right now every one of us are happy. Thank you for asking. Goodbye. Make sure to talk with Jimin. I'm sure he'll help you."

I smiled and finally walk away from her. I don't want her to see my face. Because on my last words there was a lie I didn't want her to catch.

I'm the one who still couldn't find her happiness. Maybe I still don't deserve it.

I wipe my tears from the corner of my eyes as I walk out of the company and was about to call my manager.

He is busy arranging everything for the show which is 2 days apart. And he even went out to eat his lunch. Maybe he came back so he can take me back to the hotel as we have got nothing else to do.

I grab my phone and was about to dial my manager's number when suddenly an unknown number popped up on my screen. "Who's this?"

I tap on the green button. It was a Korean number so I talked in Korea. But I freeze as soon as I heard the person's voice. I put my hands on my mouth as my heartbeat started to rise.

"Surprise baby...I'm in Korea for you."

I couldn't stop grinning as I almost yelled his name in excitement. "OH MY GOD RYUU!!"

The only friend I made on my own and the only person I've loved so much after taehyung.

Ryuu Nakamura...

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