ava's pov.

i wake up at 7:30am, and i sit up, and look at marina sleeping next to me. after dinner, when we got home i went straight to bed. my head hurting and my anxiety was high after seeing billie.

i grab my phone, and i see a notification on instagram. i click it and my eyes widen.

billieeilish commented: beautiful angel

she commented on my picture. she still thought i was beautiful. my heart was skipping as i stared at the comment. i click her profile and i scroll. the pictures of her and jay were gone.

did they break up? was it because of me? i shake my head. i'm thinking too far into it. i shouldn't comment back, part of me didn't want too. but the other part of me did, and i listened to that part.

i hit the like button and reply.

billieeilish: beautiful angel
     avadasilva: thank you💕💋

i smile at the reply. i can't help but think about last night and seeing her. i've waited so long to see her, and i did. and i pushed her away, i thought she didn't care about me. i thought she never thought about me.

i got up, and went into the shower. i washed my hair and quickly washed my body.

i go out out and i quickly walked into my room, and marina was up. i had to get ready for my appointment at 9am.

"rina look." i throw her my phone, showing her what billie says, while looking for clothes. 

she grabs my phone and gasps softly. "she really wants to talk to you huh?" she says, putting my phone down.

i shrug, and pick out a grey sweater and black leggings and my louis vuitton black rain boots. "i don't know." i whisper.

i start putting on my clothes and marina looks at me. "maybe you should give her a chance to talk ava, considering she really looked for you, she even sat by our house. " she says.

i finish getting dressed and sit at my vanity, starting to gel my hair up to a bun. "i don't know rina. i lowkey want too, but i don't want to bring that crazy part out of me again.

she lets it go, and i finish my hair and put on some light makeup. i check the time and it's 8:20 and the dentist is 35 minutes away. it's back in the city. i get up and i grab my purse and phone.

marina quickly puts on clothes. "wanna get dunkin after?" she says, walking downstairs with me.

i nod. "i should eat before it they get sore.

we head to the car, and marina begins to drive us to the dentist.

we sing all our spanish songs the whole way there. i was always happy that i ended up having a bestfriend who was dominican too.

when we pulled up, i started getting out when my phone buzzed. it was diana.

diana almonte: ik you doing something on your bday,  so let's go out the day before🙃

i smile at the text. diana was nice, and i kinda liked her. we hung out like once when i got out the hospital, but i was so drained and was constantly thinking of billie, so i ended up falling asleep after like an hour of us talking.

i think i should go, it would probably be fun. so i type a reply as i walk to the door.

me: ok. i'll call you later i'm going to get the train tracks 😬

i send it and walk in, check in, and sit down to wait with marina.

i was just looking around when i felt another buzz from my phone, i pick it up and my heart drops when i see.

a dm from billie.

i quickly open it, not caring how weird it looked.

billieeilish: i have something for you.

i look at it confused, what would she get for me?

me: and what would that be?

i quickly send it, and then i hear my name. i had to go in. i was so annoyed, i wanted to know what billie wanted.

i guess it had to wait.

***

billies pov.

me: it's for your birthday, agree to see me that day and i'll give it to you🙂

i send it, and i smile. i'm laying in my bed, and i look over to the box of her gifts, and open one.

it was diamond chain, with a diamond pendant of a picture of her and adryana. she posted that picture of them awhile back, for national siblings day.

i close the box, and i open the second box. it was another diamond chain, but it says billie on it. i was saving that for when i get her back. i wasn't gonna fuck it up this time. i was gonna put my guard down for her. i saw how terrible i felt without her, and i never wanted to do it again.

i get up and i put the gifts into my side table drawer, next to her picture.

i spent the night at my other house because i was just aggravated about jah and i didn't wanna take it out on fin. but i had to go home today and bring him some money, so i had to wait for manny and keyvon to get back.

i go downstairs and i sit next to jah on the couch, he hands me his blunt and i take a hit of it.

"wheres manny and keyvon bro?" i say while hitting the blunt. "it's late for them and bills are due today, i need the money for fin."

jah sighs. "i know. but they brought home money like two days ago, where'd it go?" he asks.

i look down. "i got ava birthday gifts. it's on the 28th." i say, quietly. "plus, this drop off today was worth atleast 15k. biggest one in awhile, so i was gonna pay all the bills today, and pay rent for the next 3 months."

jah smiles. "that's cute bil. big ass softy." he says, pushing me.

i roll my eyes. "shut up." i say, and then my attention goes to the door that was swung open. there was manny, bleeding from everywhere. he immediately hits the floor.

i jump up and i run to him. "manny bro what the fuck? where's keyvon?" i say. jah is getting a towel.

"h-he took the money. at the drop a bunch of people jumped me and he grabbed the money. h-hes been working for mario, bil." he says, blood falling from his mouth.

my whole body freezes and my heart drops. mario was apart of our rival gang, kdp. mario must've told him to join mbg to take my money and figure out how i'm working. i will fucking destroy him.

i stand up and immediately punch the wall, and throw everything sight. i needed the fucking money. finneas and i will lose everything.

"is he in kdp? i scream.

"y-yes." he whispers, sitting up against the wall with towel jah got him.

i throw the kitchen table and put my fingers through my hair. "FUCK." i scream.

jah walks over. "relax bil we will figure it out. his bills aren't actually due til the first. i will find something." he says.

i shake my head. "this is why i trust no one! fucking no one." i spat. i wasn't angry at manny, i was just fucking pissed at the situation.

i sit down the couch, and jah brings manny to the bathroom. he was like the mom of the group, but a man.

i go and text jayvin, and tell him to have his friends find him, and bring him to me as soon as they find him. i was going to kill him.

i lay back, and my phone buzzes. i look at it, and it was ava.

avadasilva: okay
avadasilva: under ONE condition
avadasilva: you bring me ice cream, my teeth are gonna hurt. i just got my braces 😣

i smile at her text. all of my issues just drifted from my head. she was gonna let me see her. as much as i wanted to keep talking to her, i had to go make some money, i was panicking.

me: aight. i'll hyu later i gotta go try to find some plays. that bitch ass friend of manny's stole all my fucking money

i send it and i put my phone down. ava knew about all about the gang and my boys. so i could tell her about this shit.

my phone buzzes almost 10 seconds after.

avadasilva: 😕damn sorry billie. but ok i got a new phone so text this number. 916-312-8743

i like the message quickly and i put my phone away and grab my keys. i had to go make money.

***

ava's pov.

i get into the car, and flip the mirror down and smile. i hated them but i hated my teeth more. they weren't sore yet thank god, so i could get dunks.

"they're not bad av." marina says, starting the car.

i roll my eyes. "atleast i'll have better teeth when they're off." i say.

she starts to drive out the parking lot, and i instantly remember i was texting billie. i grab my phone out my purse and i see a dm from billie. i click it.

billieeilish: it's for your birthday, agree to see me that day and i'll give it to you🙂

my eyes widen at the text. and i put my phone in marinas face as she drives, her eyes also widen.

"what do i do?" i say. i know what i wanted to do, but i felt like i needed marinas guidance.

"do it." she says almost immediately. "she clearly wants a chance, and i think you deserve to know why she was sitting outside our house too."

she was right. i wanted to know it all, and if it goes bad again, then i'd really move on. so i text her back.

me: okay
me: under ONE condition
me: you bring me ice cream, my teeth are gonna hurt. i just got my braces😣

i send it and lay my head back. i didn't care about the ice cream, i just wanted her to say let me see so i could send a picture of myself. my phone buzzes almost instantly. i frown when i see that she didn't ask.

billieeilish: i'll hyu later i gotta go try to find some plays. that bitch ass friend of manny's stole all my fucking money

that's so fucked. billie needs that money to keep her house for finneas. i look down and i immediately thought of all the times adryana and i struggled for money to keep our shitty apartment that our parents left us in. i felt awful for billie, but i couldn't be that soft yet.

me: 😕damn sorry billie. but ok i got a new phone so text this number. 916-312-8743

i lock my phone and i put my head on the window.

"so dunks?" marina says, turning down the music that i didn't even know was playing.

i wanted to help billie. i felt so bad, all she had was finneas and she'd go crazy he lost his house. he works even though billie gets the money for him, he tries so hard. when billie told me all of that, i looked up to him. he reminded me of my sister.

i suddenly remembered my savings account. me and adry both had one from our parents when we were younger. but i couldn't touch it until i was 18. adryana used all of hers for the house when she turned 18. my birthday was right there. but i have a copy of adryanas ID. her hair was dark brown in the picture so i could use that. it had about 10k. i had to help billie. so i'll just take out 5k and give adry the rest on my birthday. i'll figure something out.

"go to my bank real quick first." i say, sitting up.

after getting back into brookhaven, we pull up to my bank. i get out, and i head inside.

luckily, they bought that i was was adryana and i was walking out the bank with an envelope that held five thousand dollars.

i get back in the car and put the envelope on the middle console, grabbing my purse to put it on there.

marina eyes widen and she grabs the envelope, looking inside. "is this your savings money? how did you get it? why did you take it out?" she asks.

i grab it back from her. "yes. and i pretended to be adryana." i say, putting it in my purse, avoiding the last question.

she gives me a look. "okay..but why?" she says again.

i look down and i fiddle with my leggings. "it's for billie." i whisper.

marina gasps softly. "oh my god adryana what? doesnt she have money?" she says.

i shake my head. "she usually does. but someone that was in her gang fucked her over and took her money. and she needs it. she lives with her brother and billie is the only reason why they still have a home. she doesn't have anyone else but him rina. and she would be destroyed if he lost the house. he reminds me of adry, and how me and her struggled. so i'm helping her." i say quietly, starting to tear up. i was so soft, but i felt so bad. finneas was a good person based off of what billie told me.

she gives me a soft smile. "you're a good person av." she says.

i nod. "please don't tell adry. i'll give her the rest on my birthday and i'll get a job after or something." i say, still looking down.

she sticks her pinky out. "super swear." she says. i lock my pinky with hers and smile.

we start driving to dunks, and i lean up against the window again. billie didn't deserve my help i know, or anything from me after all that's happened. but i couldn't deny the fact i still loved her. and i would hate to see her struggle like i had too.

so i would do anything to help her.