- - say something - A great big world - -
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The way home seemed to be endless.

It was just so long.

Why did it take so long?

I just wanted to get home.

I tried to go faster, but my legs were just so heavy.

It felt like I had bricks on my feet.

But after an eternity, I arrived at my house.
I went in.

Nobody seemed to be home, guess my mom was still somewhere, I don't even know where because I don't really listen when she tells me stuff like that.

I took off my shoes and went to the bathroom, to take a shower.
It was a pretty long day, I needed to shower.
I let the warm water falling down on me.

And I think about what just happened.

What did I do?

I think I was a little bit too harsh, maybe.
I've could've said it a little bit nicer.
He must me so hurt now.
But I didn't thought about his feelings.

I just thought about my own feelings, how hurt I was.

I only thought about myself.

Like I always do.

I ruined everything.

Again.

Why do I always ruin everything with him?

But it wasn't my fault.

He just shouldn't have caught feelings.

But maybe I should've been more sensitive.
When he really likes me, it must be even harder for him.

A tear ran down my cheek.
It blended in with the water from the shower.

I am such a bad human. 

Hyunjin wasn't wrong when he said I was heartless.

Another tear ran out of my eyes.

And Hani said it too.

Oh my god.

I started crying more and more.

I really don't deserve to be on this planet.

I always hurt people.

I'm so insensitive, I don't even notice it when I hurt persons.

I think I never cried that much.

After maybe one hour of sitting in the shower and crying I got changed and went into my bed, where I cried even more.

I didn't even noticed when I fell asleep, it must be around 5 oder 6 am.

When I woke up the next morning, I just felt like shit.

I wanted to die.

I just wanted to disappear.

It's just better for everyone when I'm not there.
I didn't wanted to get out the bed.

I just wanted to stay there until I starve.

But then I grabbed my phone.
Maybe I should text someone.
And I have only two options to text someone.
So let me text both of them.

Powerpuff girlzz😳🥵

Bros

I need to talk to u

Dramaqueen E
Omg what happened

U never say something like that

Hey Hey Chae
U scare me what's wrong

Dramaqueen E
Omg did u kill someone

Wtf no

Can u pls come over

It's urgent

Hay Hey Chae
Don't stress we will be there
in a minute

Dramaqueen E
Right

U guys re angels I LUV U<3

Hey Hey Chae
Where not there now so
don't get ur hopes too high

WHAT

Dramaqueen E
Chill ur balls we will be there
soon

But it's still early so I  may take
a lil longer

Hey Hey Chae
It's literally 1 pm

Dramaqueen E
Yeah but it's summer break

Stfu and move ur ass over
here girlssss

I opened the door.
Both of my friends were standing there.

"Oh my god sweetie, you look horrible", Esther said as soon as she saw my puffy face.

"Thank you", I responded sarcastically.

"Did you cry?", Chaeyoung asked a little bit more sensitive.

"What happened?", the other girl also asked worried now.

I made a hand move for them to come in.
"Something happened yesterday. Let me tell you."

~~~~~
(A/n)

I didn't update yesterday how weirdddd

But it was just one day

And I was busy

For once

I was busy with re-watching Back to the future

Like seriously

Okay but I also did other stuff

I hope nobody missed me too much

And OMG THIS SONGGG

IT REMINDS ME SO MUCH OF METEOR GARDEN

every time I hear it I want to rewatch the series

But I watched it like 3 or 4 times

And there is so much other stuff to watch I don't have the time to rewatch Meteor Garden another time

But every time I hear this 'SAY SOMETHING I'M GIVING UP ON YOU'
I think about Meteor Garden

I think I'm boring everyone rn

Pls excuse me I'm just getting so cringe

Bye my hoes