"Meeting you was such, a nice accident"

- Modern World Au!
- Special Chapter
- Angst

[ "Heather" ]
[ By: Conan Gray ]

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I still remember third of december, me in your sweater

I smiled brightly looking at myself on the mirror "Why does my sweater look better on you, than me ?" He ask at me looking up and down, his black sweater on me

You said it looked better on me than it did you

"Because i'm better looking~?" I joke

Only if you knew how much that i like you

I try my best to hide the small blush forming in my cheeks, and decided to blame it on the coldness
"After this, wanna hangout ?" I ask only to see him staring behind me. "Lucas ?"

But i watch your eyes as she walks by

I flicker my hands on his forehead, snapping him out of it "what ?" He coldly ask me, more like a threat, but i shrug it off.

"Hi guys !" I then hear the all to familiar voice of Athanasia as she came towards us

What a sight for sore eyes

Of course, me his best friend i know that he had feelings for Athy, but will clearly deny it saying he has not but i knew that better than anyone else. Seeing your eyes always land to her and your attention.

Athanasia left, telling us she had project to do. I notice Lucas staring at the empty space were Athy left

I honestly think why wouldn't it be me ? I shook my head to clear those thoughts i had

"Lucas you need to talk to her" i told him as he looks at me unimpressed "Why would i ?" Replied by him, i look at him with my all to infamous dumbfounded look "for god's sake, go talk to her" i tried my best not to crack my voice, telling him to go acting to be a supportive friend, i urge him

"Fine." He than left i stare at the space where Lucas left momentarily to talk to Athy

She's got you mesmerized

I didn't know i space out not until i hear his voice coming towards my direction

"I forgot. I'm gonna need my sweater back just in case." Lucas quickly says as he takes his sweater off me "Sorry Y/N"

"But-" i try to defend back but get cut off of him running down the hallways "thanks !" He shouts loud enough for me to hear, i grip the hem of my shirt

While i die

Walking away like a thin air i go to the girls bathroom, to wash, more like to cool my face

I look at the person in the mirror with a tired look and a failed smile. I sigh as i walk out of the bathroom, seeing Lucas and Athanasia pass by

I still remember the day where he accidentally kiss me, and the words he use to say to me

'I would never leave a friend because of a crush'

But now looking at them makes my heart shatter to pieces where's the i would never leave a friend ?

Why would you ever kiss me?
I'm not even half as pretty

I see Lucas giving Athanasia the sweater, which i had on before he take it off of me, and start to get jealous wishing i was her.

You gave her your sweater, it's just a polyester

Sometimes i wonder of all the people in the universe, my heart could have chosen

It decided on a boy
Who didn't have enough room in his own heart
To love someone like me.

He does like me, but just not in the way i want him to.

But you like her better
I wish i was heather

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Watch as she stands with you, holding your hand

Lucas did it. He finally confess to Athanasia of years of practicing and now their dating

Put your arm around her shoulder,

Him, Athy, my friends and i were hanging out on the AV room since we where apart of it

"Y/N can you get me a water bottle ?" Lucas ask

Now i'm getting colder

"Why don't you get it yourself" i replied back as i walk away with a stern look on my face, which i still did it anyway but throwing the bottle against him.

As i slump back at my chair

But how can i hate her

"Y/N are you okay ?" Athanasia ask me, how could i ? I mean she's my best friend i have no right to hate her, ruining our friendship because of a stupid feelings ? !

"Why wouldn't i be ?" I ask, forcing a convincing smile at her

"If your not, remember i'm here for you" She reminds, she's so caring and,

She's such an angel

Once's she's out of sight i curse loudly and throw the baseball at the aquarium which i broke it making the glass hit my hand, and curse loudly good thing theres no animal in there

She is fun to be around, she's outgoing, caring, lovely, funny and even will do anything for a friend

But then again, kinda wish she were dead

But other than that, i don't want something bad to happen to her, even though she already stole something precious to me.

As she walks by
What a sight for sore eyes

I've been told
That if you repeat a word
Over and over
It loses its meaning

I have stayed up countless nights 
Repeating your name
Hoping
You will mean less to me
With each breath

Brighter than the blue skh
She got you mesmerized, while i die

You made me feel as though I was enough, when you look over your shoulder i thought it was just someone who was passing by

I took a peek at it not until i saw her.

Why would you ever kiss me?
I'm not even half as pretty

You were truthful, or I was the greatest dupe who ever existed. I can only believe in our ecstasy. I don't want to know, I only want to love you.

But i know you won't say it back

You gave her your sweater, it just polyester

Seeing them together walking away holding hands while eating ice cream, it was suppose to be us

But i know i won't ever be, the frayed red thread tangling over between their index finger while i look at mine, i can't see it.

I wish i was in her place, i want to tell you these feelings but i never cause' i thought this would broke our friendship, thats why i didn't even tried to tell you on how i really feel

But you like her better
I wish i wss heather

He used to walk me home after where done hanging out but now i'm just another hindrance to him

Another third wheel, ruining a couple's lovely-dovey moments but its not like i mind being a third wheel but still i couldn't get this feelings out of me

Walking down the corridors of the hallways making my way into the AV room, i saw the door opened 3inches and seeing Lucas and Athanasia doing romantic things like any couples would do

And that's it i blast music on my earphones and began to lip sync

"Why would you eber kiss me?
I'm not even half as pretty
You gave her your swester, it's just a polyester
But you like her better

Wish i were..."

A/N: Sorry for not updating but here's a special chapter, I was wondering if I would continue this story or no, let me know if I should just do this as a one shot or continue it