to be completely honest, this whole 2 months of staying at london was probably the shortest 2 months i've ever had in my life, but also the longest 2 months at the same time. it felt like it all just went by so quick, and just like that, we were on our way to the airport, going back to america. but still, a LOT has changed. 

louis had been kind enough to bring us to the airport, he insisted on it, in fact. 

he helped us get all of our stuff inside the trunk and once we were done, finally set off for the airport. julie called shotgun, for some reason, and so she was in the front seat while me and noah sat in the back. 

we arrived at the airport, and louis hurriedly got out of the car as he helped us carry our luggage into the terminals. we sat down at the food court, since we still had a bit to to wait for our flight boarding. i sat down with my carry-on in hand, louis sitting right beside me while julie and noah went off to the bathroom. 

i sighed, laying my head on his shoulder. 

"you okay?" he whispered concernedly, connecting his warm and tender hand with mine. 

"well, no not really," i said, a hint of sarcasm in my tone. "do you think i'd be okay right now?" 

"hm," louis hummed, "i- i'll miss you," 

there it was. the reality i was deathly afraid to face. i could swear i felt my heart stop beating at that moment. 

"i'll miss you a lot too," i mumbled, scared that if i spoke any louder i would burst into tears. 

just as we were both about to start sobbing our eyes out, our flight was called for boarding. we spotted noah and julie running towards us too. i winced, a hot tear dripping from my eye. louis turned to face me as we both got up.

"dont cry, baby," he frowned, running his finger along my cheek. he threw his head back in an effort to keep himself from crying. i wrapped my arms around him for probably the last time in a while. we hugged each other so tight that i wouldn't be surprised if we broke each other's ribs.

"i love you," he whispered, "so much,"

"i love you too," i said, in probably a really ugly voice due to how much i was crying. 

"we have to facetime every night," he pulled away slightly, his hands placed on my shoulders as i looked up at his red face. "i'll come visit you as soon as i can, hm?"

i nodded, wiping my face with the sleeve of my hoodie. i stood on my tiptoes, giving him one last kiss. then i had to leave to go back home, waving to him as long as i could have seen him. 

cliche, i know. 

AUTHORS NOTE

finally SHSHHS sorry for the small break
ive been lazy

happy new year!! ily all so much
i hope u guys had a good time :D

also new cover by yours truly😩
do u guys like it :>

anyways daily reminder to 
take!! care!! of!! urselves!!

- h