ava's pov.

it's nearly the end of lunch, i'm just scrolling through instagram, eating an apple. marina sits across from me just on her phone, i'm mad at her still but i never leave her alone at lunch, we just haven't spoken. it honestly sucks so bad that we are fighting, but i still feel like what i said wasn't wrong. she and my sister always baby me.

i do understand where they are coming from. i know that they're worried about me making the wrong decision with billie. believe it or not, billie still scares me, but she didn't really even give me an option about hanging out. she's extremely bipolar, she'll be nice then out of nowhere she'll turn back to her normal cold ways. but for some reason she always comes around to talk to me again. i didn't even wanna ask her for the ride but i felt stuck, i didn't wanna go with my sister. i snap out of my thoughts when i look to see marina look up at me.

"i know you don't wanna talk yet, but are you coming home with me?" she asks with hopeful eyes. i knew she was upset, we never fight. but i had no desire to talk about everything until after i went with billie, because i know they will try to talk me out of it, that's why she's trying to talk to me now. i couldn't even say no to billie, so it wouldn't even matter.

i shook my head. "no, i'm gonna take a uber" i say packing my stuff up. she nods and starts to walk towards the door. she looks back up at me.

"are you atleast coming to free av?" she says, while fixing her sleeves.

i look down and sigh. i wanted to go with her so bad, but billie told me to meet her. i look around for a few seconds. i had so much work to do, plus i was seeing her later. i'll just text her and go to free. but part of me knows this isn't the best idea.

i nod, "yeah i'll come." i say smiling softly, following her to the library.

*

i sit down at a table with marina, and sit in front of her. neither of us have said a word. she knew not to push me, i could tell she just wanted me to sit with her.

i pull out my phone, my finger hovering over my messages with billie. i was scared to tell her i wasn't going, she always changes her moods and i wasn't getting on her bad side. a part of me still wants to just get up and go with her. when she's nice, i like to take advantage of it while it's there and she makes me feel special, i've never felt that way. she switches her moods constantly. she can get extremely angry, and i was so scared of her, but i couldn't stay away either. it's like a thrill when i'm with her.

i put down my phone and sigh. i'll just text her when i'm home and say i went home early, and i'll just avoid her the rest of today. i take out my  homework and just start it.

i worked in silence for about 25 minutes until i felt marina tap my hand.

"yes? " i say, still writing and slightly look up at her.

she was packing up her stuff, and then looked at me. "i'm going to meet up with adry, do you wanna come?" she asked.

i shake my head and laugh a little. "no, the last thing i need is you two-" i start to say, before getting interrupted by the library doors getting flung open.

we turn our heads around and see the librarian  in front of the door, and a fuming billie.

my heart stops as i hear the librarian say "this isn't your free period, billie." trying to block her

"i don't give a fuck." she says through her gritted teeth, pushing past him, eyes searching the room, until they lock with mine. she starts her way over to me, and i feel my heart in my throat.

i look to marina, who's staring at me as well.
"this is what you wanted av." i rolls her eyes.

before i can even respond, billie is right in front of me, jaw clenched and nostrils flaring.

she looks at marina, then back down at me. she comes to my ear and says. "let's fucking go. now. " i get up quickly and grab my stuff.

i look to marina who is infuriated, red as hell. she turns to billie. "what did you say to her?"

billie grabs my wrist and starts walking, pulling me with her. "none of your business." she responds.

as we are walking, marina is yelling things and following us, until we get outside. we get to her car and she immediately looks at me. "get in." she says, while getting into her seat.

i go around to the other side and get in, and immediately look down. i knew she wasn't gonna be nice forever, but i was upset it ended. i should've went. she was so angry that i didn't, but it's not even a big deal. i was gonna see her later anyways.

she looks to me and glares, moving my chin to face her, she gets so close i can feel her hot breath. "i told you fucking come here, i could've been fucking jay right now. but no i waited for YOU. " she spats

i felt my stomach drop. what she said hurt, if she wanted to fuck jay so bad why'd she call me here? i knew i should've just shut up, but i couldn't.

"if you wanted to fuck her, you could've! why do you even want me here anyways? you say we are "friends" or whatever the fuck is going on, but you are quick to always yell at me. i'm not like you, and i'm sure as hell not one of your "girls". i spat, my eyes filling up with tears. i was so sick of her outbursts.

she's silent for a moment, and then opens her glove box, and looks up at me smirking.

and there it was, her gun.

i gulp and stare it, as she's smirking at me. i let the tears fall and i just knew i should've listened to my sister and marina, i'm too trusting. she's just like keyvon. she's a psychopath.

she comes to my ear and whispers, "i told you dont fuck with me ava. " and sits up, starting her car.

i turn to her quickly, "you're crazy billie. i'm leaving. " i grab the door handle to leave, and she grabs my wrist.

"i wouldn't do that mama." she whispers, and i freeze.

she's an actual psychopath. she was trying to make me her little pet, manipulating me. i wanted to leave but i knew if i did, she'd not hesitate to kill me. so i let go and sat back into the seat, wiping my tears.

she starts to drive and i look out the window. "where are we going billie?" i say.

she continues to drive, "for a ride, i have to go do something."

i look down and just stay silent for the rest of the car ride, she hums to music on the radio and occasionally looking over to me.

we pull up to a house, it's in the middle of nowhere. it's beaten down, very old looking. i sit there and watch billie as she grabs her gun, and tucks it into her waistband. she grabs her bag, and looks to me.

"do not move. do not open the door for no one. i'll be back in 15 minutes. " she says looking for a response, i nod.

my eyes follow her as she walks up to the house, when she walks in a see a bunch of men with tattoos like her, bags of god knows what, and guns everywhere. she shuts the door and i look down. i go in my purse and grab my phone to see a ton of messages.

Rina💕: ava what the hell
Rina💕: where did she take you? why did you go?
Rina💕: yo
Rina💕: bro i'm calling adry i'm scared pls answer🙁
Rina💕: did she hurt you

i sigh and scroll to my messages from my sister.

Sissy👯‍♀️🤞🏽: where tf did you go
Sissy👯‍♀️🤞🏽: i'm coming to get you.
Sissy👯‍♀️🤞🏽: answer me please

i shake my head. why did i do this? i shouldn't of went, but i know i really didn't have a choice. i go to our group chat and start to type.

me: i'm fine, i'm going to be home soon, pls don't worry.

i send it and throw my phone at the dash board. why did i let billie manipulate me? she is crazy, she has a gun and i'm still sitting here. why did she want me here with her? she has so many other girls to drag to her drug shit.

i look up, and jump when i see a man at my window. he's tall and darkskinned. he has tattoos all over his body, even his face. i stare at him and he tells me to put the window down. i go to, and then i remember what billie said. i look up and freeze. i don't know what to do, he is like 3 times my size, but i don't wanna upset billie more. so i open it down a little bit.

"yes?" i say quietly.

"are you one of bils girls?" he asks, eyeing me.

i cringe at the thought, and shake my head. "no, just a friend i guess." i don't even know what i was? her toy?

he stares at me for a second before smiling. "why didn't she invite you in?"

he seemed nice enough. "i don't know, she just told me to not move, and talk to no one" i say while looking down.

"ah i see, she's in there handling the mess she made, that's probably why." he says laughing.

i go to ask what he means, until i hear billie.

"yo manny what the fuck are you doing?" he turns around to see billie looking at him like she wants to put a bullet in between his eyes.

"just talking to your friend here bil" he puts he hands up in defense.

"she doesn't want to talk to you. ava put up the window." i quickly put it up, and watch him walk over and i see her yelling at him quietly. i look down and i see my leg shaking. why do i never listen? ever?

she walks away from him towards the car, and gets in. i hold my breath knowing she's gonna yell at me. she starts pulling off, and then she starts.

"god ava do you ever listen? i said do NOT talk to anyone and you just can't help yourself." she  yells.

i take a deep breath. "im sorry but i was scared! he's huge and you act like i could defend myself. he told me to open the window so i did, only like this much." showing her the amount with my fingers.

"you call my name ava. you scream it until i come out. i don't want you talking to them without me there!!" she yells more.

"how am i suppose to know that? you just threatened me with that and expect me to think you'll come to my rescue?" i say pointing to the gun in her waistband.

she clenches her jaw and then hits the steering wheel, the car swerving a bit. i jump slightly and look down. i always say something to piss her off.

"what mess did you make?" i ask quietly

she turns white. like almost translucent. she's already so pale.

"what the fuck are you talking about?" she says through gritted teeth.

"he said you were cleaning up a mess." i said looking down once again.

she starts shaking her left leg, and looks straight at the road.

"mind your fucking business ava. stop asking me all these questions. " she spats. god, she's so fucking disrespectful.

we drive silently after until we pull up to my house, i grab my stuff and look at her.
"thanks for bringing me home." is all i can say.

she glares me and starts looking out the window.
"get out."

my heart drops. i walk out and slam the door. i am NOT going with her. she's fucking insane. she is so bipolar. she's manipulative. she's a psycho. if she shows up, i'll just lock all my doors and windows. i don't care, i'm not going tonight.

i walk up to my door, and when i walk in, i see my sister and marina sitting at the table, waiting for me. watching as billie speeds off.

great. now this.

i try to avoid it and make my way towards the stairs, when adryana grabs my wrist hard, causing me to spin around.

"no, sit down." she says and i sigh, and go and sit next to her.

"why the fuck are you still going out with this girl?" she says angrily.

"i don't want to fight about this again, i was suppose to meet her and i forgot, so she got upset that's it." i said blankly. i don't know why i was lying for billie at this point.

"ava, she was more then upset! why the hell are you putting up with this? she's fucking crazy!" marina adds in, getting red once again. i know where all this is gonna go.

"she's my friend. i'm making a friend. stop trying to control every part of my life, i'm fine right? she wouldn't hurt me." i lie, i know for a fact she would. i just said it to get them off my back, which didn't work.

"but ava she would! that's where you are wrong!! she's crazy. did you know she's in a gang? she fucking kills people. she's a psychopath. and you know what keyvon was in right?" adryana says screaming at this point.

i gulp and look down, starting to shake. a gang? i mean i should've expected from the gun, tattoos, and tall scary guy with face tattoos. but i guess i was still shocked. keyvon was in shit like this too, and look how that ended. as much as i didn't want to defend billie, i felt like i still needed too. i hated how she was talking about her, and i don't know why.

i stand up and shoot a glare at her. "she's not. stop saying this shit. and stop FUCKING MENTIONING KEYVON. for two people who want me to forget him so much, you mention him every damn day!" i scream, grabbing my stuff to go upstairs.

"to show you that you're gonna throw yourself into it again! you like her, she makes you feel special now but she's gonna fucking hurt you ava! " she yells, spit going everywhere.

she was wrong. billie was mean to me 85% the time, but the 15% of her being someone else, was enough for me. she did make me feel special at times. and as much as i knew it was wrong, i still wanted to be around her.

"fuck off." i say while running to my room, shutting the door and locking it.

i throw my stuff on the bed and open my closet and stare. i don't know why i was doing this, but i did not want to be around them. that way they spoke about her infuriated me. billie is a psychopath, she is bipolar, but the thrill of everything, made me not be able to stay away. something about her attracted me. she was beautiful. her whole appearance turned me on for some reason. i can't put my finger on it but i have a reason why i can't stay away, i just don't know it yet.

so here i am, looking for an outfit now.

i guess i will be going with billie tonight.

thank you all so much for more then like 1 read😩 i know 50 is like nothing but it's still so crazy to me
people actually like this. but what y'all think of marina and adryana? i think they mean well, but are way too far up ava's ass🥲 i'll be updating more today thank u for everything ily
- gabrielle 🧚🏼‍♀️