contains
mental illness
emotional abuse
mentions of mental hospitalization
mature language
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I opened my eyes looking around the unfamiliar room.

Wait where the hell am I ?

I sat up for a moment, trying to get an idea of where I might be. It was still daylight, indicating that it was still Sunday. Meaning I must've only been asleep for a while, not too long. I could feel my eyes still sore, my head still hurting.

What the hell even happened? Why am I here?

I pushed through the pain I was feeling, and walked towards the door. As I was about to turn the knob, the door suddenly opened. Me being the dumb ass I was, didn't move back as the door came swinging open, making me fall flat on my ass.

Shit that hurts.

Too bothered with how much my ass was currently hurting from falling, I didn't notice the person in front of me, until he began to speak.

"Shit I'm sorry, here." The person extended their hand out to me, which I brushed off.

I got up on my own, wiping the imaginary dust off my ass. I looked to the source, only to see Eren.

Wait what the fuck?

I was confused, confused on everything.

How the hell did I end up in Eren's room?

"You better start explaining why I'm in your room, pretty boy."

"You seriously don't remember what happened just a few hours ago?"

"No, obviously not, dipshit. Now start explaining, before I get the wrong ideas."

He stood there with a disgusted look on his face, before he began talking again.

"You really though we-. Ew, no. I would never."

"So we didn't do anything?"

"For fuck's sake, no, y/n. All you did was come here to apologize and ended up practically bawling your eyes out. You were too exhausted to go home, so you took a nap in my room."

He still had a disgusted look on his face, like he was upset over what I just accused him of. Try being in my place, though. You have no memory of what happened, wake up in some random bed, and then the guy who you hate magically comes to your rescue.

I still had a confused look on my face, like I was still trying to process what he had said. Eren seemed to notice, and cocked a brow.

"What don't believe me or something? Do you really take me for that kind of guy? Do you honestly think that low of me?"

At this point he wasn't just as confused as I was, but he was getting angry. I could hear in his voice that he was trying hard to not allow his anger to pull out, which was failing. I looked him in the eye before I spoke.

"No Eren I don't think you did anything. I was just confused on how the hell I got here, and what the hell happened. Thank you for clearing it up." I spoke gently.

Eren seemed to be relieved, because he was no longer looking at me with a pissed off look. Noticing that it was still daylight and I couldn't find my phone, I asked Eren what time it was.

"It's three, why?"

Shit. My mom's probably blowing my phone up, asking where the hell I am.

My panic seemed to be noticeable, because Eren started to grow concerned.

"What?", asked Eren.

"My mom. Shit. I told her I was only going out for about an hour, she probably thinks i'm dead or something. Help me find my phone, please?"

"It's right here, princess."

He held my phone out to me, which I immediately snatched out of his hand. I wasn't bothered to complain to him about why he had my phone, or the new pet name. All I was concerned about was checking my notifications, to make sure my mom wasn't blowing my phone up. I turned my phone on, to be met with only one notification. It wasn't even from my mom, I brushed it off and put my phone into my back pocket.

"So um, I should probably get going."

"okay, you need help walking out?"

"Uh no I should be good, thanks for letting me stay."

"It's really no problem."

With that I said my goodbyes to Eren and made my way out of his house. I got into the car and made my way home. I was scared.

Maybe mom didn't say anything, so she could just scold me when I get home? Shit, I'm going to get a scolding.

The ride home was a slow one. Eventually I arrived home. My moms' car was in the driveway, meaning she was home. I was practically shitting my pants walking up to my porch. My hands were shaky, I was nervous. The relationship with my mom and I wasn't a good one, she didn't trust me. Lying about where I was going, and being out later than I told her, was only breaking her trust in me more. I took a breath, and unlocked the door.

To my surprise the door was already unlocked, meaning she was expecting someone, probably me. I pushed the door open, and flicked my shoes off. I wanted to avoid interaction with my mom at all cost, so I silently made my way upstairs. I was trying to be careful to not make a sound. To my dismay, the floor board ended up creaking as I was making my way upstairs. The voice I was dreaded the most, echoed through the house.

"Y/n I know you're up there, come down here."

I didn't have much of a choice, not wanting to get myself in further trouble. I made my way downstairs into the kitchen, where my mom was. I took a seat at the table and just sat there, staring at the table, not wanting to make eye contact with her at the moment.

"I'm going to give you a chance to explain yourself. why were you out two hours later than you were supposed to?"

"I was out at a friends house mom, nothing more."

"Who?"

I made up some fake name, something I'd usually do whenever my mom would ask whose house I was at.

"How come I've never met them?"

"Because they're not comfortable coming over, so I just go over there."

"Oh, well it would've been nice for you to at least said something. I was worried about you, you know?"

"Ya, sorry."

"Well, now that you're here, what do you want for dinner?"

"Don't care."

I walked out of the kitchen, not wanting to continue the conversation more. This is how I was usually, I would only talk to my mom for maybe 20 minutes a day. Most of my time was spent cooped in my room, which is where I was going now. I made my way up the stairs and into my room. I walked into my room, before closing my door. I let out a huff of air.

Finally.

I crawled into my bed, and got on my phone. While I was on my phone I got a notification. It was from an unsaved number.

(xxx)-xxx-xxxx
hey, did you get home safe?

me
who is this?

(xxx)-xxx-xxxx
eren

me
oh, how'd you get my number?

eren
armin gave it to me

me
oh wait, why'd you need me number?

eren
dunno, just got it in case I ever needed to talk to you.

I was hoping he didn't think we were friends. Sure he was there for me when I cried, and as shitty as it might sound, I usually wasn't there for other people when they needed me. I only reached out to people about how they were doing, when I was feeling guilty, which rarely happened.

me
look i'm going to out this in the nicest way i can okay? I know that you were there for me, but I'm probably not going to be there for you. unless you actually text me, telling me you need to talk, i'm not going to willfully talk to you. this also isn't go to be some therapist relationship either, i don't vent to people okay?

the 3 dots danced around on the screen for about a minute or so, before I got a response.

eren
wasn't intending it to be that way. in case you forgot, I'm still kind of pissed off at you for all the times you've hit me. also, I already go to therapy, so there's no need.

wait he goes to therapy?

I used to go to therapy a few months ago too, after I was hospitalized in the psych ward. I stopped going to therapy a while ago after an incident occurred with my therapist.

me
okay, just making sure.

eren
okay, see you tomorrow, princess.

I stared at the screen, rereading the conversation I just had with Eren. I started to think over what happened earlier as well. That's when I came to the realization.

shit, I cried in front of him, didn't I ?

shit

shit

I put my face into my hands, scolding myself for being so stupid.

How dumb could I be?

I was dumb enough to show myself to Eren, to cry in front of him. Then I came to another realization.

I had to see him tomorrow.

I nestled myself further into my pillows, smothering my face into the pillows. I started yelling in my pillow, which thankfully were muffled. I put all my energy into letting everything out. I practically had no energy left, all I wanted to do was sleep, so that's exactly what I did. I slept for the 2nd time today, I wasn't complaining though.
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A/N:
i'm done with exams finally. I'm still pretty busy tho. I usually write at night and publish in the mornings or at night, honestly depends. just wanted to give everyone a heads up incase i don't end up updating that much, though everything should pretty much remain the same. also i hope you guys liked this chapter !