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The hell did he want to talk about? Has he forgotten what happened?

He just stood there like he was thinking of something to say, he wasn't prepared to see me here at all. I had completely caught him by surprise, I threw him off. He stood there looking at me, almost like he was focusing on each detail about my appearance.

What was I too ugly for him or something? Asshole.

At this point my anger was building up again, I hated the feeling of not being enough for someone.

"Look I'm gonna cut straight to the chase since I really don't want to be here much longer. Jaeger, we have nothing to talk about. In case you forgot I beat the shit out of you not to long ago. So what the hell made you think that trying to talk to me was a good idea?", I said.

He stood there dumbfounded. I guess he wasn't expecting that response. He stood there with that same dumb expression on his face, acting like I was just going to butter up to him and act like nothing ever happened.

I hated that face, it was imprinted in the back of my skull. I hated the way his eyebrows would furrow together whenever he was confused or angry. I hated everything about Eren Jaeger, and that wasn't going to change soon.

"You're standing there acting like you're surprised or something, it's pissing me off. Stop acting like you're clueless. If you're gonna talk, then talk or else I'm leaving."

I only wanted to hear what he wanted to say out of curiosity, not because of guilt or anything. I'd never feel guilty of the way I treated him after what happened. After all, he did ruin everything for me. There was a possibility I wasn't even going to be accepted into the university that I had dreamed about attending since I was a child, all because of him. I was a disappointment in everyone's eyes because of that whole incident. Now he wants to talk, and act like nothing ever happened. He's acting as if it hadn't been because of him, my entire future wouldn't have been ruined. He's acting as if because of him that my parents didn't see me as a failure. He's acting like he didn't ruin everything for me.

"Sorry? I know you're probably pissed off asking what right do I have to even be here talking to you, am I right? I guess, I just wanted to say that I was sorry."

Well at least he has some sort of thought pattern flowing through that tiny brain of his. Oh how right you are indeed, Jaeger.

"Ya anything else?"

"I guess that was it."

Did this fucker really just waste 5 minutes of my valuable time just to give some sorry ass apology?

"Ok.. um if that's all then i'm just gonna leave now."

I walked back to my car and got in, plopping myself down in the driver's seat. I let out a sigh and slammed my head on the steering wheel, giving myself a minute or so to recall the awkward encounter I just had with Eren. That was the 5 most awkward minutes I've ever experienced. He's changed, physically and mentally from when i've last seen him. Who would have known that someone could change so much within 7 months. I guess he matured ? Is that even possible ? Last time I had seen him he didn't look anywhere as attractive as he was today. He changed, and something in me changed as well.

There was something about his touch. The way he had a hold on my wrist, the way I wasn't resisting his touch instead I liked it. His hands were nice, not too calloused but not too soft either. I enjoyed the feeling of his hand on my wrist. The feeling of his skin being in contact with mine. It was something about his touch, that softened me.

Wait what the hell was I saying? Did I just call Eren Jaeger attractive ? Did i just say that I enjoyed his presence? his touch ?

I hit my head against the steering wheel out of frustration. I accidentally beeped the horn while doing so, now everyone was looking at me like I was a weirdo or something.

Great.

I couldn't believe I just called Eren attractive. Eren Jaeger for that matter, god what was I thinking. Usually when I found someone attractive it would develop into a crush, I was just hoping that now wasn't going to be one of those times. I subsided my previous thoughts and brought myself back to reality.

I started the car and drove my way home. Walking inside the house, I noticed it was quieter than usual.

Parents must be out right now, I thought.

Going up to my room and rolling into my bed, I decided on a nap. After everything that happened today, I deserved it at the very least. Everything that had previously happened was discarded, I only cared about one thing at the moment, and that was sleep. I laid there for a bit, before eventually falling asleep.
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A/N:
pics creds to @bearbrickjia on twitter.
i'm sorry for making y/n seem like a complete asshole, but it's something different and i liked the idea.
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