- - bye bye I finally disappear from your life - msftz- -

He looked surprised, he didn't saw that coming.
He didn't really wanted to believe what I just said.

And how I said it.

"What?", he asked.

"You shouldn't like me, Hyunjin."

"W-Why?"

"We are friends", I said and looked him dead in the eyes.

He grabbed my hand.

"We should be more than friends, (Y/n) Please", he begged.

Oh my god, please don't give me this look, Hyunjin, or I will crack up.

But I stayed resistant.

"No. Nobody wants that. Everyone already hates me, I don't want to imagine how much they would hate me if we were together."

Because that was the other problem.

I think I would live any longer if we were Tibet her and all the girls that are obsessed with Hyunjin would find out.
I think some of them were capable of murder.

"Since when do you care about others?", Hyunjin asked. He still hadn't lost his hopes.

"Since when? Did you even notice what things they did to me? And I maybe want to live some more years on this planet, instead of getter killed by a bunch of girls."

It may was a little harsh, but the truth.

I looked to the ground.

"(Y/n), if they weren't the others, if they were  only the two of us, would you like me, just a little bit?"

"Hyunjin, there's still our friendship", I said, in a low voice, you nearly couldn't hear me.

I still looked to the ground, I didn't wanted to look him in the eyes now.

I knew how hurt he would look, I didn't wanted to see that.

"Then look me in the eyes and tell me that you don't like me. Because now, I am not sure what you feel", Hyunjin whispered.

Shit.

This wasn't good.

I really didn't wanted to look at him right now.

But what do I do now?
Do I really not like him?

I don't want to tell him that I don't like him.

But I don't know if I like him.

But when I'm unsure, it's better to take the easy way.
I sighed.

Then I looked up.

There still wasn't any emotion in my face.

"I don't like you, Hyunjin", I colds said.

It broke my heart to say that. But it was better for him. I really wasn't the right person for him.

It broke my heart even more to see his reaction to what I just said.

The little hope, that was still in his eyes, was completely disappeared now.

He looked so hurt.

That really hit him hard.

There was a silence between us.

He just stared at me me.

And I stared at him.

We looked at each other.

I wanted to say sorry, to make him feel better, but I couldn't.

I knew that it wasn't the right thing to do.

So I just stood up.

"You can forget the friendship thing, too", I said and just started going away.

I started going faster, I just wanted to get home.
I wanted to go further away from Hyunjin.
~~~~~
(A/n)

Omgggg

Is it normal that I start hating the main character?

But at least she has personality

Ughhh

Oh and Hyunjin posted this song on Instagram a few days ago
I really like it it's just soo beautiful

I'm normally not really the type to listen to this kind of music but when I'm in the mood it's just perfect