"hey," i whispered, wiping my eyes with the sleeve of my hoodie.

"y/n.. i am so sorry," he said sincerely, his voice deeper and raspier than normal. 
i looked up at him, all i wanted to do was fall into his arms again and for things to go back to normal. i wanted to forget what he just did, which again, proved how much i actually cared about this man. but i needed to hear what he had to say. 

"i know," i gulped, trying to keep the tears in my eyes from flowing. 

"look, y/n i never meant for it to get this bad," he said, his face dropping at his own words.
 tears rolled down his cheeks as he put his arms in his hoodie's pocket. i had no idea what he meant. 

the wind was strong tonight, and it started to drizzle. 

"come in," i sighed, letting him step inside the apartment. 

i led him to my room and we sat on the corner of my bed, 

"tell me, tell me everything. tell me why you had to put me through that," i sobbed, i made a great effort to stop myself from crying, but it was too much and my voice cracked as i let the tears flow down my cheeks. 

"i'm-" he paused, taking a deep breath, he closed his eyes and bit his lip. 

"please don't hate me after this, actually no, you have all the right to hate me." he continued, stuttering a little in between sobs. we both looked like we hadn't slept in years from all the crying and to be honest, we looked a little dumb.

"i didn't wanna talk to you because i like you. i know i make zero sense but please, y/n,"

i covered my mouth with my hand, i couldn't believe what i was hearing. was this all just a joke?
i felt like he was just tricking me, how could he like me? i did feel a great amount of joy, of course, but i was still in disbelief. 

"i saw how you liked noah, i heard how you talked about him and ALL i wanted was for you to talk about me the way you talked about schnapp," he cried, placing his hand over mine, i felt so bad for how i made him feel. yes i did like noah, before i actually met him, and i didn't realize how much i fell for louis. 

noah schnapp is my best friend, he was my celebrity crush, yes, but when i met him, and became his friend i found he would be a great friend, and that only. i did now realize how i felt, it all made sense. all i wanted to give the boy in front of me the biggest hug, but it wasn't the right time.

i closed my eyes, and connected our hands. i felt the heat rush to my cheeks as i took one deep breath, my voice nasally caused by all the crying.

"i'm sorry. i had to get it off my chest, i know it was stupid to ignore you for that, but i was so blinded by how much i liked you, y/n, i don't know what i was thinking" louis continued, choking a little.

i opened my mouth to talk, but no words came out. 

"i know you don't like me back, i'm so sorry, i understand if you don't wanna be friends anymore." he stuttered, i felt a huge amount of butterflies form in my stomach at his words. 

he got up, and let out a small sob as he made his way to the door, 

"lou," that was all i could say, 

he turned around and tilted his head a little, 

"listen to me, louis." i said softly, 

"noah, he's my best friend and yes i thought i liked him  but, i don't know. i just.."

louis stood near the door, his face red from crying. 

"i realized when i found you and lily, i got so fucking jealous. i cried my heart out today because i thought i lost you. i thought you didn't wanna be friends anymore, and then i saw lily, i mean she's gorgeous and talented, i mean," louis looked at me with sorry eyes, i wiped my eyes with my sleeve again.

"and i realized how much i've fallen for you, no matter how stupid you are," i smiled, a small smile but it was the first time today. louis's lips curled into a smile and i let out a small chuckle, 

we looked at the ground simultaneously, both of us did it to hide how much we were blushing. we looked back up at each other, and we maintained eye contact for what felt like hours. just like that, our arms clasped around each other as if we were never apart. my head pressed against his chest as warm tears flowed down each of our faces. 

"i've missed you and your stupid, stupid smile," he giggled, putting his hand at the back of my head, stroking my hair. 

"so have i, you idiot," i smiled sheepishly, pulling away reluctantly.

"i love you," he said, kissing my forehead.

"i love you too louis," i whispered.

we looked like two idiots, our faces red and ugly from crying, but we didn't care.
all we cared about right now was each other, and i guess that's what mattered.

AUTHORS NOTE

WAS THIS TOO DRAMATIC
BSJDHFKDJFSKDJN

kinda proud of this fdjkfsd lol
IM SORRY MY OLD WRITING STYLE WAS EW AH 
I READ MY OLD CHAPTERS AND I WAS SO
BAD I HATE IT HERE

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