ava's pov.

the next few days were the same, just as good. we would watch movies, sing all the songs from high school musical. who knew she was such a kid at heart? i applied to the dunkin, and i had a interview on the phone. i got the job right there. billie was still really skeptical about it, but i just kept trying to reassure her it was okay.

i started at dunkin today as my first day, and i was nervous. there's people i don't know there, and billie wouldn't be there. i didn't want to tell her i was nervous, because she'd just shut down the whole thing.

it was 11am and i was getting ready to head over there. since it was a training shift, it was only 11-4. i put on a white shirt, jeans, and my black crocs. i just put my hair in bun. they told me they were gonna give me a shirt and a hat when i got there so i just threw it on.

i look at myself in the mirror and sigh, i was so bloated.

i smelt the waffles downstairs that billie was making me before work and i was excited. i was starving.

i was collecting my phone and stuff ready when i see a snap from adry. it was a pick of her and marina.

i sighed. i missed them so much. it felt like ive been here forever, but it was only three weeks so far. i just wish they could be here with me.

i snap out my thoughts, and i head downstairs to all my food at the table.

billies sitting on the chair on her phone. i lean next to her and kiss her cheek, sitting down to eat. "goodmorning my love." i say, beginning to shove all the food down my throat.

"good morning beautiful. look at you, the little dunkin worker." she says, squeezing my boob.

i push her hand playfully. my boobs were so sore from my period coming. "ow! they're sensitive." i say.

she rolls her eyes, and looks back at me. "i'm dropping you off, i don't care how close it is. i don't know if anyone is watching so i'm taking you. and don't trust anyone there ava. you never know what the fuck they're-" she says, but i interrupt her.

"i don't know what they're intentions are, i know. but billie i will be fine." i say, reassuringly.

she sighs. "i just don't fucking trust a soul with you. you're just too trusting." she mumbles.

i roll my eyes, and look down at my phone at the time. it was 10:53. "let's go since you have to drive me." i say, standing up.

she gets up, and gets her keys. we go outside, and head to car.

i look over to her. "i'm a little nervous." i say, as she pulls off.

she laughs and shakes her head. "i know. i know you ava, in bed last night you were talking about what to say when you walked in." she says, putting her hand on my thigh. "you will be okay baby."

i was surprised how good she was being about it, she was usually more worried about me doing things then i was, but i think she could tell how nervous i was, so she refrained herself.

before i know it, she pulled up to the front of the dunkin. i take a deep breath, and she grabs my hand.

"relax baby. i'm right there if you need me. but remember what i said, don't tell anyone anything. except for the fact that you're my girl." she says with a wink.

my heart flutters when she says i'm her girl. we decided before to be no labels on nothing, but it felt so good to her. i give her quick kiss, and head inside.

the minute i get inside, a wave of nausea goes over me. it smelt like grease and coffee. i was so full.

i walk to the front, and i look behind me, to see billie driving off.

"hey! are you ava?" a girl says, making me regain my focus.

"yeah, that's me." i say, with a small smile.

"i'm kennedy, nice to meet you girl. i'm the shift leader today who will training you. the girl who hired you isn't here today." she says.

i nod. "it's nice to meet you." i say. she gestures me to go to the back, so i follow.

she was pretty. she was tall and skinny. she was a light skin girl, with long curly hair in a ponytail.

she brought me to this small area, and hands me a shirt and hat, with my name tag on it.

the nausea started to get a little worse in the heat back here, so i held on the wall.

she furrows her eyebrows at me. "you okay?" she says.

i nod, and readjust myself. "i ate so much this morning so i'm just so full." i say, laughing.

she laughs. "i feel you girl. so just throw that on, and i'll give you the basics of it all. it's not busy at all here to be honest. so you're gonna get paid for doing nothing." she says, laughing.

she walks up to the front, and i throw the shirt over mine. i put the hat on and i take a deep breath. the nausea started fading a little, i probably had anxiety too.

when i get back out, she goes over all the coffees, coolattas, lattes, everything. she talks about all the food, she goes over basically everything in 45 minute time span. so now we were just waiting for a customer.

"so is that girl your girlfriend?" she asks, with a smile.

i look at her, and give her a small smile. "something like that." i say. 

she smiles. "aww! what's her name?" she asks.

i immediately turn red, thinking about billie. "billie." i say.

she gives me a look, and laughs. "okay sis! i would never expect you to be with a thug." she says, jokingly.

i laugh and shrug. "i'm full of surprises. you live around here?" i ask.

she nods. "about 10 minutes away. this a small area of jersey." she says. "but you sound like youre from new york, so what you doing over here?" she asks.

i go to answer, then i stop. what billie said to replays in my head. i can't trust people. i need to watch what i say.

i gulp. "i'm just out here for a little, so i figured i'd make money." i lie, trying not be weird.

she goes to answer, but someone came to the drive thru. so i had to make food.

they ordered an egg and cheese wrap and a coffee. so i grab all the things, and put them in the oven. i wait a few seconds, and it beeps. i open it, and the smell of the egg hit me like a truck.

a huge wave of nausea hit me again, and i run over to the trash and let everything out.

after about 30 seconds, i recollect myself. kennedy runs over.

"oh my god are you okay?" she says, handing me water.

i take a napkin and wipe my face, taking the water. "yeah i don't know what happen, the egg smell just was not it. thank you." i say, sipping the water.

she furrows her eyebrows. "that's so weird." she says.

i nod. "i know. i've been eating non stop and this never happened. it could just be my period coming too, i don't know." i say, shrugging.

she gives me a weird look. i raise an eyebrow.

"what?" i say, looking at her weird.

"girl that don't sound like a period. that sounds like you pregnant." she says, seriously.

oh my god. keyvon.

i stare at her with a blank expression, and she bursts out laughing. "girl relax! you can't get pregnant from a girl! i'm just playing. it's weird though, the symptoms are the same." she says.

i don't laugh, i don't do anything. i stand there and let all the memories hit me. my period is late. all of it.

before i knew it, tears were filling up in my eyes. she looks at me wide eyed.

"ava, if you're you know, doing stuff, not with your girlfriend, i can help you-" she starts, but interrupt.

i shake my head. "it's not like that. i just- i don't- it wasn't like the way you think." i say, wiping my tears.

she looks at me confused, and her face softened when she realized what i meant.

she covers her mouth. "ava.." she said with sad eyes.

"i c-cant talk about this, billie said i need to lay low." i blurt out. great. now a girl i barely know, knows my business.

"are you in any sort of trouble? because i can help-" she says, but i interrupt her.

"not with her. she's protecting me from trouble. but that is all i can say." i say.

she nods. "do you think you're pregnant?" she says softly.

i look down. "i don't know. i hope not. if i am, i am not telling billie. i will take care of it. i'm not having someones child that.. you know." i say.

she nods quickly. "i get it."

i don't necessarily know if i meant that i would take care of it. i didn't believe in abortions. i mean i think every girl should have the option, but i dont think i'd have it in me. but like, keyvons? and i'm scared i would lose billie.

"listen, i'll go next door to the cvs and get you a test. and you can take it here, and if it's positive. you can take care of it.." kennedy says, trailing off.

"you don't have to-" i begin to say, but she interrupts me.

"i'm going to get it. please just let me help you this much." she whispers. she looked so sad. i hated that she was sympathizing, i always look so weak.

i nod. "thank you." i whisper.

she heads off to cvs, and i chug down about 3 cups of water to make myself have to pee. it felt like forever and i suddenly jumped from my phone buzzing, it was a text from billie.

Billie🖤: how's it going baby girl

i look around nervously, trying to see if she was somewhat watching me. i shake my head and sigh. i'm so paranoid.

me: okay, it's dead right now so i'm just making myself a coffee😘

i send it, and i jump when i hear the door open, revealing kennedy coming back with a bag.

she hands it to me, and gives me a small smile.

"thank you so much kennedy. i really appreciate this." i say, walking towards the bathroom.

i felt so weird knowing that she knew all of this, but she seemed genuine enough. i didn't tell her too much, i kept it short.

i grab a cup, and walk into the bathroom. i lock the door, and begin to open up the test.

i sit down the toilet and pee in the cup. when it was enough, i set it aside and finished using the bathroom.

when i finished, i opened up the test and put the tip in for 5 seconds, like the box said. after, i put the cap on the test and face it downwards. i pour out the pee in toilet, flush it, and throw the cup out.

i wash my hands. after, i pace back and
forth. this was gonna be the longest 3 minutes of my life.

a baby? i don't know what i would do. i don't want to have keyvons child. imagine explaining that to your child? oh your father tried to kill me, hunted me down, raped me, tried to kill the  girl i was in love with, so i killed him? like what the fuck?

and i'm still a child myself. i don't know how to be a mom. i could learn, but still. and billie. what if she leaves me? and wants nothing to do with me or a baby? i would be heartbroken.

oh my god i forgot about my sister and marina. they don't even know about the rape. marina would be excited to be a godmother but i feel like my sister would be so upset with me.

i also could just be paranoid. my body could just be so fucked from all the trauma in my life, that my period is fucking with me.

my mind runs and runs for another minute. and then i stop. i look at the test that's face down.

i go over to it, and take a deep breath. i close my eyes and flip it over.

i open my eyes, and my world felt like it was crashing down around me.

pregnant
3-4 weeks

i told y'all it would a huge plot twist 🤣 my bitch ava is pregnannnttt. any predictions on what will happen? ily all
- gabrielle🧚🏼‍♀️
ps. this is Kennedy 💕