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I woke up the next morning, and lord did I dread the thought of having to go back to school. I got myself out of bed and walked to my dresser. I picked out a hoodie and some leggings, nothing preppy. When it came to school, I never put on a show for anyone. I'd usually just dress in jeans or sweats with a hoodie or shirt. Looking nice at school wasn't something I worried about. I got dressed fast and went to do my hair.

I went downstairs and grabbed my things. I never ate breakfast in the morning, usually just riding out the day while hungry. I only ever ate after school, not at lunch or before.

I sat on the couch, watching TV before I had to leave. When I realized it was time for me to leave, I got my stuff and went outside. I unlocked my car and got inside. The drive to school was short, since I lived pretty close. I parked my car in the parking lot, not having much time to spare. I walked inside the school and went to my first period.

First period was always boring, I had no one to talk to in here. First period was also math, which made it even more boring. Time went slowly this period, which made me fall asleep. I regularly went to sleep in my periods, never getting caught somehow. I slept until I heard the bell ring, notifying me that it was time to go to second period.

Second period was a bit boring as well, but at least I had someone to talk to. Armin was the only one I knew in this class. I walked into the second period to be greeted by blue eyes. I made my way beside Armin, plopping myself down.

"You don't seem in a great mood. something happen?", asked Armin.

He was so sweet.

"Nope, just didn't want to come back to school. Thanks for asking, though."

"It's no problem, really."

The lesson continued, I copied down Armin's notes. I wasn't one to really pay attention unless it was something that actually interested me. This period, however, was not something I was interested in. I'd usually just plug my headphones in and listen to music the entire time. I don't pay attention, which was why I was copying Armin's notes. As I was copying down his notes, Armin started talking.

"So uh, have you seen Eren?"

"Yeah, I saw him yesterday."

"No, I mean today."

"Oh, no. Why would I?"

"He didn't tell you?

"Tell me what?"

"About him coming back to school."

"Shit. He was supposed to come back today, right?"

"Yeah."

"I completely forgot, but yeah I haven't seen him."

"You think you're gonna have a class with him?"

"I mean I hope so. It'd make it easier for me to talk to him that way."

"Oh yeah, I forgot to ask you about something."

"What?"

"So are you and him like uh dating or something?"

"What? No. Him and I aren't even in the talking stage."

"Well, do you like him?"

"It's complicated. I'm still mad at him for all the stuff he's done. we're just friends. I hang out with him a lot. He's kind of like a Jean 2.0 in terms of our friendship."

"Oh"

He sounded disappointed.

"What? Not the answer you were expecting?"

"Not really."

"What kind of answer were you expecting?"

"I don't know, I thought that you liked Eren."

"So, is it only you who thinks I like him?"

"No, everyone thinks you do."

That's probably why Jean won't talk to me as much now.

"Well, he and I aren't together. Honestly, I don't see us being together anytime soon. I also don't like him that much."

"Well, thanks for being honest y/n."

"Yeah, just though I'd clear the air."

The dismissal bell rang, so I made my way to third period. Third period was a more enjoyable period as well. Jean was in my third period, as well as Connie.

When I walked into my third period, I saw Connie and Jean talking to each other. I went up to them. They obviously knew I was there, but continued talking. I was starting to grow impatient.

"No 'hey' or 'how was your break' ?"

"Hi, sorry." It was Connie that spoke.

Jean just sat and looked at me, not saying a word.

"Well, not exactly the introduction I wanted. But if you guys must know, I have some news."

"Yeah, we know Eren's back. Doesn't really matter." this time it was Jean who spoke.

"That's not what I was going to say, asshole. I just wanted to make something clear to the both of you."

They both looked at me with a confused face.

"A little birdie made it clear to me that everyone thinks I like Eren, which I don't."

"Is that all?" asked Jean.

"Yeah, why? Were you expecting more?"

"No, just thought that was a stupid reason for you to interrupt my conversation." said Jean.

"Connie, you think you can give Jean and I a minute?"

"Uh, yeah sure." said Connie.

Once Connie walked away, I sat down next to Jean and began talking.

"What the hell is your problem?"

"I don't have one."

"Yes you fucking do."

"No I don't."

"You think I don't know the reason why you're distancing yourself from me? I do Jean, I know. In case you wanted to know I don't like him. You have nothing to worry about. So please, stop acting like an asshole."

Jean stayed silent.

"So that was why? I was right?"

"Yeah, you were. Now leave it alone."

"Only if you promise me something."

"What?"

"You'll stop being an ass, deal?"

"Fine, deal."

The tardy bell rang, meaning class was starting.

Everything was going well until the door flung open.