(LMFAOO! i was listening to that song whenever I made this part)

ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴀʏ
𝐗𝐘'𝐀𝐈𝐑 𝐑𝐄𝐍𝐀𝐘𝐄 𝐑𝐈𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐃𝐒

3 ᴍɪssᴇᴅ ᴄᴀʟʟs Mᴀᴍɪ's Dᴀᴅᴅʏ
5 ᴍᴇssᴀɢᴇs ғʀᴏᴍ Mᴀᴍɪ's Dᴀᴅᴅʏ
6 ᴍɪssᴇᴅ ᴄᴀʟʟs ғʀᴏᴍ Sᴀɪɴᴛ

I sighed sliding my phone in my backpack as I sat in my therapist office looking around as she wrote down some things.

"Session two with Xy'air Richards." She looked up from her notepad crossing her legs. "How are you feeling?"

"Fine." I nodded and she smiled softly. "A little overwhelmed."

"Overwhelmed? Why?" She asked.

"Well, I got news yesterday that my mama was sick in the hospital. Um my baby daddy and Saint keep calling me and texting me asking where I'm at." I sighed letting everything out.

"I'm sorry for the news about your mother. I pray she gets better." She smiled before clearing her throat. "But as far as the men."

She paused. "I think you need to let them go. Focus on yourself Xy'air and daughter."

"I understand you can't let your baby father go but you need to cut off all sexual relations and feelings."

"Saint, if y'all can't have a cordial conversation without it getting hectic and tense then there's no point of trying to understand eachother." She said and I nodded agreeing.

"I don't know how to let them go though. Keenon I've been in this toxic relationship with him for so long, I've became that toxic person because I wasn't like this before him." I said.

"Let. Go. Of. Toxic. People." She said word for word. "God isn't gonna do it by himself. You need to put your part in."

I huffed leaning back in the chair. "It's time to be a big girl Xy'air."

"I know." I mumbled playing with the rips in my jeans. She was completely right though.

Every time god tried to take Keenon out my life, I went back to him and forgave him. I've blocked all gods blessings just for a nigga that's going to continue to do me wrong.

I need to let go of everyone and focus on my child. She needs me the most. Focus on my mama and sisters they need me.

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I sighed walking into my apartment with Arianna in my arms sleep. My lease wasn't up and I was still paying bill here even though I didn't live here.

I walked into her room laying her on her bed. I walked out closing the door and went into my bedroom.

I pulled my phone out and went to Keenon contact. I hesitated to click on the call button but I did it. I put it on speaker and sat it on the bed.

"Yo whatchu on Princess?" He said and I picked at my nails nervously.

"Um I need to talk to you. Seriously." I said and he cleared his throat.

"Fasho washannin?" He asked.

"I've been going to therapy and we had a talk today that really touched my heart. She basically told me I needed to be big girl and take all the toxic people out my life. Including you."

"I-I don't want you to get mad at me or anything but I need this to happen so I can be happy again. I know I can't cut us off completely because ima have to deal with you my whole life since we have a child. But our sexual tense and trying to get our past back has to stop."

"Before you start saying anything this my last thing." I stopped him before he could say anything. "I'm not leaving you. I will never leave you like I promised. But I am asking if you will respect the fact that I need my happiness back and this is the only way I think it could happen."

The line went silent as my eyes started watering and I covered my face feeling myself about to cry.

"I can do that." He said. "I just want the best for you and Arianna. I've put you through too much not fa' me to respect that."

"Thank you Keenon." I smiled wiping my tears. I'm just happy we were being mature about this whole situation.

"But you will always be my Princess and I love yo goofy ass." He said causing me to chuckle.

"I know." I sniffed picking my phone up. "I love yo toxic ass too I guess."

"Aight mane. Ima talk to you later." He said and I nodded like he could see me.

"Okay bye." I said before hanging up then went to Saint's contact.

"God please let this go well." I closed my eyes for a minute before clicking on the call button.

I waited for him to answer which took a minute. I sighed once he answered on the last ring.

"Whatchu on?" He asked with a slight attitude.

"Do you mind coming over? I just wanna talk." I said and he huffed.

"I'm at the studio." He said. "Tell me washannin over the phone."

"I'm sorry for everything I've done in our relationship but you've done some things as well" I said. "I understand if you don't wanna fuck with me no more but at least I'm owning up to what I did."

"Im gonna start focusing on myself, Arianna and my career. I honestly need my happiness back, I haven't been happy for a while." I said.

"Fasho. I apologize for the shit I did too." He said. "I think we just need some time apart."

"Yeah that's what I was thinking. I just need time away from men in general." I said running my hand through my hair.

"Mmm." He hummed leaving an awkward silence.

"So what does that mean?" I asked.

"I guess you not my lady no more." He said. "You was good for the moment."

"Right." I nodded then he hung up on me. Bitter as fuck!

"Fuck be wrong with niggas?" I rolled my eyes.

"Mommy!" I heard Arianna yell from outside my door.

"Yes Mami? Come in." I said and she walked inside with her bear.

"I don't feel good." She huffed crawling onto the bed.

"What does feel good?" I asked pulling her into my lap.

"My tummy." She coughed as I rested my hand on her head checking her temperature. She was hotter than normal.

"Okay Mami take this off." I tugged at her shirt, she sat her bear next to her and pulled her shirt off.

"What do you wanna watch?" I asked grabbing the remote turning the tv on.

"Mm princess and the frog!" She smiled and I chuckled going to Disney plus.

I found the movie and let it play, she laid her head back on my chest after I moved her between my legs.

"I wove you mama." She mumbled.

"I love you too Mami." I kissed her head smirking.

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ik I been gone but this book is coming too an end if you can't tell. But I will be making other books and they won't be toxic as fuck like this book is.

I honestly just went with the toxic shit since it already was at that point.

but I'm sorry for leaving y'all hanging for a minute. i haven't been having any ideas for this book at ALL.