Chapter 23

                 Cushane's pov

Four weeks later...

   I can now work in ease and comfort and I badly wanted to make love to Lamais, I can hardly wait for us to be married so that we won't have to hide when visiting each other. I still feel guilty for having sex with Nicole and pray to God Lamais will not find out when she reads me. I've been avoiding her because of that very reason and I definitely will not be telling her of such an unfortunate act. All her desires I will meet and we will have the best wedding, I trembled at the thought of a lifetime of love and smile happily.

  I was shock to find Nicole waiting for me at my apartment door that evening, I halt in my walk and hissed. "What are you doing here?" I ask her in an annoyed tone.

"As yuh can see I'm waiting on you," she says stepping to the side.

The nerve of her I said in my mind as I try to hold on to the anger I was feeling towards her. "What do you want?" I ask her aggressively.

  She turn her head away without answering and I hissed impatiently, I open my apartment door and walk in close and locking it behind me. I know it was rude but I didn't invite her here and I don't want anything to do with her, not even her friendship after what she had cause me to do. After putting down my bag I sat down for about five minutes and hoped she goes away.

   I change my clothes and decide to go by the beach and just relax for a while, when I open my door she was still leaning against the wall beside it. "Oh Christ! What are you still doing here?" I exclaim asking her.

"Mi come fi talk to yuh and you a behave like mi duh yuh somn," she said sadly.

My head begins to ache and I said. "We have nothing to talk about please leave and don't come back."

  I drive to the beach and bought a cold beer before walking to the waters edge and plopping down, I guess she was horny again but it was never gonna happen between us again. Not wanting to think about her I call my baby and ask her how her day was, my heart felt like bursting just hearing her cheerful voice and my dick strain against my jeans pants front. I told her pointedly that I was burning for her and promise that I would go home afterwards. Before she could finish saying "okay" I was on my feet.

  I stopped to purchase two fish meal because Lamais said she hadn't feel like cooking, malta fruit drinks and beers were next, I drive straight there and could not wait until we eat. I begin to strip her in the kitchen while kissing her hungrily as we made our way to the living room, I hoist her unto the couch arm and pleasure her with my mouth to make her wet and wanton, then delved into her and we sex without me easing out until I came up inside her. I can never seem to be able to pull out whenever I'm inside of her.

  "I love you so much baby," I tell her looking into her eyes.

"I love you too," she says and I kissed her deeply feeling her love.

We shower together then ate and talk about our upcoming wedding. "I can hardly wait to make you my wife," I tell her as we kissed passionately by my car.

  "And I cannot wait to have you as-" Lamais was saying then begin to shake and speak in tongues.

   She smiled apologetically with a frown and I did my best to keep my eyes diverted. I prayed and cried that night asking God to forgive me for being weak and having sex with Nicole, I ask to let her just leave me be and to bless I and Lamais's union. Before I went to sleep I search for another apartment, this one was provided by the company along with the car I drive but I will give them both up if it means Nicole won't know where I live to come there.

   Church was already started when Nicole enters with two other women and sat in the seat infront of the one I was sitting in, this was my very favorite place to sit and I have been sitting here for the past few sundays. I took up my things and place them in another seat over on the other side when the congregation went up to the alter to pray and I went to the opposite side from where she was to pray. In my heart I beg God to forgive my thoughts because I honestly think Nicole is a demon.

  
Before the service ends I saw Nicole speaking with Shanty and when the service was over she went inside Lamais's office when Shanty calls her. I went directly to the back of the church yard to hide, hoping she did not know that I and Lamais is getting married and wanted to try and break it up and I hope she didn't tell her about what happened between us. I was so nervous I was sweating, when I saw Nicole and her friends leaving I crept up close to try and catch a glimpse of Lamais. She seemed okay when I finally saw her locking up the church with the Kirklands and Shanty.

They were all surprise when I walk to where they were saying they thought I had gone over to the house with the children, I told them I was just stretching my legs at the back as we all went through the gate and stood while Bro. Kirkland lock it.

             Lamais's pov

  Cushane had been really quiet over dinner and had dozed off twice during the domino game with the others, I chuckle remembering his embarrass look and apology before he leaves saying that he was tired. Me and Shanty ate a quick lunch as we waited for my next client who was from our sister church. She has requested a read-ing and also told me she wish to speak to me because she desires to start attending my church. I hope she wasn't giving problems over there and then want to come to mines.

  The gate buzzer sounded and Shanty got up quickly, I went into the read-ing room and pulled on my red robe and red head wrap. "Ma'am, Sis. Nicole is here for a reading and to have dialogue with you," Shanty informs me.

"You can send her in now," I told Shanty and we both look at each other as I stifle a sneeze from the raised scent of the mints.

  I lit three red candles and sit on my seat as Sis. Nicole walk in. "Good afternoon bishop," she greeted me.

  Cold bumps filled my body. "Good afternoon," I greeted her in turn.

  "You can speak freely," I tell her when she only sat there.

She cleared her throat nervously and I decided to read her first because I wasn't in the mood for anything that is evil and I never will. "Put the money in there then look directly at me," I told her and she obeys.

I focus and drew her up, the first thing I saw was that she was pregnant. "Are you married?" I ask her when I didn't see the unborn child's father or any man beside her.

"No ma'am," she responds and I begin to read her deeper.

"𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐦𝐚𝐧 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐠𝐧𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐢𝐬 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐢𝐧 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐲𝐨𝐮, 𝐰𝐡𝐲 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐜𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟 𝐭𝐨 𝐛𝐞 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐨𝐧𝐞? 𝐈 𝐜𝐚𝐧𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐧 𝐝𝐫𝐚𝐟𝐭 𝐡𝐢𝐦 𝐮𝐩 𝐭𝐨 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝 𝐡𝐢𝐦, 𝐢𝐟 𝐨𝐧𝐥𝐲 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐠𝐧𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐲 𝐰𝐚𝐬𝐧'𝐭 𝐬𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐠. 𝐘𝐨𝐮'𝐫𝐞 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐲 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐠𝐨𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐨 𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐠𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐜𝐡𝐮𝐫𝐜𝐡 𝐲𝐨𝐮'𝐫𝐞 𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠, 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐢𝐬 𝐨𝐤 𝐚𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐡𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐤𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐛𝐚𝐛𝐲 𝐢𝐬 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐭𝐡𝐲 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐧𝐞𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐦𝐚𝐧 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐟𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐚𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐞."

She sighs with her eyes filled with tears. "Is the man you're pregnant for married?" I ask her.

  Something was triggering off my spirit and I wondered what it was, she was not sick or anything and I've read a lot of pregnant women before. "No he's not," she answers and I saw her looking at my ring.

She deeply desires to get married and I understand with her being in church and all. "The man I'm pregnant for attends your church, he's a new member- Cushane," she says.

I sat staring at her but I knew I heard her right. "You're pregnant for Cushane?!" I ask her to be sure my heart hadn't start thundering within for naught.

"Yes, we were here for convention and he decided that he love your church and wanted to attend," she said while I sat staring at her in utter disbelief.

I put my hand to my forehead and force myself to stay focus and humble, then I ask her. "Did he say he will marry you? Or what do you want me to do because he hasn't say anything and he has only been baptized recently?"

She look down and said. "I hope you can counsel him into marrying me because since mi pregnant fi him all of a sudden him a avoid mi and mi really waan our child fi grow up wid both of us being together."

  I was so stricken by her words that I could hardly keep focus, I read her again and only saw a glimpse of an angry Cushane. How did I not see this coming? Remembering my position I held in my hurt and told her that I would speak to him and then quickly dismiss her. My tears were flooding down before she was out of the gate and I could barely get the words out to tell Shanty.

"The child is definitely his, I don't think I should even ask him about it," I tell her tearfully.

"Avoid him and let's ask him infront of her face, because a must some joke dis," Shanty said visibly hurt and angry.

  I cried so hard because I don't think I'll be able to get over this.

To be continued...