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chris's pov

    I GET DOWN ON MY KNEES INFRONT OF her. don't make me look like a fool emory. just stay. "i would do anything just to have you here. please, please just stay."

she hides her body from me. "you're with leah."

"i don't have to be with her." i say. lies. i can't leave leah. i've been with her for so long it would kill her. but you're killing emory.

"i want to be more than a fucking secret chris." she says with tears coming down her face. "then quit pushing me away." i say going to wipe her tears away but she moves.

"i'm not pushing you away." she says. can she clearly not tell leaving me is pushing me away? how can she not see that.

"chris, you're pushing me farther and farther away everytime you go and see leah." she says. she grabs her clothes and starts getting dressed.

"please don't leave me like this." i say getting up to grab her hand.

this time i successfully catch her hand. "i'm leaving chris. i'm sorry but i can't stay." her hand falls out of mine. with every attempt to keep her here she doesn't want to. she doesn't want me.

she doesn't want me back the way i want her. she grabs her stuff and walks out the door. i don't try to stop her. she doesn't want to be with me fine, she doesn't have to. it's better this way, now i can focus more on leah and our relationship. i feel shitty for kissing emory while with leah but i don't regret it.

it feels like she just walked out the door but i guess not since nick walked through my door asking to film a youtube video. now i'm watching nick set up the camera to fill a try not to laugh video. "okay we're rolling." nick says.

i walk in front of the camera, "all right guys what's going on today in this wednesday video we're going to be doing like a dad joke challenge thingy and um..." i pause and look at nick because he knocked the water bottle out my hand.

"two people are going to fill mouths up.." i get cut off by nick. "matt, matt, matt.... shut up." he says putting his hand up at him then sticking it back in his pocket. "two people are going to fill their mouths up with water and the other two are gonna try to make em spit it out." i say again.

"there's three of us." matt says from behind the camera. "oh the other one." i say lifting my hands in the air. "my fault." i say sarcastically. "mistake." i say to nick who is flipping his water bottle. he chuckles. "don't kill me." i say pulling my phone out of my pocket. "spare me." he says still flipping that damn water bottle.

"spare me." i say as i check emory on life360. she's in the air. "uh alright i'm telling my jokes first." nick shush's me. we all stay quite, "i thought i heard an intruder." he says. "hello?" he ask sitting down the water bottle and walking away. he's so dumb sometimes. i look up from my phone and my eyes follow him.

"nick you're hearing things." i say shrugging my shoulders and looking back down at my phone. "sorry i thought i heard you knock. i'm losing my mind. y'all like hear that?" he says. he walks back into camera view, "i did. which is kinda weird." matt says. "right." nick says with a smile grabbing his water bottle. i walk out of camera view and walk behind the camera while matt takes my place.

matt already starts spitting up water. "okay so the goal is to keep the water in your mouth." he says sarcastically. "no." matt says with a smile. "no i'm not kidding at all, whoever laughs and laughs the most has to clean up." nick says. "okay." i say with a chuckle. "full up." nick says like a little girl.

"nick." i say laughing. "nick, nick. full up your mouth." i says.

the video was honestly so fun to film. we had a blast. i lay down in my bed and check emory's location. she's almost home. she's so far away. my door opens, "i don't know why she just couldn't stay here." i say to whoever opened my door.

"i tried chris." paytyn says. "what happened between you two?" she ask.

"so much but so little."