𝔹𝕠𝕟𝕦𝕤~ 𝔽𝕚𝕟𝕟𝕚𝕔𝕜 ℙ𝕆𝕍~

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" 𝐼 𝑐𝑎𝑛'𝑡 𝑙𝑒𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑔𝑜, 𝑠𝑜 𝑓𝑖𝑛𝑑 𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑔𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑡 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑑𝑜𝑛'𝑡 𝑓𝑖𝑛𝑑 𝑛𝑜 𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑏𝑒𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑟 "
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  Sleepless nights, my eyes have given up on hopes of sleep as I lean against the brick. I don't bother going to my sleeping area. Instead I'm here in the hospital wing.

Waiting, I know when she has nightmares, when she feels the most insecure, I won't leave her alone. Even if she doesn't remember me I won't leave her.

My eyes feel as though they might fall out, as my eyelids start to weigh and close slowly.

Just as they shut I hear a scream, vic.

My eyes shoot right open as I'm suddenly on my feet. I could feel my heart race as her blood curtailed scream echoed, the night nurse says something just as I gently shove her out of my way and into Victoria's room.

I stop for a moment as she gasps for air, her hair a mess and her eyes wild with fear, she then catches my eyes as I shake the arm of the nurse trying to pull me back out.

I quickly walk over to where Victoria laid and I wrap my arms around her in a comforting motion. To keep her safe.
"Shhh it's okay."

I could feel her slightly refuse my touch but she gave in. As she calms against my body.
"It was just a nightmare vic."

I feel her body shudder against mine as I soothe her.

Moments later she pulls from my grasp as I look down into her delicate blue eyes. I miss her loving stare.

"I know you don't remember me-"

She quickly cuts me off as she places her finger against my lips.
"Then why don't I get to know you Finnick."

Her voice so fragile I can't help but smile softly down at her. Chuckling to myself I respond, "yeah, the deep stuff right" this causes her to giggle. But it pains me, not cause of her giggle but because she doesn't get it. My reference.

"Exactly! Like what's your favorite color?" She softly speaks as I smile sadly, painfully.

"Blue. But not just any blue, a little bit of grey with it. Keeps me mesmerized." I look away from her prying eyes as I remember this conversation way back.

"Mines-" she began to speak and I interrupted her, oh how she hates that, but I look back into her eyes.

"Green. It's green." I mutter a bit as I take a second and continue.

"You hate to sleep alone. When you do the memories of your games come back, you have nightmares every night and the only way to calm you is holding you. You love the beach, it's your home. You send a gift care package to every Victor in every district a year to make sure they know they're not alone. Every Sunday you go to church, but not just to go but in to honor the gone, the past. Your best friend is Johanna, you both go on a phone call for an hour every Saturday to check up. We walk to your burned down house that was years ago back in district four occasionally. To remember your family. You love mint chocolate chip ice cream, you never have coffee without creamer. Your favorite holiday is Christmas because you love to give people hope and happiness. You think I'm a horrible singer but you still jam along to it anyway."

I couldn't help it, the tears began to form in my eyes and I try to chuckle the pain away. Her confused eyes but not only that they were with sorrow as she remembered nothing of me.

"You are Victoria Grace, the woman that I-" I quickly looked away as I pulled away from her

"I'm sorry I can't do this, I'm so sorry vic I just can't" I turn away quickly to hide my tears from her as I began to head to the door.

Her voice rings out as I touch the handle,

"Wait, stay? Stay with me"

I stop in my tracks from hearing those words. It was like I had her back. But I didn't.

I slowly turn to face her, the woman I love. I part my lips as I walk over to her, "always" I mutter as I embrace her once more.

Her hug felt so genuine and loving as she ran her fingers through my hair to soothe me just like she used to. Her body remembers me, but her mind doesn't. Maybe even her heart still remembers, I at least hope.

"I miss you vic. Please come back, don't leave me." I say as my voice cracks from the emotions that pour out.

I take in her fresh scent, her.

My mind races with thoughts of her, of us. For something I hope. That is not the end.

~

It's been a couple days now, since I saw Vic, or well spoken to her.

Since the night she saw me melt down in her arms I couldn't bare see her. I mean I looked weak. Pathetic. To someone who doesn't even know or remember me.

I watched her become healthier and stronger and even though I wasn't seeing her I would still sleep by her hospital room every night.

I wouldn't leave her alone. Not when the woman I love is hurt. She hadn't noticed, at least I think. But who knows.

"Finnick" as voice rings out just as I look over to see Katniss

I wipe my tired eyes and sigh, "hey" I simply say which causes her to shake her head.

"I know you're here every night, it doesn't slip away from anyone. Just go see her" I chuckle at her words.

"Katniss, I think you know it's not that easy, your man hates you and my woman, my soulmate, doesn't even remember me.." I bit the inside of my cheek as I look out in the distance.

Katniss walks over slowly, "at least sleep, you need to be healthy for the mission, it is only in eight days. We need to be rested." She says and I turn to look at her.

"Yet, Miss girl on fire. Why are you awake?" This seems to shaken her and I grin, "Peeta. You check on him at night too don't you"

It takes a few seconds but she nods, "he has nightmares too. I'm used to him being there when I do, but when I awaken.. he's not there anymore. I guess I took it for granted."

I chuckle at her words and sigh deeply as I lean my head back against the brick wall. "Yeah, you and me both. Guess we don't realize what we truly have.. Until it's no longer ours."

With that silence filled, she must have had some thinking to do as she turned and left for her sleep areas. She must have gotten the hint that I wouldn't leave vic.

Even if she doesn't remember me, I will remember her. That's all that matters right now.

~

"We can't have two mockingjays?" Plutarchs voice rings out as we discuss business about Victoria.

"Well, she is surely as powerful or well-" coin glances as Katniss as Katniss shrugs.

"Yes she is stronger than me, deadlier, makes more of an impact and well overall more liked" Katniss agrees in coins direction.

"I think they should both work together and take this revolution to the next level. With them together, we are sure to win" Gages voice rings out from my side and I lean back against my chair as I cross my arms.

I sit there in silence as they all decide who Victoria should be and her role.

They start to talk about god knows what, "and? As long as snows dead right?"

Just then The door open to reveal Vic. My features soften at the sight of her of course, I swear my heart skips a beat every time she walks in the room.

She'd occasionally glance over at me, but not much as she was more in tune with what coin had to say.

Her words startled me with her requests, allowing Gage and I to visit Our district. Of course Vic doesn't even remember me but.

Wait, maybe if we went. Maybe she'd remember. We did have a life there together for so long.

The idea flood through my mind as I hear mumbling and the fact we're dismissed.

I glance up to find Vics shiny hair walk out of the room just as I stand up I watch Gage race after her.

My stomach turned at the sight as I walked to the door, she giggled at whatever remark he made causing him to smile in her direction.

I stop in my tracks as I watch them disappear down the stairs.

It hurts. All of me hurts.

Watching her be with someone else. Smile like that.

~

It was Lunch time and I go over to grab a tray as Johanna sneaks up behind me, "HEY FISHSTICKS" I hear her scream right into my ear and I startle almost dropping my croissant.

"Hey! You could've made me drop my croissant!!" I say a bit loudly causing everyone around us to glance as Johanna laughs to herself.

I roll my eyes as I huff and walk away to The table with Katniss as she continues to laugh following me.

I watch Katniss giggle at the sight and I take my seat beside her.

" ya miss me tho??" She says as she takes a seat across from me and I chuckle

"Oh yes but can you please speak in English?" I ask and raise my eyebrow as I take a bite of my croissant.

Suddenly I feel a tap on my shoulder, "I-uhm hi. Finnick." I hear a woman's voice and I glance over my shoulder to see a young woman blushing.

"Uhm I wanted to give you this" she says as she hands me a piece of paper and smiles wearily. She blushes again and goes to another table not far with a group of girls who snicker and giggle at each other pointing to me.

"What the bloody hell." Johannas voice rings out snatching the paper. On it was a number.

"GROSS, she gave you her number! Who would ever find you attractive fish sticks?? You're the ugliest asshole on the-"

"Alright Johanna we get it" I hear Katniss mumble as she smiles

Johanna smiles back and looks back at me handing me the paper.

I look at the numbers on it and sigh, what If Vic never remembers right.

I hear a similar laugh, it was vic. I look over to find Vince and Gage chatting with her. She seemed so happy. Her smile.

Would I ever get over her. Maybe it's for the best, I shouldn't ruin what she has with Gage right.

I hear Katniss ask something but she follows my gaze as Victoria's eyes meet mine. We hold each other's gaze for awhile as I could feel myself tense with sadness and hope that maybe Vic could come back.

Maybe I could move on.. who am I kidding.

Look at her.

I quickly fake cough and stand up throwing the piece of paper on my tray as I turn around and throw it away with the empty containers. I put my tray away without saying another word I walk out of the double doors away from the dinning area.

I could feel tears dwelling in my eyes as I rush to the roof top. Maybe I could clear my mind.

A few minutes later after my third bottle of beer I hear the door open. I hope for Victoria but it was Johanna.

I scuff, "you here to make fun of me now."

She giggled and shrugged as she takes the bottle out of my hand and takes a swig.

"She'll never remember.. Maybe I should move on. Ignore her" I say not meaning a damn word. I wouldn't ever get over vic.

Johanna sighs and stays silent for a few, "You know, if you let her reject you now, you're going to make it your life mission to go out there and meet the most perfect, beautiful girl in the world. Just to try and get over her. You'd eventually settle for someone and end up marrying this other woman and spending the rest of your life with her. Having to spend the rest of your life slightly hoping this other woman would fill the void in your heart. But there's one difference fin." She hands the bottle back to me as she stares into my eyes.

"she won't be Vic." With those words she turns and leaves me stunned. Leaving me to think about my choices.

She was right, even if I was to find someone else, they wouldn't come near or close to Victoria, they wouldn't be her.

~

It's been a couple days, from afar I've watched her and Gage, her smile her gleaming eyes at him. It pains me truly.

I sit every night drinking my pain away, I can't help it. I mess with the silky box that's opened to find the ring I was to give to Vic. Her favorite color green as the middle emerald piece.

Every night Haymitch comes by to retrieve me and just then the click of the door closers. I roll my eyes knowing it's Haymitch, "Come to retrieve me once more Haymitch? I told you, I'm not giving you any"

A silence rings out as I hear a giggle, Victoria's. I quickly shut the box and slide it into my pocket.

I widen my eyes as I look back upon her, she had just a robe on as I've seen many times before when we'd sleep together.

I wouldn't wanna know what she's been doing before but I had a feeling. My blood boils with the thought of Gages hands on her. But she's not mine. She's his.

She takes a seat next to me, "that's my name, don't wear it out."

I look away as I take another swig, "couldn't sleep?"

"No. The nightmares." She replies and I simply chuckle in remembering.

"This takes me back." I hear her thoughts wonder In not remembering and I sigh deeply.

"I'm happy for you vic, I know you don't remember me, maybe never will. But If Gage makes you happy. Who am I to dwell on the past right." I felt my voice crack at the thought and I fake cough.

"What about you fin. What about your happiness." She says.

"My happiness died, since the moment you forgot me, Vic you seriously can't remember anything? Nothing?" My eyes begin to get glassy.

"I can't even look at you vic without remembering. Without wanting you. Vic I love you. I know you don't love me, but this can't be the end, not like that-" I stand up away from her as I take one more swig,
"I'm sorry.. I didn't mean to react on emotion. I'll stay out of your way from now on. But I'll be there if you ever need me." I quickly turn and walk away from her without another word. I just need to be alone right. She needs to get back to Gage anyway.

I rush out to the hall and around the corner to my sleeping area, I could hear silent footsteps approaching as I hear her voice my eyes tear more. "Finnick"

I stop and turn around to look into her beautiful eyes, tears stream down my face, "leave me alone." With that I walk into my chambers and just before the door shuts she catches it.

"Finnick stop running from me" I sigh with her words and turn to glare at her a bit not meaning to but she can't be here, not when I'm breaking down like this.

"What are you doing here vic??" I give a saddening expression trying to keep myself calmed.

She stops scanning me as her eyes gleam with sadness and she parts her perfect lips, "I didn't want you to be alone." With those words we stand there looking at each other. Part of me felt like I had her back as we embraced each other.

Maybe I can have my Vic back, maybe just maybe this isn't the end.

~

We were all collected to beetee, there he would show us our devices we'd use for the mission, Victoria and I would glance at each other as I'd see Gage get annoyed but I shrugged it off.

I'd make a few comments which allowed her to laugh to them and I couldn't help but find it adorable. It was like having her back a little bit and I enjoyed every second.

As I'd make conversation with beetee we'd catch each other's eyes as I watch Johanna speak to her.

I'd make her blush a few times and I couldn't help but grin in satisfaction, I guess I still had it in me.

~

"Can you please get her for me!!" I go on both knees as I look up at Johanna and she rolls her eyes.

"For what?? Tell me why?" She says and I roll my eyes.

"I'm taking her to district four, maybe it will jog her memories and then.." I take the box out and show Johanna as she practically squeals.

"God damn it Jo stop acting like a girl damn" I cover my ears and she glared at me as she snatched the ring out of my hands.

She beams at it, "SHES GOING TO LOVE IT!" I chuckle at her remark.

"That's if she remembers and if I can jog her memory. All I know is if I can.. I'm doing it right away. She's the one Johanna."

I could watch Johanna tear up a bit and I chuckle, she sticks her elbow and jabs it into my side at the fact I saw her have emotion.

"Shut up fishsticks, it's just both of my best friends! Are going to get married and I can't- I love you guys so much!"

She hugs me tightly and I smile and hug Johanna back, "we love you too jo" I say and she sighs and wipes her tears away.

"You two deserve to be endgame, we all knew you two would, now go get your girl back fish boy" she says as she pats my shoulder and heads out to get Vic.

This is it- I can't miss this opportunity I have to get her to remember. I think as I head down to the air craft station.

~

I follow Victoria around, we head to her old home. We'd visit often as she'd have nightmares and I'd comfort her.

I watch as she looks upon the ruble. She motions for us to go and we do.

Heading to the victors village I sigh as she doesn't remember. Nothing.

"I'll be back" she says as she heads up the stairs.

I keep my distance as I don't want to pressure her. I couldn't imagine how rough it would be.

Mags was picked up a few hours ago and was now at thirteen. I knew she was rooting for us.

I smile at the kitchen utensils as I take my time examining it and going around trying to hold back on all the memories we had for the past eight years. Almost nine.

It's been a few minutes and I call up the stairs at Victoria, "Victoria?" I call up and hear motion.

She's alright, I think as I turn back to the cook book, I study the recipe for Victoria's favorite dish, banana and Nutella Crapes. I chuckle to myself and hope to make some for her when back at thirteen.

I barley notice Victoria coming down the stairs until her fragile voice fills the air.

"Promise me, Promise me this is forever."
Her voice cracks as I widen my eyes, I felt my hand slip from the page. No way. I slowly turn my head to look at her, the note I left before we left for the reaping was there. I had forgotten about it. Her eyes filled with tears, sadness, happiness, hope, love. She remembers.

I part my own lips, "always." My eyes become glassy as well

"I r-remember fin." Those words struck me. I could feel my pulse race as I was in shock. She rushed over to me as I began to walk to her she crashed into my arms as I picked her up tightly and twirled her. I shake against her grasp as she holds onto me tighter. Tears run down both our cheeks.

"I thought you'd never remember. I thought you were gone Vic.." I say as she shook her head and wiped my tears away, "

"shhhh no baby, I'm here. It's me. I remember. I remember everything." She smiles softly at me and I couldn't believe it. It was her.

"Im never letting you go again vic, I can't- I can't be without you again. I'm so sorry." My voice was weak as I gripped her harder

She soothed me by brushing strands of my hair away,
"shhh it's okay, I forgive you, I love you"

I smile at her as our lips crash into each other like magnets. The feeling of pure love, my heart was pounding out of my chest as I was filled with so much joy, warmth filled my stomach as The kiss was passionate and loving.

Once we broke away we both laugh a bit and press our foreheads against each other's. I take in her presence that I never realized how much I truly needed.

"I love you most" I speak out to her as we catch our breathe. She and I smile at each other probably stupidly but I didn't care. I had her back. My Vic. My soulmate.

~

I could hear the sea gulls call from a distance and the sunset was perfect, mix of orange, purple, pinks.

I hold tightly to Vics hand, maybe a bit too tightly but I couldn't let her slip away now.

I got nervous each step as I knew I was to propose.
"Vic." I say to catch her attention as she

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