ava's pov.

i don't know what to say to marina. i need to think of an excuse fast. as much as billie is an asshole, i don't want marina thinking billie was the reason of my breakdown. it was because of keyvon, but it was triggered by billies actions, resembling his. yeah she didn't hit me, but the sarcastic words brought back things i couldn't forget. and then she saw my scars, i felt exposed. i don't think she meant it though, well i don't really know, she's kinda bipolar.

"why don't we go talk upstairs?" i say to marina, pointing to my sister who's on the phone with tony.

"okay." she says sternly and walking upstairs, yeah she's really mad.

we walk into my room, and i shut the door, turning around to a very angry marina.

"what the hell were you thinking ava? she's dangerous and you went into the car with her? " she asks, waiting for me to explain.

i then proceed to tell her about class, her telling me to meet her and giving me her number. and the talk in the car, about her and i being friends. i left out the arguing and the scars. just saying we left the conversation with we can hang out tomorrow, at 8.

marina stares at me with wide eyes. "ava rose dasilva. so you are now friends, with billie? with the guns, probably doing the same things keyvon-" i stop her there.

"marina stop comparing her to him! she didn't hit me, she didn't verbally destroy me, and she sure as fuck didn't stab me!! that was KEYVON. and me and her are FRIENDS. not together! hell i don't even like girls rina you know this!" i start to yell.

"oh cut the bullshit av i see the way you watch her walk by with her friends at school, when i say her name you light up like used to! with KEYVON! you are infatuated with her! i know you better then you know you, stop lying to me!" she yells back, getting red.

"i'm trying to protect you from what you've already gone through! you see what she does on instagram, god knows what she does in person ava! and she's a hoe. she fucks any girl that's breathes, that jay girl? that's one of girls. she has A LOT of girls. she's USING you."she spats.

i get angrier and start to yell louder. "you and adryana! that's all you say! you wanna fucking protect me blah blah blah!! i don't need you to baby me anymore i've learned my lesson rina!! i nearly died that night!!" im now screaming.

"you didn't learn because you still get attacks, you had a breakdown the other night!! when will you ever learn ava?!" she yells when adry walks in.

"what the fuck is going on? why are you guys fighting?! you two never fight." adryana yells.

marina scoffs and laugh. "what's going on is that ava is doing the same thing to herself, once again! she never wants to listen to us" she storms out and runs downstairs.

i roll my eyes, and feel them filling up. i look over to adryana who is looking at me concerned. "what is she talking about ava?" she says.

i'm so aggravated at this point and just want to be alone. "nothing adry. just go follow her." i say with a little too much attitude. this wasn't adryanas problem.

she rolls her eyes, and scoffs. "whatever, don't blame this shit on me. " she says as she slams the door and goes outside to follow marina.

i knew this would happen, now she's gonna tell adryana everything. and i'm gonna get same speech like i do everyday. 'you can't trust anyone ava' , 'you're too vulnerable ava' . all of that. i heard it all before. i'm just so sick of it and being treated by a baby.

i run to my window and open it slightly to listen in.
of course she told adryana everything. from class, to the lunch situation, and the guns, and all of it. just great.

i look around getting antsy and frustrated. i don't wanna be around them. i don't wanna see them. i go and i lock my door, and then i pick up my phone and text billie.

me: hey.

i send it and just throw my phone. as soon as i throw it, it dings. i walk over and pick it up to see a message.

billie: wassup ava

i frown at the dry text. i don't know why i expected more, but i did. i shake my head. marina was right. i am indeed infatuated but i don't know what it means. i don't like girls. i never have. i sigh, and then type a response.

me: this might be pushing it but do you think you could bring me to school tomorrow?

i quickly hit send before i think too far into it, and almost immediately i see chat bubbles.

billie: of course , but what happened to ur sis and ur bestie as ya ride ? 😬

i roll my eyes, i obviously can't tell her the real thing because i have no intentions of telling her about keyvon. i make up something quick and type it out.

me: we just all got into an argument, something dumb but i just don't wanna deal with them in the morning. thank you billie.

i hit send and i look outside and i see marina leaving, so that means adryana is coming in. and i'm not prepared. i go into bed and just cover myself, getting ready for another screaming match. but to my surprise, she just went to her room, slamming the door of course, so i knew she was mad. i get up and look at my phone to have one new message.

billie: you got it ma 😘

my heart starts beating fast at the message, i smile to myself and lock my phone. and grab my homework and do it for the next day, and start that paper.

when i was done, i slipped into bed and just laid on my phone. thinking about what to wear tomorrow with billie, i didn't even know where we were going. i guess i was gonna have to wing it. soon my eyes start close and i had fallen asleep.

*

the next morning i made sure to get up late so i didn't go with them. they always left 30 minutes early for dunkin or breakfast, so i stayed in bed, until i heard my door open to see adryana.

"are you coming with us?" she asks, with a blank expression, obviously still angry.

"i'm getting an uber." i lie, and turn my head back into my pillow.

she doesn't say anything, and slams my door, and proceeds to slam the car door, and drive off fast.

i get up and get myself ready. i put on black leggings, a black sweatsuit , with my rain boots . i took my hair out it's braids and on my black and green bandana. i put on some makeup and i look at myself and i giggle. i look like billie with the bandana.

i get my school stuff in my purse and reach for my phone to see billie sent me a text.

billie: pulling up ma

i grab everything and look at myself one more time, and then go downstairs and go outside. i lock the door and turn around to see the beautiful car, with billie inside. staring right at me. i smile softly, and make my way towards the car, and gets in.

"well look who is trying to be like me today?" billie laughs, while not taking her eyes off me.

i roll my eyes and smile. "for you information, i've had this for a while." i say smiling at her.

she smirks at me then turns the music on, and starts to drive to school. at first it was silent.

"so what made you give this friendship an actual chance huh?" she says look over at me in the corner of her eye.

i shrug and smile a little. "you brought me my wallet which was nice when you could've really just stole my whole identity, since my life is in that wallet-" i laugh. "and you kinda also didn't give me an option because you said you were picking me up tonight. "

she laughs and nods. " it wasn't an option." she was laughing but i know she was serious.

the rest of car ride was billie humming to the music and once in a while glancing over to me. i felt a vibration and i picked it up and to see a message from marina.

Rina💕: hope you enjoyed your ride with billie.

my face falls, and i must've turned pale and i knew i was gonna start shaking.

billie looks over to me and looks confused, "you good ava? who texted you?"

i shake my head, " i'm fine , it was no one " i look down.

"don't lie to me. " her voice suddenly becoming cold, i start to get anxious.

"it was marina, just telling me to get to school safe, i just hate when we fight." i said being truthful in some parts, but partially lying.

her face softens, and she nods. " does your sister and marina know your with me?"

i start playing with my fingers and shake my head. "no."

she continues to drive, with a blank expression. so i continue, to try to not upset her.

"they just don't trust people with me, they think i'm too trusting and think people want to hurt me. and after some.. issues i've had last year, i never had any people in my life other then marina. or my sister. so when i told them i made a friend, they felt like i was being too trusting again."

she continues to look straight and is silent for a moment. "i see, well i wouldn't hurt you in this friendship ava. " she says with a small smile, looking almost fake.

i nod and give her a toothless smile, still shaking. we pull up to the school, and she parks. i grab my stuff quickly, i say thank you quietly and begin to walk towards the door, before she pulls my wrist gently.

"meet me here again during free." she says, before walking up to jay, putting her arm around her and begins to walk towards the opposite door.

my heart drops to my stomach and i feel sick. i don't know why jay bothers me. billie is my friend, but seeing her with jay makes me just wanna punch her. and i'm not a violent person, at all.

i walk to class, trying ignoring my queasy feeling after seeing jay and billie, and i see my sister and marina. i look down and try to walk fast but marina stands in front of me.

"ava, i want to talk about this. i said a lot of things i didn't mean-" she begins, but i cut her off.

"i don't wanna talk right now please, we can tomorrow or something all of us but i just need to go to class." i say looking down before moving around her going to first class.

i know it looks mean i didn't wanna talk, but i didn't wanna talk about it until after i go out with billie tonight. i just want one night where she doesn't try to tell me every reason why i shouldn't talk to billie.
i walk into class to see billie already in her seat, not late for once. she's on her phone texting. probably one of her girlfriends.

i go and sit in my seat, and take out my stuff. mrs.mahoney just tells us to work on our papers, which i already finished. and i know billie wasn't gonna do it regardless, she was gonna sit on her phone. so i decided to try to talk to her. i breathe in and count to 10 and turn to her, to have her already have her seat faced to me, waiting for me to talk to her.

"dont be nervous to talk to me. " she says with a smirk, fixing her chains.

i laugh softly "i'm not nervous, i was just gonna turn to you" trying to hide that i was indeed nervous.

she raises her eyebrows and nods, and changes the subject. "dress nice tonight. not fancy, but hot." she says while winking.

i laugh and cover my face. "billie i can't wear wear what those video vixens wear! i'm 4'11 and just hit 110 pounds."

she laughs and licks her lips, looking up and down at me. "i like your size, it fits you well. but for real, you don't need to flaunt your body. just something good looking."

i nod, and i start thinking about jay and all her girlfriends. i feel start feeling uneasy again, and look down. she's just on her phone texting now. i'm trying so hard to not open my mouth but the words just spill out.

"do all your girls know about each other?" i ask, nervously.

she looks up from her phone, wide eyed, and then up at me.
i was thinking she was gonna bitch me out until she starts talking.

"yeah, i'm pretty open with it when i get with them, they know they share me with a few others. why so curious?" she asks, with an eyebrow raised.

i shrug "i've never seen someone do that, i just wanted to know." i try to play it off. but i can't stop talking. "does it bother them? or do they just not care"

she sits up and looks deep into my eyes, before talking. "most of them don't care, there's one that's butthurt but she gets over it once i fuck her again." she smirks

i nod, getting a feeling in my stomach and in my lower area. i cross my legs trying to contain myself. she watches me as i do.

"what was your first sex experience like?" she asked, looking directly at me.

i gulp and i play with my fingers. "i've never had sex before, with anyone." saying quietly

her eyes widen as i tell her, her jaw almost completely on the floor.
"nothing at all? no fingers? no oral? nothing?" she asked, still wide eyed.

"none of it" i say, kinda embarrassed.

suddenly the bell rings, she stands up and comes up behind me while i'm grabbing my stuff, whispering in my ear. "you're more pure then i thought babygirl." and walks out to the classroom.

in that moment i had butterflies everywhere.

i know i keep updating guys but i'm fr so bored and the storyline is staring to get interesting now😭if your here thank you a bunch
- gabrielle 🧚🏼‍♀️